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I'm lou, i dont post that often on here but i read daily.

I've found this place has helped me take my mind off things when ive wanted to cut or felt like shit - its wierd but in a way its comforting knowing im not alone when im feeling my worst
 
vnvnation said:
I'm lou, i dont post that often on here but i read daily.

I've found this place has helped me take my mind off things when ive wanted to cut or felt like shit - its wierd but in a way its comforting knowing im not alone when im feeling my worst

Not weird at all, i think we all feel the same as that.
 
Hello, my name is not important.

I'm in my early twenties. I'm also a very loving and caring individual, and a compulsive flirt where attractive women are concerned. But... I'm working on that issue. I don't wish to remember my childhood, having been the one to have lived through it.

I have made a personal rule for myself, which insists that I am always genuine, honest, and truthful. However, if I have to lie to save my own skin or to protect a secret, whether it be one of my own or a close friend's (they're usually close friends' secrets) then I will lie.

As a person I'm also very open; I like to crossdress. I am also bisexual. I enjoy BDSM as both a hobby and a lifestyle; I'd describe myself as a switch, although whilst I'm naturally submissive to women and do believe that they are superior to men in so-many-ways, I do love to dominate when I get the chance. %)

Prior experience with drugs has taught me that overdoing things will bring pleasure in the short-term and problems as far as the long-term is considered. I am also past the phase of 'living' for drugs, and passed it quite some time ago; they're merely medicines to aid us, or tools to expand our minds, or to allow us to escape. They don't make nights great, they simply enhance experiences.

Addiction has almost killed me many times and it's cost me so much that I might as well have been dead, up until around seven weeks ago when I found someone who shares my kink, enjoys my sense of humour, and even loves me--the once sarcastic, hollow, cynical bastard with an icy heart and less compassion than a particularly heavy, high velocity block of concrete to the face.

I take benzodiazepines (prescribed) for anxiety.
I also take a tricyclic (TCA) anti-depressant known as Lofepramine, which I must assume is normally prescribed for insomnia, as it knocks me out and causes me to feel drowsy, along with my mouth becoming as dry as a camel's arse.
The Lofepramine was given to me because fluoxetine caused simply too many side-effects! I couldn't stand taking it, though doses above 100mg are not too bad; especially when combined with alcohol...

Oh, and whilst opiates are one love of my life, they're not at the top of the list: I care about far too many PEOPLE before drugs.

Loving drugs is a phase that we all go through, and eventually we realise that there's more to life than squinting into the end of an empty Smirnoff bottle. :)

I am happy, lighter; loved, needed, wanted, and humiliated (=D), which makes me so glad to be alive and glad to have such a caring woman as you in my life, Mandy. Oh, and Carly, Hayley, Allie, Chastity, Carley-Marie, Megan, Ashley and Anna... I couldn't be so happy if it weren't for having you lot in my life!

Take care all of you. I'm an impulsive, reckless drug-addicted, lovestruck fool; I'm certainly not in any position to take my own broken-record style advice. So please make sure that you all do! ;) %) =D
 
teaego said:
i'm here because, i don't want to die.

Neither do we, so were here to help at any time, day or night. So if you have problems speak your mind and you will be suprised how many people give a fuck enough to take some time and help you.
 
^^ glad to see you here then I cannot think of a better reason. I hope that you get some help from our posters because I am no great shakes with such afflictions.
Anyway pleased you're here. What is it that you hope to get from TDS ? I ask so that possibly we can endeavour to provide suitable ideas etc rather than stuff you know already.


Tell us something about yourself, colour hair/eyes/music/like animals/flies gliders ~ I dunno but you might < insert wink smiley>
 
Im 16, life seems to drag on with no apparent reason for me being here.

I was diagnosed with aspergers syndrome when I was 13, I am currently on no medication. Its really hard to "fit in" with certain kinds of people and most of my friends are people ive known for years. I come to BL/DS to socialise with people, theres always someone I can relate to or visa versa, and I dont have to talk face to face with someone. I have this stupid social phobia shit, once im in a social situation im fine, but beforehand I am so scared of talking to people ive never met before.

Meth and cannabis gave me temporary psychosis, sometimes when the psychosis is getting the better of me(doesnt happen often these days) I just come on here and forget about it all. The DS was probably the place that taught me how to control my emotions better.

I am gay, there are often suicidal/unhealthy homosexual people on here who need help and after all the help BL gave me when I wanted to come out to my mum, I thought it'd be nice to give back. But of course no ones perfect and I often have problems too, so DS is the ideal place.
 
the_ketaman said:
Im 16, life seems to drag on with no apparent reason for me being here.

I was diagnosed with aspergers syndrome when I was 13, I am currently on no medication. Its really hard to "fit in" with certain kinds of people and most of my friends are people ive known for years. I come to BL/DS to socialise with people, theres always someone I can relate to or visa versa, and I dont have to talk face to face with someone. I have this stupid social phobia shit, once im in a social situation im fine, but beforehand I am so scared of talking to people ive never met before.

Meth and cannabis gave me temporary psychosis, sometimes when the psychosis is getting the better of me(doesnt happen often these days) I just come on here and forget about it all. The DS was probably the place that taught me how to control my emotions better.

I am gay, there are often suicidal/unhealthy homosexual people on here who need help and after all the help BL gave me when I wanted to come out to my mum, I thought it'd be nice to give back. But of course no ones perfect and I often have problems too, so DS is the ideal place.


The world could do with alot MORE PEOPLE with your outlook!

But don't think I'm poo-pooing aspergers syndrome coz I aint ! Far from it!!!!

BUT everyone in your position were able to take your attitude that would be brilliant (I'm thinking of those Asperges sufferrers) BUT WHAT WOULD BE BETTER is if ALL OF US NO MATTER OUR SITUATION could think more about helping others before thinking of our selves ~ what a wonderful world it would be!!!!

(Even so it still is wonderful its just at times hard to pick out the most beautiful of beauties amongst the sadness that surrounds (at times that is!)).


LOTS of LOVE

M 'n' M xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
 
Michael, 21. I've been a lurker for a long time, and now have decided to become more active on bluelight, and in particular, TDS.

I suffer from depression, not on meds for it. Looking for a new psych but having no luck. Take extacy randomly every few months, not addicted or anything though.

TDS helps me in dark times, and hopefully I can help someone some day :).
 
^ Nice to have you here. I'm guessing by the name that you're an aussie? :D
 
RexHunt said:
Michael, 21. I've been a lurker for a long time, and now have decided to become more active on bluelight, and in particular, TDS.

I suffer from depression, not on meds for it. Looking for a new psych but having no luck. Take extacy randomly every few months, not addicted or anything though.

TDS helps me in dark times, and hopefully I can help someone some day :).

HEY REXY !!!!

YOU'll surely help just by your presence ~ SERIOUSLY!!!!!

NOW, lets put the depression aside for one moment and let me ask the question that has been trying to blurt from my lips!!! ????????????8o

' Whats been ye latest and greatest catch so far and HOW is the good ole BUSHY doing ??????'

You know here in the uk I tell people that REX HUNT is my father ye know !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) ;) ;) :D :D =D
(granted that is very MUCH WISHFUL THINKING ~ but after all don't the people love a dreamer????? );)

LOTS of LOVE

M 'n' M xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx=D =D
 
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hello TDS
This promted me to post as I agree with the comments, especially after reading every TDS post to date. This seems the neutral area and it`s good to read all the cool / sensible / helpful and caring replies from all involved.

( trancegirle) im carly *waves*

TDS is my favorite forum on bluelight because it's full of compassion. Something Ii wish there was more of in the world.
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I posted some words about friendship and sincerity when I posted a BL new member intro.
Lots of friendship and sincerity in TDS.
I`ll be reading the posts and whatever..
I like the honesty here. :)
 
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