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Irresponsible drug use
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Sammy G
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I've had to calm down a lot for various reasons, but an awful lot of my drug use has been irresponsible. Eyeballing doses of 2C-E (and everything else). Inadvisable depressant combos, taking LSD at least once a week to a soundtrack of nightmarish music, taking speed every day, whiskey and brandy on an empty stomach, and I could be here forever.
I complicated and aggravated a serious mental illness through my drug use. That's one of the biggest regrets of my life, and I will have to live with the consequences forever.
I complicated and aggravated a serious mental illness through my drug use. That's one of the biggest regrets of my life, and I will have to live with the consequences forever.
My number one for irresponsible drug use has to be buying powdered benzodiazepines off the internet thinking "wow what a great deal!" It invariably ends with me having a few drinks and thinking "whoo this is great" and eventually just sticking my finger into the bag and then licking it... Several times. More than one trainwreck has resulted from this sequence of events. Yeah, if you're going to buy powdered benzos at least dissolve them in PG or something of that ilk, and even then one must be extremely careful.
What is that like if you dont mind me asking?
And do you think you could pinpoint what caused it?
Good advice thanks, i have refrained from buying powder myself as i have heard a lot of stories like yours. Hope your okay, stay safe
Sammy G
Ex-Bluelighter
I'm bipolar. This was suspected for a long, long time by people who would plead with me to get help, but not diagnosed until my life finally unravelled to the point I was basically forced to seek that help. I was terrified.
Prior to my use of psychedelics and stimulants, I would have simple hypo/manic and depressive states, and would cycle fairly slowly. I'm now rapid-cycling - close to ultra-rapid - and I experience mixed states regularly, which are horrible. Medication keeps things from getting too crazy, but it's not a cure.
I'm not sure if I regret most of the fun I had, it's just that the end result sucks.
Prior to my use of psychedelics and stimulants, I would have simple hypo/manic and depressive states, and would cycle fairly slowly. I'm now rapid-cycling - close to ultra-rapid - and I experience mixed states regularly, which are horrible. Medication keeps things from getting too crazy, but it's not a cure.
I'm not sure if I regret most of the fun I had, it's just that the end result sucks.
p4nda
Bluelighter
Lol, how you wrote that. Well one simply does not stick fingers into benzo powders (they are yucky ewwwww)
split it on very tiny pieces (or get a scale) and capsule em, depends some benzos are very efficient at 1 mg basis, different, if you already had tolerance, but i cannot imagine how badly that went 
To me irresponsible is when you know your life is going no-where 'cause of your drug use and you're on your bottom, not living healthy, but still not looking for any help. Particularly people with families or their significant others in worries and it can be basically an abuse of any drug.
You can still take some drugs occasionally and live like anyone else.
Anyway taking too much LSD in public would be a very irresponsible idea
To me irresponsible is when you know your life is going no-where 'cause of your drug use and you're on your bottom, not living healthy, but still not looking for any help. Particularly people with families or their significant others in worries and it can be basically an abuse of any drug.
You can still take some drugs occasionally and live like anyone else.
Anyway taking too much LSD in public would be a very irresponsible idea
I think getting a pretty demanding job really helps! Knowing you cant get fucked up because you might not make it into work tomorrow and knowing if you get fired you will lose something thats worth so much.
Well i think thats how iv managed to control my use over the past few years but obviously different folks, different strokes.
F.U.B.A.R.
Bluelight Crew
I guess irresponsible drug use can be defined as anything which has a negative impact on your life. For me it was smack, crack, benzos, booze and all combinations thereof.
Absolutely agree with this. In the past, knowing I had to get up in the morning and if I fucked up my job there would be serious consequences (I was responsible for a lot of money) really kept me from going overboard. Unfortunately I'm now a student and hence the master of my own time, so here I am at 4pm on G with a can of stella (also extremely irresponsible but I'm drinking very slowly).
When i started knocking out coke years ago and got a taste for shootin it which led on to speedballs and massive binges which i would try and finish by stubbing the works on a table then 1/2 hour later fishing them out a bin staighting them and sharping on a matchbx....probably why i got no veins left : (
BecomingJulie
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I would say it's irresponsible to render yourself unfit, through drink or drugs, to deal with a situation which you could reasonably have been expected to foresee developing.
Taking acid while the kids are sleeping upstairs, then one of them gets hurt in an accident but you are too out of it to get them to hospital = irresponsible.
Taking acid while the kids are safely with a babysitter, then one of them gets hurt in an accident and the babysitter has to sort it all out = unlucky.
Taking acid while the kids are sleeping upstairs, then one of them gets hurt in an accident but you are too out of it to get them to hospital = irresponsible.
Taking acid while the kids are safely with a babysitter, then one of them gets hurt in an accident and the babysitter has to sort it all out = unlucky.
StoneHappyMonday
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One of the most moot points that could be brought up in EADD and it gets 12 replies in 4 days. And four of those are from the OP.
Think what that says about the forum currently. Then someone post a picture of a cat in a blue and white jumper or something.
CosmicG
Bluelighter
Irresponsible drug use in my experience has always involved me using drugs in excessive amounts, and I mean all kinds of drugs, for long extended periods of time. I have been a hardcore poly drug abuser in the past and honestly still to this present day though perhaps not to such extremities. From one addiction to the next I go, when will it stop...I don't know. I like to think I have it somewhat under control at this point but I think I have just gotten into a routine where I can use as I please my drugs of choice and function normally, better in my opinion. But I always crash and burn eventually. Whether that be waking up wanting to cry because I can't stand my job or blacking out and making regrettable decisions. I have hopes for a better tomorrow.
steewith2ees
Bluelight Crew
This is such a wide ranging question - most of my drug use has been at least a little irresponsible
Responsible drug use - now thats a difficult question. The only example I can think of that was having 2 pills left on me early one morning at helter skelter, when everyone else had run out. I remember being kind and responsible and crashing someone half instead of just double dropping. Like Jesus with the loaves and fishes.
Responsible drug use - now thats a difficult question. The only example I can think of that was having 2 pills left on me early one morning at helter skelter, when everyone else had run out. I remember being kind and responsible and crashing someone half instead of just double dropping. Like Jesus with the loaves and fishes.
Sprout
Bluelight Crew
As Julie stated rather eloquently; irresponsible use, to me, is any use that renders one incapable or unfit to fulfil responsibilities or obligations.
I guess missing work/studies because I had been up all night smoking crack and Fentanyl counts. As would being lay on the floor of my flat after overdosing on Fentanyl, Crack and Triazolam. Surprisingly enough, my use ended up costing me said flat.
So why should others avoid it? Well; my use claimed 3 houses, my fiancée, countless thousands of pounds, friends, family, my dignity and very nearly my life, not to mention time in a psyche ward and reducing me to little more than scum.
I guess missing work/studies because I had been up all night smoking crack and Fentanyl counts. As would being lay on the floor of my flat after overdosing on Fentanyl, Crack and Triazolam. Surprisingly enough, my use ended up costing me said flat.
So why should others avoid it? Well; my use claimed 3 houses, my fiancée, countless thousands of pounds, friends, family, my dignity and very nearly my life, not to mention time in a psyche ward and reducing me to little more than scum.
foolsgold
Bluelighter
well i got my etiz at 12pm already on 20mg plus now i know ive a tolarance but i think this is rip off ive ever got 0.5mg or 1mg instead 2mg
but if we want to talk about irresponsible substance abuse how about having the ability to consume up to 10 cans of butane gas in one sitting truth be for just over a £1 a can it was the most amazing substance i have ever used true dissociation
just order 25x Clonazolam 0.5mg Pellets for £11 not bad going
but if we want to talk about irresponsible substance abuse how about having the ability to consume up to 10 cans of butane gas in one sitting truth be for just over a £1 a can it was the most amazing substance i have ever used true dissociation
just order 25x Clonazolam 0.5mg Pellets for £11 not bad going
