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subopm420
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Introduce youself to the community that is TDS!
We think it is time that everyone become known in a role call as a reader, poster, lurker of TDS. We just want you to shout out who you are and why TDS has helped you. Or at least check in our TDS role call. It is the first one I have personally seen in my time here in TDS but we have been in great need of one. So here post your existance as our family in TDS family tree thread, and been known.
We think it is time that everyone become known in a role call as a reader, poster, lurker of TDS. We just want you to shout out who you are and why TDS has helped you. Or at least check in our TDS role call. It is the first one I have personally seen in my time here in TDS but we have been in great need of one. So here post your existance as our family in TDS family tree thread, and been known.
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stellablue
Bluelight Crew
^ How's that my friend?
LvMkngFlwrChld
Bluelighter
ill be first. tds helped distract me a lot and keep me from fallin back on old habits. i used to have a big drinking problem. also, the kind words of the thoughtful people here have comforted me in times of loss.
subopm420
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lovely!
since when, friend?
i, personally, have only been here for a short time, however i feel as though this community has embraced me as an idividual faster and more fully than any i have ever been a part of. although Ecstasy Discussion was what brought me to bluelight, TDS is what kept me here.
shit, i would venture to guess that over 2/3 of my 900-odd posts have been in this very forum! and most of them completely pointless
B9
Bluelight Crew
Hallo I am zophen , big fool and rambling incoherence a speciality !
TDS to me is where I started to see that I really would make it out of my 12 was it 15 ? year heroin/methadone /morphine *insert all european opiates as well as a side order* addiction !
It took 8 months to taper from the doses I was on!
It's 7 months since I last took any opiate at all %) and I Shan't be going back there again.
LSD freed me for long enough to see my twofold path! I chose the right path, the road to somewhere rather the road to nowhere!
Now it is a journey!
TBH the last 6 months or so Have been the hardest of my life , emotional roller coaster is a good description ,factor in one wife also 10 years an addict and 2 kids (permanently at home ) 2 who come and go (they're grown up) and the chaos was unreal. We survived .....................................just I think!
Many thanks also to my eldest son who treated me like a king throughout the tough part of the withdrawal, never ever grumbled made me cups of tea at all hours and fed me white widow cakes
Without bluelight in general (TDS & EADD especially) I would have found this incredibly hard (the hardest withdrawal I ever did) as it was I put the phones on and turned my attention to BL made some wild attacks on posters around bluelight , one fortuitously, we have since become trusted friends!
Yeah I took my frustrations out on here and no one hit back at me !
FUCKING AMAZING!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU ALL !!!!!!!!
S
TDS to me is where I started to see that I really would make it out of my 12 was it 15 ? year heroin/methadone /morphine *insert all european opiates as well as a side order* addiction !
It took 8 months to taper from the doses I was on!
It's 7 months since I last took any opiate at all %) and I Shan't be going back there again.
LSD freed me for long enough to see my twofold path! I chose the right path, the road to somewhere rather the road to nowhere!
Now it is a journey!
TBH the last 6 months or so Have been the hardest of my life , emotional roller coaster is a good description ,factor in one wife also 10 years an addict and 2 kids (permanently at home ) 2 who come and go (they're grown up) and the chaos was unreal. We survived .....................................just I think!
Many thanks also to my eldest son who treated me like a king throughout the tough part of the withdrawal, never ever grumbled made me cups of tea at all hours and fed me white widow cakes
Without bluelight in general (TDS & EADD especially) I would have found this incredibly hard (the hardest withdrawal I ever did) as it was I put the phones on and turned my attention to BL made some wild attacks on posters around bluelight , one fortuitously, we have since become trusted friends!
Yeah I took my frustrations out on here and no one hit back at me !
FUCKING AMAZING!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU ALL !!!!!!!!
S
stellablue
Bluelight Crew
I am Stella Blue and I am always going to owe TDS because it has helped me through some really unbearable times. I was given support here in times I was without anyone or any support and I was not in a good place. It was my family in TDS that helped me sort through it, and for this I am always grateful. So it is never to much to ask on me or any other TDSer for help because we truly treasure you all. I will always give back to TDS as my family for as long as I can and I could never pay back what it has helped me to maintain within myself emotionally. I need you guys more then you know at times, you really do.
Pomplemous
Bluelighter
I'm Pomplemous. Doesnt matter my history cos its all in the past now.
I like helping people. and being bossy all the time!.
:D
I like helping people. and being bossy all the time!.
:D
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B9
Bluelight Crew
^ Thanks sushii now where's my POEM ?
massiveinminiature
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Too right yiz do.
BTW I am massiveinminiature (M 'n' M).
I like being dominated so I am totally at home here!
This is the first time I've actually sat at the computer on BL for approximately five hours ~ record so far (usually due to having to fight off other competitors and loosing).
I loose on purpose ~ see told you I like being dominated!!
LOVE TO YOU ALL xxxxxxxxx
Especially the dominating regulars Big Kisses & Lashings of Hugs Alround xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS
B9
Bluelight Crew
That's good to hear :D %)
Welcome to TDS you huge text colour crazee M in M
Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
Hi, I'm Xorkoth.
I started using drugs when I was 17, with marijuana. I had some of the best times of my life my senior year of high school and the summer after, like a second childhood. I tried DXM (in Coricidin
) when I turned 18, and did it 10 times over that summer. That was the beginning of my mental instability.
I had a blast in college. I moved on the mushrooms, MDMA, and a spattering of other things. I got into d-amphetamine for a while. Tried coke here and there. Tried some opiates. Then I tried kratom, and ever since I've been in and out of physical and/or mental addiction. Currently I think I've conquered my physical addiction because I've been saving it for the weekends and sometimes once during the week.
Anyway, I started to get very depressed, gradually, in my junior year (20 years old). By the time I was graduating, at 21, I was an absolute mess. It was a combination of doing too many drugs (which was in large part due to aftereffects of Coricidin), growing up too fast, and knowing I would be moving away across the country with only my girlfriend, leaving all my friends and family behind. It was also in large part because I felt like I had lost my creativity and passion. My mind was a stagnant pool of laziness.
I got to where I live now and I began feeling better, more grown-up, more responsible, but I was still full of anxiety and depression. It began to get debilitating and I rarely found enjoyment in anything. I also had abandoned my old spirituality (christianity), but felt empty with nothing, believing the universe to be pointless and nothing existing after death.
I then found a place to get some unresearched psychedelic chemicals, after much searching. I received 2C-T-2 and used it 3 times within a month. After the first time I discovered that it was extremely useful for self-reflection and introspection. With those 3 trips, I broke myself dramatically out of the rut I was in! I was ecstatic and joyful again because I was able to see the way that my various aspects of my ego interact with each other, and where the pointless mental anxiety and depression loops are located. In other words, I faced my hidden demons and rationalized them away by viewing my mind displaying itself in intricate closed-imagery and a unique way of thinking.
I then began taking a nootropic regimen, which helped my mind to speed up so signifcantly, and I regained my creativity and passion for life. I continued to experiment with a large array of psychedelic chemicals. Over time, along with lots of sober reflection and discussion and reading of others' works, I came to a tremendously solid understanding of my spirituality and the way we are all connected and part of something too beautiful and tremendous to ever be able to fully grasp with our human brains. I discovered that to live a happy life, all you need is love. Cliche, yes. But only because it's true. If you output love and positivity into the universe, at everything you encounter, the universe will send it back and you'll always be able to come out of any situation in the best position possible. Also, by filling yourself with positivity, you have no room for negativity, and thus, you'll stay positive!
Which brings us to now. Within the last year, everything in my life has fallen into place in a series of bizarre coincidences and events. I love my life and everything in it, and I'm here in TDS and indeed on Bluelight in general to try to share that with you all, to try to spread some of it around.
So here you go!
I started using drugs when I was 17, with marijuana. I had some of the best times of my life my senior year of high school and the summer after, like a second childhood. I tried DXM (in Coricidin
) when I turned 18, and did it 10 times over that summer. That was the beginning of my mental instability.I had a blast in college. I moved on the mushrooms, MDMA, and a spattering of other things. I got into d-amphetamine for a while. Tried coke here and there. Tried some opiates. Then I tried kratom, and ever since I've been in and out of physical and/or mental addiction. Currently I think I've conquered my physical addiction because I've been saving it for the weekends and sometimes once during the week.
Anyway, I started to get very depressed, gradually, in my junior year (20 years old). By the time I was graduating, at 21, I was an absolute mess. It was a combination of doing too many drugs (which was in large part due to aftereffects of Coricidin), growing up too fast, and knowing I would be moving away across the country with only my girlfriend, leaving all my friends and family behind. It was also in large part because I felt like I had lost my creativity and passion. My mind was a stagnant pool of laziness.
I got to where I live now and I began feeling better, more grown-up, more responsible, but I was still full of anxiety and depression. It began to get debilitating and I rarely found enjoyment in anything. I also had abandoned my old spirituality (christianity), but felt empty with nothing, believing the universe to be pointless and nothing existing after death.
I then found a place to get some unresearched psychedelic chemicals, after much searching. I received 2C-T-2 and used it 3 times within a month. After the first time I discovered that it was extremely useful for self-reflection and introspection. With those 3 trips, I broke myself dramatically out of the rut I was in! I was ecstatic and joyful again because I was able to see the way that my various aspects of my ego interact with each other, and where the pointless mental anxiety and depression loops are located. In other words, I faced my hidden demons and rationalized them away by viewing my mind displaying itself in intricate closed-imagery and a unique way of thinking.
I then began taking a nootropic regimen, which helped my mind to speed up so signifcantly, and I regained my creativity and passion for life. I continued to experiment with a large array of psychedelic chemicals. Over time, along with lots of sober reflection and discussion and reading of others' works, I came to a tremendously solid understanding of my spirituality and the way we are all connected and part of something too beautiful and tremendous to ever be able to fully grasp with our human brains. I discovered that to live a happy life, all you need is love. Cliche, yes. But only because it's true. If you output love and positivity into the universe, at everything you encounter, the universe will send it back and you'll always be able to come out of any situation in the best position possible. Also, by filling yourself with positivity, you have no room for negativity, and thus, you'll stay positive!
Which brings us to now. Within the last year, everything in my life has fallen into place in a series of bizarre coincidences and events. I love my life and everything in it, and I'm here in TDS and indeed on Bluelight in general to try to share that with you all, to try to spread some of it around.
So here you go!
Pomplemous
Bluelighter
I am POmplemous - ex junkie, ex mod, ex lax.
I am now one of the ones who got away - I kicked a 6 year - nearly, smack habit. done all the drugs you like and have learnt that i love them and can slot them in to a decent enough healthy enough lifestyle. I'm the no nonsence mother hen of the outfit here.
I'm here to remind you that life is good and its all yours and those constraints that bind you to your way of life are all, actually, changeable.
I feel as though I have become a little bit of a born-again, but I have to keep it in check, cos the worst form of any addict is a reformed one...
I'm 30. gorgeous. haha. ish.
i have the vaguest form of synaethesia - I see numbers as colurs and sounds as shapes and shapes as colours. so I am lucky because everywhere i go i see colour and if thats not enough to make anyone permanently happy... hahaha
I smoke alot of weed though - havent kicked all addictions
ramble
just..... go get 'em, kids!!
I am now one of the ones who got away - I kicked a 6 year - nearly, smack habit. done all the drugs you like and have learnt that i love them and can slot them in to a decent enough healthy enough lifestyle. I'm the no nonsence mother hen of the outfit here.
I'm here to remind you that life is good and its all yours and those constraints that bind you to your way of life are all, actually, changeable.
I feel as though I have become a little bit of a born-again, but I have to keep it in check, cos the worst form of any addict is a reformed one...
I'm 30. gorgeous. haha. ish.
i have the vaguest form of synaethesia - I see numbers as colurs and sounds as shapes and shapes as colours. so I am lucky because everywhere i go i see colour and if thats not enough to make anyone permanently happy... hahaha
I smoke alot of weed though - havent kicked all addictions
ramble
just..... go get 'em, kids!!
echo off
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you remember DOS? how you could turn off the prompting? yeah, well thats me. i hate everyone and everything, and it is my goal to make sure you all suffer the ultimate pain of life... it will prepare you for what i think comes after life... the boringness of nothing... so you better keep living dammit!!
oh, and i like TDS cause i live in a self-enforced home version kit...
oh, and i like TDS cause i live in a self-enforced home version kit...
massiveinminiature
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Why not try & take a more positive attitude to life and love and therefore the potential beyond may seem alot more less dismal!!!
LOVE M 'n' M xxxxx
Hello. I have mixed negative feelings with regards to most of you that I will not voice at this point due to the nature of the wordage required to express said feelings, which most likely get me banned from the forum.
So, yes. Hello. I like alcohol, benzodiazepines, opiates and downers in general. I currently have something of a chloroform habit. Goodnight.
Just to add, I'm fecking brilliant. I'm like liquid leather. Better than sliced-bread to be sure.
So, yes. Hello. I like alcohol, benzodiazepines, opiates and downers in general. I currently have something of a chloroform habit. Goodnight.
Just to add, I'm fecking brilliant. I'm like liquid leather. Better than sliced-bread to be sure.
subopm420
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^ send me a PM, lemmi have it!! itll come right back to you, no doubt! 
im going to re introduce myself as to not get ass raped by my buddy *ahem* ^
im sub(lime)opm(opium)420. live in DC/VB but right now im away at school in Fl.
love to drink, couldnt live without weed, dabble in some e (not my scene but its fun, and i can rave with the best of em), like psychedelics (shrooms and acid mostly, not too experienced with RCs or various DMTs)
im usually pretty happy, usually like everyone upon meeting them, but there are exceptions. sometimes quick to anger, but justifiably so. umm, guess thats it! feel free to hit me on the PM or AIM whenever.
im going to re introduce myself as to not get ass raped by my buddy *ahem* ^
im sub(lime)opm(opium)420. live in DC/VB but right now im away at school in Fl.
love to drink, couldnt live without weed, dabble in some e (not my scene but its fun, and i can rave with the best of em), like psychedelics (shrooms and acid mostly, not too experienced with RCs or various DMTs)
im usually pretty happy, usually like everyone upon meeting them, but there are exceptions. sometimes quick to anger, but justifiably so. umm, guess thats it! feel free to hit me on the PM or AIM whenever.
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