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Is anyone a happy, chronic heroin user?

Floating Zebra

Floating Zebra

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Hello children, I hope ive posted this in the right forum.

Ive been reading a lot of reports on heroin-flyers who are just too fucking upset about life that they can't handle very much anymore. Aren't there any of you guys who have been shooting up or smoking or whatever for a long time, and happy in your shoes? If I sound a little harsh, I would like to clarify your understanding by pointing out my curiosity.

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I'm not sure that I understand your question: are you asking whether or not it's possible to be a happy, habitual heroin user? If that's what you're asking, then I would have to say that it's possible, but difficult.

I can only speak for myself, but in my experience, heroin hasn't exactly made me any unhappier than I already am. I'm broke all of the time, but I was broke all of the time before I began sniffing dope. If I weren't broke all of the time, and if I weren't a habitual heroin user, then I would just burn through my money on a bunch of worthless things that, like dope, would make me happy for that moment but have no real lasting, positive impact on my life -- things like shoes, clothes, a new watch, maybe.

It could be that I'm rationalizing, but I guess that I just have a very existentialist attitude toward the whole thing.
 
I knew a restaurant owner who was smart, good looking, extremely successful, had all his shit in order, pretty much everything you look for in a productive member of society...he also shot heroin frequently, many times in his car and in the manager's office late at night. Eventually, he spiraled out of control for a year or two, but it didn't matter because his restaurants were managed by someone else and he just collected money every month. I think his fiance or some shit got him to quit, but I heard he still does coke...

anyway, point is, chronic use of h can only last so long before it become problematic.
For two, three, maybe four years you can keep the shtick going, but by then you've lost all control..
 
Louis is right. You can only be a happy heroin user for so long before it becomes problematic. I was a happy heroin user for quite some time... but as your tolerance increases and you need more and more, or you can't get any one day and get sick, or you don't have enough money for a days bag and find yourself doing terrible things to get your fix, you'll wake up and realize your not happy anymore.

In rehab they call the stage of using when you are a happy user your 'honeymoon phase'.. but if you are an addict, like I am, it will end, no exceptions.
 
I dunno I think if I had the means to properly support my habit I would be an extremelly happy heroin addict. I have never been as happy as I was on heroin but I just didnt have the money to properly finance the habit.
 
i always felt like a "drug problem" is only a problem if you cannot afford your drugs. when i had bottles of pills in my pockets, i was just like anybody else. grocery shopping, movies, coffee with friends, etc. quite happy indeed.
 
throwupmonster said:
i always felt like a "drug problem" is only a problem if you cannot afford your drugs. when i had bottles of pills in my pockets, i was just like anybody else. grocery shopping, movies, coffee with friends, etc. quite happy indeed.
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I couldn't agree more with your post. For the longest time I thought it was only a problem when you can't afford your drugs and start stealing or committing other crimes to finance your drug of choice. Eventually I realized that my drug of choice, opiates/iods particularly methadone, had more control over me then I was willing to admit. Without this liquid substance I cringe and am weak. Must always have some type of opiod/ate to prevent sickness. I know I must quit eventually. I imagine it will be difficult as I dont even go a methadone clinic for the methadone, I obtain it through a different method. I can still afford this bad habit without much problem, but I would have an extra 60 bucks a week. $60 x 52 weeks = $3120. I digress, good post.
 
I am happier off drugs (if I have fully detoxed like past paws but thats like a crazy mission most people cant complete (including me lol).

But I am happy as a chronic dope user depending on how heavy I am using. If I have the financial means to support my habit every day.. and theres no big ups and downs days of total sickness..I am happy. But it ends up being like I get high most of the week and end up really sick some days.. up and down, its just not normal to be like super happy at night then wake up depressed as fuck you know.. it gets to you. pain and sh it.
 
verso said:
I can only speak for myself, but in my experience, heroin hasn't exactly made me any unhappier than I already am. I'm broke all of the time, but I was broke all of the time before I began sniffing dope. If I weren't broke all of the time, and if I weren't a habitual heroin user, then I would just burn through my money on a bunch of worthless things that, like dope, would make me happy for that moment but have no real lasting, positive impact on my life -- things like shoes, clothes, a new watch, maybe.

It could be that I'm rationalizing, but I guess that I just have a very existentialist attitude toward the whole thing.
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This is exactly how I feel. Before I got into D, I would piss my money away on something else. Also, my drug use hasn't really caused me any negative effects in my life that weren't already there. I still enjoy the same things, I just happen to do dope in my spare time. I still pay my bills, work, go to school and have great relationships with my family and boyfriend. So yeah... I'm the same as I always was, I just do drugs, too.
 
I think it's all subjective on the person. But there are multiple examples of celebrities with drug problems (heroin or other hard drugs) who may have function for a lloonngg time but EVENTUALLY it fucked their life thus probably making them unhappy
 
It depends on what happy means. I'm not happy ever really, content is a better word. Only thing that makes me happy even with the Horse is other people and experiences. But as a very good artist once said, Gods name is Smack for some. therefore I'm gonna jump on the band wagon and say you cannot maintain control unless you have someone else controlling and managing your use.
 
It would require a rediculous (sp.?) amount of self-control but I have gone for long periods of time being happy content and with not increase in dosage versus expected effect. :/
 
I can stay happy when i'm first starting to get high again Or when I have a lot and can use them responsibly. Eventually though no matter how long I chip for i'll always end up getting addicted. Then somewhere along the line i'll miss out on a good opportunity because i'm nodding out not paying attention. At that point i'll get down on my self. Then the withdrawal comes and boom-depressed.

When you run out it's going to be hard to deal with stuff. Of course you can function fine when your high. It's when your not high that the problems emerge.

The way I look at it is your probably really happy when you first start getting high. Then slowly the more and more you get high it will get taken away from you. The key is to stop before you get to this point. I've managed to get really nice highs by just using 1 or 2 times a month. Instead of going everyday.
 
Although this isn't about heroin, I thought it was worth chiming in. I've noticed the same as some of you have reported with most/all drugs - when I have cash in hand, I'm about to buy, or I have plenty of whatever drug I feel like using - I feel great, even if I'm not using it or not planning to use it for some time. On the other hand though, if I'm running low, I've run out, or I don't have cash I find it hard to even enjoy my highs.

A few times what I've done is kept a small amount of each drug I've been using, and just avoided using it until I could get more, that way I never worried about not having it. Not really that on-topic, but I thought it was worth mentioning :)
 
Im sure there are plenty, i know people in my home country who receive heroin legally from the state but looking at them they just dont seem that happy. I was a hardcore heroin addict for years, heroin for me was like a synthetic happiness, happiness in a needle...real happiness comes from other things such as success,love,family etc....how can you realy know if you are happy if you are relying on heroin to make you happy even though you might be unaware of it.

I thought i was happy when i sold dope and dope was always around, and i probably was happy because i was always high but my habit had spun out of control due to the endless supply of heroin, always having a few hundred grams lying around my apartment allowed me to use as much as i wanted and that i did...i was "HAPPY"! just until my supplyer got caught with 3 kg's of gear and i was left with a 2g per day habit and noone to front me the goods so i had to start robbing and doing horrible things just to stay well and thats when i realised i wasnt so damn happy and 6 months later checked into rehab.

Sorry for the rant, coke.

but yeah its possible to be happy but its not real happiness its just the drugs making you think you are happy.
 
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