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I wissh him luck and am sorry to hear about his problems, i dont like tramsdol that much but i hear the withdrawals are no joke. Thats a good ammount of time he has under his belt clean it sounds like though fifteen days is a long time, longer then i could imagine, just tell him to stick with it :) good luck!!
 
Hi everyone! I've been away from Bluelight for what seems like ages. I'm a 27-year-old chick from New Zealand... I had a bad methamphetamine addiction for years, but it's now been a few months since I last used and I feel like I've finally broken the habit (at last!). I wouldn't say I'm clean though, as I self-medicate with dex-amphetamine and diazepam, but I don't consider those a problem for me. I also suffer from mental health problems and have gone through a lot of shit in my life, which is probably why I turned to drugs in the first place. Anyway, it's good to be back! I probably won't be posting on here as frequently as I used to (now that I'm not spending days and nights awake on meth, staring at my laptop screen), but I'll join in on some discussions when I can. :)
 
Welcome fellow junkies, tweakers, crackheads, and drunks. :D i wish all of you the best. Youll always find love here in TDS. :) <3
 
hey guys!
I'm not really new, per se. My old s/n was BeckyLee, but I haven't been around for a while, so I figured I'd reintroduce myself. (I switched s/n's bc of an ex-bf stalking me on here)..
Anyways, I'm 27 years old, I live in NC, I have a dog (or as I like to call her "my daugger") who I love more than life itself, I'm a fitness enthusiast, and very probably bipolar.
I have a wonderful family who often drives me crazy, and a crazy-stressful job, and PAWS from all the polydrug use of my past life.

I live my life totally transparently now, which brings me a lot of satisfaction, but also a lot of emotions and loneliness are welling up to the surface. Thus, my return to bluelight. Hello to all my fellow BLers, old and new! <3
 
Sweet P said:
Hi everyone! I've been away from Bluelight for what seems like ages. I'm a 27-year-old chick from New Zealand... I had a bad methamphetamine addiction for years, but it's now been a few months since I last used and I feel like I've finally broken the habit (at last!). I wouldn't say I'm clean though, as I self-medicate with dex-amphetamine and diazepam, but I don't consider those a problem for me. I also suffer from mental health problems and have gone through a lot of shit in my life, which is probably why I turned to drugs in the first place. Anyway, it's good to be back! I probably won't be posting on here as frequently as I used to (now that I'm not spending days and nights awake on meth, staring at my laptop screen), but I'll join in on some discussions when I can. :)
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I so missed you! I am super glad to see you on again :) . I really missed your weird kiwi self <3
 
When youre at the page where you can view all the threads in a given forum (viewing all the threads in The Dark Side for example). Click the "create new thread" button i believe it is. Welcome to BL and TDS. You will enjoy your stay :)
 
Hey my name is Tim, i have come to this site for maybe a month or two, not as a member just trolling collecting info. this site has been my favorite out of the substance related forums.

A little background: im 23, i started smoking pot at 14, which seems to be like 90% (exaggerated) of users say lol! i then quickly used cocaine and was addicted from age 17-19, during this addiction 15-18 i frequently used LSD, MDMA and xanex and so on all that shit you can find in high school if ur a druggy. ok so after my cocaine episode i was good for a half year or so and started to to take pain pills here and there, quickly started taking harder opiates (i.e. liquid oxy, fyntenyl patches, morphine and so on.

started shooting Heroin not long after at age 21, then went to speed-balls until during my probably 10 or 15 withdrawal i went to the ER for sever dehydration and psychosis (sleep deprivation), entered rehab right out of the hospital that was december 2011, clean almost 11 month around june or july i started taking medication for my ADHD (diagnosed in the 3rd grade) because i started school.... very quickly started to abuse them (ritalin) bought alot of amphetamine pills on the street. now last month i started smoking crystal meth, i smoke everyday several times a day... very worried about the comedown... and pretty oblivious as to exactly what the shit is actually doin to me... i continually lie to my self, saying im fine nothings wrong.... it SUCKS!

sorry its so long but thats as compressed as it can be...
 
Im used to reading the tweak writing its cool bud (used to do the same thing a few years back). Sounds like my story pretty much. Im sure youll receive a lot of advice here on TDS and support. Personally id say try to cold turkey it the best you can and get involved with 12 step programs if youre up to it. If you cant stop usage on your own, maybe try treatment to "lock you up" for a bit and force you to get clean and learn some things to help you out. You know what youre doing if you had 11 months at one point, just gotta dry out and start over again. I wish you the best of luck :)
 
Hi TDSers! I'm in my early thirties and live in Cali. Although l partied and experimented with drugs in college, l didn't discover opiates until l was thirty. It started with my boyfriend and l snorting a few Norcos...to shooting a couple of grams of h a day. I had a good life before, and have lost everything as a consequence of my drug use. My life is a total mess right now. Being an addict is unequivocally the hardest thing l have ever experienced, and has totally humbled me. I have been trying to get clean since February, and alternate between doing pretty good, to relapsing for weeks. I remember what my life was like before drugs, and l just want that back. My boyfriend has been totally clean for over three months, and he finally got sick of me fucking up and dumped me a few weeks ago..l had three weeks clean at the time, was just starting to feel better and it sort of threw me into a tailspin. I relapsed a few times (enough to have withdrawals) so then l was broken hearted and detoxing. Probably the closest l have ever been to having a total breakdown. I have been clean again for a couple weeks, and plan on staying this way this time. Losing the love of my life was truly and finally my rock bottom, and although he has been talking to me l still have a lot to prove to him before he takes me back. I have no friends right now, since they all still use, and the support and humanity on this forum has helped me immensely. Thanks for being there guys! Hopeful and grateful for what l do still have, the ability to become better :)
 
Hey sickofthisshiz, I too am in my early thirties, live in norcal, and have quit opiates. I too had to cut out my druggy friends. I also lost the love of my life due to drugs. I've been off it for a year now. I'm not going to lie, it's a hard road. Try to stay away from your connects. Get some support and find some sober friends. I pretty much hang with my bro and sis and few sober friends, go to NA meetings, therapy, suboxone clinic. Pick up a new hobby, volunteer, work, exercise. Avoid things that trigger. Like I had to stop watching Intervention and other drug related things. In the early stages of recovery, I couldn't listen to certain music even. Hang in there!!
 
I wish all you the best of luck. The first few weeks were rough but its all possible to do. Stay strong. But remember you can get clean for any number of reasons, but the ONLY way to stay clean is to do it for yourself.
 
Thanks for the support guys...I'm so thankful to have found this forum, you all give me hope and inspire me more than you know;)
 
Welcome to TDS sickofthisshiz :) I'm very sorry to hear about your addiction and the repercussions from it, I'm definitely sure it didn't help with your boyfriend breaking up with you :( I'm happy you came here though, there are plenty of sources for you to utilize to stay clean. We have information on addiction, social threads, threads with information about withdrawals and keeping a sober life, all of which im sure you'll enjoy. Send me a PM if you ever want to chat too.
 
Hey sickofthisshiz, I'm new here also. I have an appointment to go to now but I just wanted to say hi to everybody. Talk to you all soon.
 
sickofthisshiz, welcome to The Dark Side (and to Bluelight! ;))

I'm an inactive opiate addict and alcoholic, and can relate to much of your story. I relish seeing you more across the boards as time elapses. Feel free to explore the community as much or as little as you need to before you feel comfortable making more posts! :)

fabriclondon - welcome, too!! LOVE the username, surprised it wasn't already taken... I'm also from Philadelphia, too.

Many happy days,

~ Vaya
 
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