I want to do a re-introduction. I want to show some of the newer members who I am, but also where I came from here on BL.
So hello, I'm dilated_pupils, and I've been posting and learning and yearning for information on just about anything chemical/drug related since I was a young teen. I devoted a lot of time in learning about the effects of chemicals before taking them. I remember the age I was at when I did this, 16, and all my friends always thought I was the go-to guy to make sure something was safe (mainly ecstasy back then). I was always the fun guy to party with, always the fun guy to have the good (as in potent, not cut) drugs, always knew what I was doing. I will admit it was fun, but looking back I should have conveyed to people more often how they needed to do the research themselves.
I take some peoples words with a grain of salt, I however am a trustworthy person, but how did all these people know what I was saying is true? My point being anyone here in the Dark Side posting needs to consider the fact that we need to be well informed and understand what we're putting in our bodies.
That being said this goes for over the counter, prescription, and illegal drugs - there is no difference when it comes to our bodies and the reactions. We need to be upfront and honest or we will never figure out exactly how we're feeling.
So as years passed, I got involved in BL a lot, wanted to be a mod, but in the end I couldn't commit the time compared to my drug use. I still have feelings over that, but I have had my share of popular threads that still shine today in BL, and I'm happy to see some of my ideas are still floating around. Back before we perminant threads devoted to things, everyone did "MEGA* threads and such, and my one on depression was me at my finest time. I wanted to help people but didn't realize how much help I needed. I knew giving was my best bet (I assume that's what I told myself) rather than getting help myself.
I urge anyone whose come here to post to not look at it as a gloomy and dark place but rather a beacon of hope and understanding. A majority of my posts surrounded this forum section and it was for a reason - but I was not all about being down about myself, I was about reaching out and opening up and trying to find myself. I'm still trying to do that but I don't have any ill feelings for doing and being what I consider to be a good person and neither should you.
I hope you all feel welcome and feel free to check out my threads from those years and if you ever need a friend or some advice thrown at you, PM me (I can't promise I'll always be online but I will try).
dilated_pupils