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Hey everyone, found this site while researching synthetic marijuana and thought I'd join.

SWIM uses marijuana on a daily basis (2-3 oz a week), but is looking for legal and less expensive means to help with depression, mood stabilization and sleep.
 
welcome dbaybay!

have you spoken to a doctor/therapist? There are many medications that have proven themselves effective

Also, diet and exercise work really well. I've never used synthetic cannabinoids so i have no experience with their affects/after-affects.

Can you provide more info on your depression and moods?

Bluelight's Search Engine will definitely yield a significant amount of info.

You'll also find that each forum has its own search engine as well

Be aware, however, that if you use 'SWIM', folks will jump all over your shit (we tend to hate that stupid acronym). Just speak as yourself but don't provide info that would just be bad from a legal sense. Using SWIM offers no legal protection (neither do 'my dog just tried acid for the first time' type references)

Again, welcome to BL!!!!
 
Hello and welcome dbaybay :) I'm glad you found us. I think you'll find Bluelight to be a truly wonderful place <3

There are plenty of wonderful ways to help with depressed and lonely thoughts. They may be medications, they may not be. I always find myself opening up a new book or going outside and taking my dogs for a walk if I'm feeling blue. It is so much fun to watch them play and interact with the world around them. I wish I has innocence like that. :)

Also as OverDone said, exercise is a great way to feel better both mentally and physically, if if it's just a simple stroll down to the park.

I hope you enhoy your stay here and I very much look forward to you future posts

With Love and Respect
-d_9 <3
 
OverDone said:
welcome dbaybay!

have you spoken to a doctor/therapist? There are many medications that have proven themselves effective

Also, diet and exercise work really well. I've never used synthetic cannabinoids so i have no experience with their affects/after-affects.

Can you provide more info on your depression and moods?

Bluelight's Search Engine will definitely yield a significant amount of info.

You'll also find that each forum has its own search engine as well

Be aware, however, that if you use 'SWIM', folks will jump all over your shit (we tend to hate that stupid acronym). Just speak as yourself but don't provide info that would just be bad from a legal sense. Using SWIM offers no legal protection (neither do 'my dog just tried acid for the first time' type references)

Again, welcome to BL!!!!
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Thanks for the warm welcome! Unfortunately, I've been stuck in the system for the last 2 years since these problems continued to compound and get worse (I had depression and emotional issues as a teen but was never in a position to do anything about it). I've been diagnosed with depression, bi-polar I w/o psychosis, severe social phobia and borderline personality disorder. I've been on more meds than I can count on hands, feet and nipples. SSRI's, mood stabilizers, blood pressure meds to control anxiety, panic attacks and shakiness, along with countless sleeping meds (Ambien, Lunesta, Halicion, ETC ETC ETC).

It's really hard to describe my feelings. Some days when suffering mania episodes I will be the most talkative, productive person I know. But when I'm not in manic mode (which is 98% of the time), I'm depressed. I spend countless hours just laying around, absolutely no motivation, can't focus, can't accomplish anything, eating is practically non-existent without the use of weed. It's just all around miserable and I have a really hard time in social settings, I'm so paranoid of people and what they might do or even worse think.

So I smoke weed to help with my moods and eating and sleeping issues and it has been a godsend. Of course, the doctors refuse to write me a prescription (as it is legal in my state to be prescribed up to 2 1/2 oz every 15 days) - so I'm trapped on these mood stabilizers and sleeping meds that I have NO clue about - long term effects and so forth.

Since it has become legal in my state though, the prices have skyrocketed without a prescription and it's even harder to find now than it was before (don't ask me how with dispensary's popping up now). So I started researching synthetic marijuana since I had seen it was legal and purchasable online and so forth, however I read a lot of bad reports on it and then found this forum, which I've been on all night, really interesting reading material here.

Looking forward to chatting with you in the future :)

P.S. - Thanks for the SWIM suggestion, I was wondering wtf it even meant when I started doing research and then thought you had to use it from some of the posts I was reading. I thought it was pretty stupid though, I mean, obviously it's you - LOL!

delta_9 said:
Hello and welcome dbaybay :) I'm glad you found us. I think you'll find Bluelight to be a truly wonderful place <3

There are plenty of wonderful ways to help with depressed and lonely thoughts. They may be medications, they may not be. I always find myself opening up a new book or going outside and taking my dogs for a walk if I'm feeling blue. It is so much fun to watch them play and interact with the world around them. I wish I has innocence like that. :)

Also as OverDone said, exercise is a great way to feel better both mentally and physically, if if it's just a simple stroll down to the park.

I hope you enhoy your stay here and I very much look forward to you future posts

With Love and Respect
-d_9 <3
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Hey Delta! Thank you too for the warm welcome, everyone here seems really intelligent, down to earth and respectable. I'm looking forward to the reading and discussions ahead :)

Aren't dogs just the most amazing creatures? I have a puggle, named Sir Gaga, and he is just the most adorable thing in the world. So innocent and goofy and carefree. Unfortunately, he's the only thing in my life at the moment that actually makes me happy. (I say unfortunately not in a negative way towards my baby, but because I need to have stronger connections with people that can impact my life for the better.)

As far as exercise goes, along with everything that should make me happy - I just can't get the motivation to do any of it. I do dance in the shower like hardcore (I used to be a stripper) - so I suppose I do get some exercise, but besides that 30 minutes of bliss everyday (cept' for the days I don't even get out of bed) I am just so unmotivated and discontent with the entirety of life.

Anywho, can't wait to chat with you and read your future posts :)
 
I definitely hear ya. The hardest thing about exercise is actually starting that first day but once you do you'll feel amazing. It gets easier to wake up each morning and start your routine every day.

Dogs are the best though. At the moment mine are sleeping on my bed about a few feet away they're so cute <3 (It's like 7am here and I rarely sleep these days so the bed is almost their property now lol)
I need to be careful not to make any noise to wake them up or they'll be grumpy :)

Also, sorry for my crappy grammar in that last post. Just looking at it now....eww :|

Looking forward to seeing you around the rest of the forums. :)

-d_9
 
haha! Sounds like you'll fit in just fine here dbaybay! It seems like every other person in The Darkside (TDS) has a pug! Being an animal lover is a good sign of character, IMO

Medications can be a bitch. There are so many and, often enough, there's a great deal of trial and error until the right ones are found. The below links may help you learn some more info on a TON of meds as well as info on different diagnosed disorders:

The Medication FAQ a.k.a. Everything you ever needed to know about psychiatric drugs

Descriptions of psychotic and emotional disorders

As d_9 mentioned, starting is the hardest part with exercise (as with most other things). I force myself to do something everyday. If I don't, I definitely feel some sort of way (and not in a positive fashion). You don't have to go nuts at first, just a little something on a consistent basis to develop a pattern and get the ball rolling has worked for me. Once started, noticing small gains in muscle and clarity of mind has propelled me to do more and more. (I'm actually DYING to post pics soon of how much I've progressed). I have pics from when I was at the end of my road shooting coke. Fuck, I was THIN and unhealthy. In just 4 months of putting the drugs down I look and feel like a COMPLETELY different person. I plan on posting pics at my 6 month clean anniversary. Noticing results is important for, often enough, we tend to beat ourselves to blindness concerning anything positive concerning ourselves

I can guarantee you'll meet a LOT of folks here who will seem to be a reflection of yourself. I certainly have and its a real nice feeling
 
Help!

Ok, so I am very new to this but I need some help! I have been taking Methadone for about 6 months, I am taking about 40mg a day, I am trying to quit and I am wondering what to expect. Do you think I will have BAD withdrawls even though I have only been on it for 6 months total, I have been getting it from a friend, I don't go to any clinics. I have one 8mg suboxone that my friend told me to break it u into small pieces. ANY HELP WOULD BE GREAT!
 
hey hnh,

check out these threads (sorry, I don't have time to make them pretty or to formally welcome you at the moment):

http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/showthread.php?t=549584

http://bluelight.ru/vb/showthread.php?t=429895

There are MANY discussions concerning this particular issue you are experiencing. Try the Search Engine as well:

http://bluelight.ru/vb/search.php?do=process

I noticed you started a thread concerning this. Give it some time and folks will respond. Keep in mind that we will probably eventually merge your thread into one of the existing megathreads or, if your quest is answered, we will close it up.

Hope to chat more in depth at another time!
 
Shit, why not post here too.

One day after searching for a couple of hours for a vein, I started researching femoral vein in google.com. I clicked the frist or second link and it gave me the link to this site. Scared me enough not touse it, but than other posts scared me from all the muscling I have been doing. I joined finally after a few months of just searching and reading.

Than one night when I had no idea where my wife was and worrying my ass off, I had a ,wouldnt call it a knock, more like a ,"Get the FUCK OUT HER AND GET ON THE GROUND" with guns pointing at me, like 4 or 5, and I had a small pad.

Now I cant use anything, not even draino. I am depressed everyday. My life is shit. I have bad urges. And everything was going great one second, and the next I lost it all, YAY.
The only good thing I guess, is that I am not high, eventhough I want to be, but I know I shouldn't. I really want to prove those fucking PIGS wrong too.

Been writing a lot since that is about all I can do. If yiou want to know my drug history I actually blogged it. Been on TDS everyday now just so I dont feel too alone. I hate the NA meetings I am forced to go to, too much religion, but you can read that blog and youo will understand.

So hi, wish I was high, I wish I was high with her. I hate PIGS, because they all lie. I hat the DA, because she is a stupid bitch. I love my wife.

So thats me right now. BITTER
 
There is away out of hitting up

Firstly hi every one,having had a 6 yr hook on smack and cant even get a blood test after doing all my veins in,groin inner arms feet hands,i feel i can offer some help to thos that may need some in site to what jacking up can do to you,Im willing to share any thing that may help anyone, here come the lark,iv been clean 6 yrs now lived on the streets robbed my own family...there is a way out,and it ent God! :X also now most drugs the doc can give you and help on how to get what you need,,,,

here is a list of my meds please dont judge me
1 475 mag mushes
2 glue,petrol
3 gass
4 weed
5 coke
6 smack
7 snowball
8 k
9 speed bass wizz
10 is what im taking now after 6 yrs
11 mirtazapine 30mg a day
12 olanzapine 25mg aday
13 citaalopam 10mg
14 nitrazepam 30mg
15 diazepam 40mg

32 mg subs
 
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Long time listener first time caller, cats and kittens (Literally made my account 2 minutes ago.).
Long recovered opiate user and alcoholic (at different points in time). I have been lurking bluelight for some time, now, but have never felt compelled to register until I browsed "The Dark Side" thread, tonight. I was quite touched at the amount of support that was going on: Two young men quitting drinking at the same time, whether by design or synchronicity, keeping in contact with one another through the first, and hardest, 24. SINCERE condolences when someone shares a loss. Willingness of member to contribute even the most basic of emotional support, even when they don't have an answer or can't "fix" the situation.
I just wanted to say that it does my heart good to see things like this.
Keep on rockin' in the free world, y'all.
God bless,
L.A.
 
Hi Geo! Welcome to TDS and congrats on the 6 years clean. That's a huge accomplishment if you ask me!
 
OverDone said:
Hi Geo! Welcome to TDS and congrats on the 6 years clean. That's a huge accomplishment if you ask me!
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All of a sudden taking ten times more opiates and benzos than anyone needs is considered clean?

I guess my one valerian root capsule/night is considered ultra clean?
 
^everyone has their own interpretation of 'clean'. if dude says he's clean from his DOC then who are we to question what his own definition is or force our own definitions of the term?
 
Welcome to TDS, thegirl. I agree, everyday I log in to TDS I always feel a strong sense of community, empathy and support.

Look forward to seeing you around!
 
Hi, I just wanted to express my thanks for the clear, accurate info in Renegade's FAQ. Helped me enormously when I didn't know what the hell was going on with me or why. Amid a plethora of misinformation, exaggeration and downright lies about drugs and using, his FAQ was the only place i could find the real deal. Plus I got some human interest and compassion through the forums.
Thanks again, everyone!
:)
 
Meth Recovery

Hi, I'm a newbie here so don't know where I should post my questions? Am looking for info on Meth Recovery....thx for your help!!
 
^^ Hi and welcome complacent <3
We've got the Meth/Amphetamine Megathread which I can see you've already come across. You can post any questions you have in that thread, or just have a read through it from what other people have already discussed previously in the thread :)


And welcome Firefly! :) I'm so glad that the FAQ was a help to you <3


And on that note, as we've now reached 1,000 posts in this thread I'll start up the new Introduction thread :)
 
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