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Hey folks what's up. I'm by no means new to TDS, as I originally joined under my old "TJ" account back in 2002, I think it was? Anyway, for 25 years I was a mega dope fiend. Shooting crystal meth was my drug of choice, fiorinal #3 my second drug of choice, with mushrooms and LSD. I tried shooting heroin about 20 times, but didn't want to do any more than that lest it become yet another habit. I am very grateful for TDS, because from the time I found BL until I quit all drugs and alcohol Dec 21, 2006, other than occasionally hanging out with fellow fiends, I was completely holed up in my room or apartment with no company other than cool strangers from BL online. I learned alot. I passed alot of helpful harm reduction information that I posted in my Crystal Meth Slammers Groups, (long since deleted by yahoo.)

Whether I was using as an all out die hard fiend, or managing to reduce my habit for periods of time, I found BL and TDS very helpful. Before I quit using for good (23 months now) it was great to find others that would not bite my head off for merely reducing or stopping for 3 or 4 months, then back to using for a week. I did that schedule for a couple of years, 3-4 months off, followed by one week of using. I felt that the total abstinence people would not understaned. As it turned out, I eventually became one of the total abstainence folks myself, lol. It has been my experience that no one stops unless they are ready to. Although at times I miss using, I've accomplished things I never thought I would clean. I find NA very helpful for abstinence, but again BL and TDS has helped save lives. Thankyou folks.

TJ
 
as u know, TJ5, i find u a very inspiring person, and hav appreciated ur PMs in my own early recovery from the demon that is meth
cudnt thank u enough for that tbh - and its gd to see u posting here more again :)
 
hey, i've checkin out bluelight for sometime now, but didn't come to TDS until i really felt bad, had to quit doing everything for court, and the posts here really help me through some tough times when i feel like my friends wouldn't understand what i'm goin through. thanks:)
 
HEllo I am Rhea pronounced Ree-uh!! I cant wait to get started on here and I hope I help as many people that have helped me. So yeah!!!
Talk to all of you latahhh!
love and drugs
Rhea
 
I'm not particularly new, but since I am starting to be pretty active around this section, I might as well introduce myself.

I'm rathersilly (hoping to become rathersmart), I'm 23, and I'm a very good lying functioning junkie. I'm in the middle of trying to clean up my opiate habit, but I've been addicted to coke (goodbye two years' of really good salary), booze (that got pretty bad), weed (it's been there for a long time), benzos (woke up on the floor after a seizure from Xanax withdrawal) and painkillers (internal damage from paracetamol and severe constipation - I can see the lighter side in that bit ;) ). So, I've done my time, and it took me a while to wake up to the fact that I have some problems, and I'd just move from one to the other.

This place is the only place I've ever felt like there's complete, 100% honesty and no judgement. That, and the wonderful people who inhabit it, make it pretty special :)
 
as u know, i think ur a pretty special person and an asset to the TDS community, rathersilly
its nice getting to know the clean version of u
congrats! :)
 
I came here because from what I see you people are a collective of a lot nicer people than most of the forums out there.

I tried going on shroomery and they by far are the meanest group of people I have ever chattered with... They had that whole... "if you dont have 10,000 posts we are not going to listen to you and we will just belittle you like you have know idea what you are talking about"... kinda attitude so hopefully im not wrong about here either... much love cant wait to talk with all of you.
 
Hi Everyone,

I am new here. I have been battling with depression for aslong as i can remember, and started using meth so i could feel normal. I found out the hard way that meth only makes everything worse and is a really destructive force.. I have been trying to get clean and get my life sorted out, and have been doing well, except i have a problem with binging. The binging normally happens once a month and i will use everything i can get my hands on until i run out of gear/money...
 
Hi Pill Phreak,
welcome to BL;)
there are many helpful people here going through similar things to you.
I am also a meth addict, I know how you're feeling with the 'makes things worse'.
Been 6 days clean now(longest I've ever gone in almost seven yrs)
Many people here are ex-addicts & an even larger number were/are suffering depression.
To avoid binging, you just need WILLPOWER.
You will always be tempted, but you have to learn to resist.
A method that has worked for me these past few days is making a list of all the reasons why I want to get clean & STAY clean, & put it on the fridge/somewhere obvious I can see it, & whenever I am feeling tempted I look at it, or somehow else distract myself.
Good luck
 
Thanks Claire,

The biggest problem i have with meth is i feel normal when i take it.. when im not taking it, i feel like im not myself? Which isnt right, because i know i dont need drugs to be normal.
 
yep welcome to my world. this past week i've been detoxing i am a moody bitch plus numerous other negative w/d symptoms.
how long did you use for/how heavy was your usage?
your brain chemistry has been fucked with a lot - it'll settle down eventually & you'll feel normal whilst sober
 
Hi,
You may already know me. But I would like to reintroduce myself and make a fresh start. I know that life doesn't have do overs, but there are second chances for those willing to grant them. The truth is I REALLY don't want to leave BL, there have been days where BL was all I had. I have made friends here and I care to help them and hear how they are doing. I hope that they may feel the same about me.

I understand that not everyone may be happy to see me back, I have prepared myself for that. But I will do my best to show the true person I am, a kind, giving, honest, understanding, non judgemental, sensitive, loving person.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that I don't have my flaws I do, but I am willing to make an honest effort to just how I'm human that's all. I know you all have you're own very painful complex lives to deal with and don't need more to deal with. I'm just asking to a second chance to help others, and show the better, and hopefully steady recovery.
 
welcome back pillthrill (glad to see u starting over but u know that!)
and pill phreak - claires right.....u will recover
no u cant fix a meth addiction with meth
i tried 'tapering' off meth (with meth) many times before (i had an 8 yr full-on addiction reaching an oz a week in the end)
it hasnt bn easy but my brains recovering nicely
and uve come to the right place......welcome <3
 
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