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Mahakali

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Hello,

I have been reading the information and experimentation sections in regards to research chems for years and have decided to join in and share my experiences with such things, and more importantly: seek advice for better, more responsible use and improved regimens in regards to ameliorating negative effects through supplementation, detoxification, and related areas. I know that I am harming my body as I 'help my soul' by using these substances, and I hope to one day be able to operate without their assistance (as Nature intended).

I consider my body to be a complex and multi-faceted chemical factory which is constantly being exposed to the harshness of not only the environment I live in, but also the needs of my ego itself, which can play havoc on its smooth functioning.

I aim for stable and healthy homeostasis, and no longer seek peak experiences...I prefer the slow stable route, vs. trying to fly to the top!

Substances of Interest I have used in the past:

-LSD (~160 times)
-mushrooms (cubensis, etc. ~ 50 times)
-Amanita Muscaria (~4 times)
-DXM (750-1000 mg 3-4 plateau generally ~ 15 times)
-Nitrous oxide (~3-4 hours total time in that place, often used as an additive with other RCs or entheogens)
-DMT (smoked ~3 times @ 45 mg)
-5-Meo-DMT (~13 times)
-5-Meo-DiPT (~5 times)
-4-ACO-DMT fumarate base (~25 times @ moderate intensity)
-MXE (my problem child! lol ~lots 'o times - the most ever!)
-Cannabis (chronic & habitual use for over 16 years with occasional breaks from 1-6 months)
-Alcohol (did not use much until I was about 25...then used sporadically, have noted tendencies towards alcoholism more often as I grow older and I am becoming more dilapidated)

There is more - will update if needed..

My point/purpose in coming here is mainly to learn to control my addictions, and eventually lose the 'need to depend' which I view as false - it is desire based through and through. I do not abuse any longer (although I was in that stage several months ago). I hope to be able to rely less and less upon our molecular frenemies, and I hold much respect for their assistance in my production to the NOW-MOMENT, which is the end result of everything that has happened from all sources of causation. I wouldn't have made it to where I am without them. I probably won't make it to where I want to go with them riding in my scooter however! I am in a treatment program and wish to exit clean. I am using strategically those things which work for me to prevent derailment.

So...basically we are down to MXE and occasional 4-ACO-DMT now...plus prescriptions (Wellbutrin) and supplementation (forthcoming list)

I want to find out as much about kidney/liver toxicity and protective measures as possible. I am interested in doing flushes of my kidney and liver. I do not have the money to approach a qualified expert on these things. I am doing my own research and always appreciate the willingness of 'those in the know' to send their knowledge my way.

Peace
 
Hiya Mahakali,

Welcome to the Bluelight community. It's always nice to see newcomers join the site.. I hope that you enjoy it here and get what you want / need from Bluelight.

You may be interested in the following links:

- The Dark Side
- Sober Living
- Mental Health

People are very supportive when it comes to helping people with addictions and with recovery. They are very empathic and understanding.

- BLUA (Bluelight User Agreement)
- Greenlighter's Guide
- New Members Introductions (NMI) Social Thread
- Adoption Programme
- Other Drugs (OD)
- Support (for things such as technical issues, giving feedback etc).

Please feel free to ask any questions about the site.

Evey
 
Welcome to Bluelight Mahakali. :)

You've done LSD 160 times? Good lord! I'd be interested to hear your perspectives about it and what kind of influence it has had on your life if you get a chance to reply, I mean that in a positive way, just haven't heard of anyone consuming it that many times it has me very intrigued!
 
Thanks Eveleivibe...I can tell this will be a good place for knowledge and support.

:)
 
Hello. I will check them out fer sure. Knowledge of health and chemistry goes hand in hand I think.
 
I love hallucinogens and entheogens, they are my drug of choice over all others. They are my spirit medicine. I owe much of my spiritual evolution and understanding to their involvement in my bodymind palace. I am pretty sure that there are some on here who have done LSD 5-10x as much as me, but that isn't due to lack of trying! ;) It's hard to find nowadays.

I am of the Terence McKenna crowd I guess, not that I have read much by him. Just that mindset - that it can open up the psychic centers and allow contact with the deeper levels of GodMind.

I owe my Kundalini awakening in part to my use of entheogens.

It is like opening up the deepest parts of the mind and its constituents to the light of awareness, almost as if you are pushing the hidden, sleeping parts of yourself that normally come out in dreams, to the surface. These hidden selves are often delusional mind-selves that haven't seen the True reality that can only be directly perceived by having a fully awakened Dharma Eye. It is a catalytic event.

If you are interested, I will post more about this when I have time to snoop around and find the right section. The thing that keeps me sane in all of my entheogen exploration is my strong spiritual goals aimed at Gnosis of Suchness, or what they call Direct Seeing of the Now Moment- the only true knowledge. Little mind by itself is incapable of this gnosis. Only when that mind is emptied and silenced, and one opens to the TaoMind of the Group Collective, can one understand things from the All Perspective. These capitalized terms I am throwing around aren't necessarily real terms that others use - more of poetic base, for succinctly describing that which cannot be described - Isness, Thisness, Suchness - That, Tao, etc.

To summarize briefly the influence it has had, it is spiritual through and through...it is that of awakening through the struggle of mastering the delusional self, in order to reclaim the (never lost) True Self, which is known by various names and descriptors such as Brahma, Nonduality, GodMind, TaoMind, GoodMind, OverSoul, Conscious Collective, SuperSoul, OverMind, and many other names back through time.

The hundreth monkey effect works on this principle.

This is the trinity: Left brain (analytical, categorical, male, Yang, dominating, hierarchical, rational, etc.)
Right brain (gestalt, female, Yin, receptive, group-synth, feeling, intuitive, etc.)
GodMind (Nondual, nonpartisan, all-inclusive, holos, etc.)

Sat-chit-ananda (Being, Consciousness, Bliss) is this same trinity, and is the melting of energy, awareness, and matter...the Seen, the Seer, and the Act of Seeing.

All of these are theoretical ways of looking at the One Thing that is in front of our noses - That Which Is, and cannot be divided. My attempts to divide and explain are limited mental gymnastics.

But I will try to expand my current explanation at some point.

From a more mundane/secular perspective, I think that proper use of entheogens is healthy for the mental/emotional architecture and experience, when approached from a disciplined perspective.

The only reason I wish to attain the ability to achieve the levels of gnosis I have when on these is because I wish to bring my truest self into existence without crutches, that is, to merge with the TaoMind, which requires a level of surrender I have not yet disciplined myself towards.
 
Sweet zombie Jesus that was a killer post. Thanks for taking the time out to write a reply that detailed. I'm sure you're right that there would be others that have done it 5-10x more than yourself, but still your experiences sound like intensity in ten cities. Mint. :)
 
Thanks my peeps! I love y'all and I know why y'all do whatcha do and you are all my soul brothers and sisters.

The truth is hard to find, and ignorance is the root source of suffering- and as the search for truth is the motivating desire behind our entheogenic incursions into the unconscious mind that we share, it is plain that we have good reason for our predilections to break our restrictions which is what ignorance is. If I am to speak of addictions, then I am addicted to finding the truth, and in this Light, which is the color Blue =D (which just happens to be the color of the 5th chakra!) I think we all seek to ease the suffering of not knowing who we are. We are what we eat! We are spirit molecules!

Spirit molecules of the world unite!

;)
 
Hi from California. I'd love to hear about some of your experiences. What part of the world do you hail from , if you don't mind me asking?
 
Welcome! Im also new here, about to make a post. You sound like quite the interesting person. I, like others, would love to hear about your experiences with LSD and also mushrooms. I have used both, and agree with your opinion on psychedelics. I will be using ibogaine in about 3 days here in mexico, super excited. Maybe ill make a post about it. Anyways, welcome again :)
 
I'm in upstate NY right now, but I aspire to relocate back to da west coast. Lived in San Fran and Portland...I am a west coaster for certain. I might move in a few months if I can wrap everything up here just right.
 
IBOGAINE! The envy nectar is dripping! lol ;) - tell me when you are going to do it and I will 'try to be there' in the spirit world with you ai ai!
 
So if I do post about my experiences in the relevant section, what is the best way?

I have made the spirit molecules such a part of my life that I would hate to generalize, or just say 'it is like such and such' and say stuff you guys have heard before...for any of you long-time blue lighters out there - what should an experienced psychonaut share that would be of interest?

Should I just trip and write about what I am experiencing in the right now?

I know!

I will use my digital voice recorder to record a trip and then edit it in Audacity to change the voice so that no one could identify me, and then post the actual .mp3 on here...can I do that? Or else I can send the file in a PM or email..

let me know my ninjas!
 
Thanks man it looks like I'll beginning my journey tomorrow evening or the next. Hopefully tomorrow, I've been ready for a while :) Anyways most people write their reports but a think an audio recording would be cool!
 
I can transcribe the session...it'll take me some time...well honestly, I am a bit of a slacker...I'll get to it, I swear!
 
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