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Introduce Yourself! v.2.0

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Gnarles Bronson and Hardcore Prawn (amazing names guys!) welcome to TDS :) <3

I'm really glad you've both found this place - it sounds like you need somewhere where you can explain what has happened and how you are feeling without being judged. TDS is the place for that :)

Gnarles - I'm so sorry you've been through such a traumatic experience. I think it is going to be impossible to pick through exactly what caused this, but if you feel it was the sleeping pills and nitrous then I accept that! In a way, it doesn't matter at all what caused it - what matters is piecing yourself back together now. I think you are in recovery - your post sounds coherent to me, eloquent, even - and you are going to carry on improving. It can be impossible to see ourselves clearly.. have you thought about seeing a counsellor, to work through this traumatic experience, or some other kind of therapist? The other thing that comes to my mind is that some drugs can bring to light psychological or psychiatric issues that have been buried, so it may be those which have done the damage, rather than the drugs themselves.. and definitely stay away from all psychoactive substances for the time being! Good luck and keep talking to us here <3

Hardcore Prawn - your story is similar to countless others on here (check out the MDPV megathreads in EADD). It is a very compulsive and difficult to stop substance. But you can stop. You may need help - despite no physical dependency, there's a huge psychological aspect - but I want to give you some hope that you can get control of this <3 I don't think you necessarily need rehab right now, although if you feel you do, please don't hesitate - but seeing a drugs counsellor could make the world of difference. Can you speak to your partner about it? Make sure they know not to do it with you anymore, and also get their support?

If your work is stressing you out a lot, absolutely take a longer break. See your GP, get some help - your mental health comes first. I'm so glad to hear the positivity in your post - you are going to get yourself back on track. Perhaps a change of career would help, but right now I would put all thoughts of that to one side - concentrate on fixing you, what you need :) exercise, eat well, spend time with your loved ones, remind yourself of why you want to stop the PV. Herbavore's closing line is the ultimate reason <3
 
Hardcore prawn

You made a big step talking to your partner and opening up. I'm on the other end of the rope married (i have also a daughter) with a woman that never let's anyone in and i'll tell you this "our weakness is our strength" And people loves us for our weaknesses for these things we hide

I'm sure even if you don't let others in they can see. It's the time now to let go... you are the one that needs support now. Let your partner in so he can help. Our achievements mean nothing if we haven't got others to share them with. Self esteem doesn't exists i believe we live our life through the people around us you have to let them in to feel their love. Step by step believe this experience in your life will make you a better person for your self, your partner and especially your kid. You sound determined .May this be your first achievement that you will share.
sorry for my english.
 
I've probably posted in the version one thread waay back, but I'll re-introduce myself for the sake of it...

I'm rangrz, I'm an amphetamine addict (or more generally, any strong stimulant) and I dabble with most other substances. I've been doing so for a long time,
and I probably won't stop... That being said, I am still interested in reducing the harm from it.

I am a member of the armed forces and have been so for years. Despite the stereotypes, I am really not some jack booted thug... :P
I'm currently doing an M.Sc in a health/medicine related field, which I am finding really interesting and enjoyable.
However, both of those things have a big downside, which is having to see so much suffering, pain and death. But maybe from all of it, some good may come? But
some things do indeed burn a horrible image into your brain forever...

I suppose I come to TDS, because, like everyone, I sometimes have strong, unpleasant emotions and want to let it out and maybe get some advice.
I also post here because, well, a lot of people in my life have had problems from addictions and self harm, I've lost too many friends to suicide, and I've
seen too many of the results of people doing it. Which makes me want to try and help, and offer my (probably valueless) advice or insight in the hopes its useful to
someone.

If anyone wants to talk about anything, and figures a meth addict from the internet is the best choice for that, feel free to PM me.
 
Welcome to TDS rangrz. It's nice to see a person who posts as much on BL as you do come check out our nice little forum here. Maybe one day you'll decide to quit so don't let your hopes down, but for now harm reduction is an excellent strategy. Hopefully you can find some help on here to cope with all the problems in your life (believe me we all have plenty).
 
How are you guys doing?



my name's mike, and i came here to TDS, because i have a substance abuse problem. Heroin being the worst of it. For 3 years now ive been strung out.. im tired of the bs. i dont want to be a low life junky for the rest of my life.

Have not used in 11 days.





PS: n3o i am a big fan ;)
 
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Congratulations on 11 days sober, we're all rooting for you :) Feel free to look through our substance abuse discussions here on TDS, it will give you an idea on different strategies to quit and cope with dope sickness and addiction. Simply wanting to quit just for yourself is an important step in being cured. Welcome to the TDS
 
welcome, monster! 11 days is a huge mile marker. You'll find a great deal of support here in TDS.

How are you getting on with the withdrawal? There are many members here that can offer advice based on their experience and you'll find some handy options in slightly minimizing the pain involved in withdrawal as well. if you need any help finding info that maybe the Search Engine isn't helping with, please feel free to PM me or any member of Staff.

Good to se ya around!
 
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welcome, monster! 11 days is a huge mile marker. You'll find a great deal of support here in TDS.

How are you getting on with the withdrawal? There are many members here that can offer advice based on their experience and you'll find some handy options in slightly minimizing the pain involved in withdrawal as well. if you need any help finding info that maybe the Search Engine isn't helping with, please feel free to PM me or any member of Staff.

Good to se ya around!
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thanks brotha

i am through the worst of the wd's. they werre very intense, and i was kickin soo harrd. intense, but not long lasting. im still not well, but not hurtin bad at all
 
^that's nice to hear! So many can't get over that hump. It isn't a reflection of themselves but merely indicative of how powerful that shit hits us. I really admire anyone who attempts to kick. Its such a rough road and we all know that we're in for it when we make the decision. We kick anyway.

Much respect!
 
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my name's mike, and i came here to TDS, because i have a substance abuse problem. Heroin being the worst of it. For 3 years now ive been strung out.. im tired of the bs. i dont want to be a low life junky for the rest of my life.

Have not used in 11 days.
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Hi Mike :)
Welcome to The Dark Side. Congrats on your decision to get sober. It will be hard but it will be SO worth it!! I wish you all the very best, and keep us updated with how you're going okay?
Take care <3
 
Hi. My name is Moe and well I plan to post in TDS eventually. I'm hooked to a stupid RC and it sucks because i know I am addicted and cant do a thing about it. Also drugs have practically ruined the foundation that my grandmother and I built. I was a honor student in HS and studied psychology on the side. Once I started smoking weed and drinking everyday I just basically dropped out of school in the 10th grade. Life has been so hard for me... But, still, i try to look on the bright side of things but usually only end up seeing... The Dark Side.
 
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Mohinjo_Daro said:
Hi. My name is Moe and well I plan to post in TDS eventually. I'm hooked to a stupid RC and it sucks because i know I am addicted and cant do a thing about it. Also drugs have practically ruined the foundation that my grandmother and I built. I was a honor student in HS and studied psychology on the side. Once I started smoking weed and drinking everyday I just basically dropped out of school in the 10th grade. Life has been so hard for me... But, still, i try to look on the bright side of things but usually only end up seeing... The Dark Side.
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Hey Moe, you haven't ruined your life; you are "here" now and you want to go "there". It is hard to figure out how to get there but the intention always leads the way. You are in a good place. Post your process and progress (don't be shy<3) and you will get a lot of support and make a lot of friends here. Bienvenidos<3
 
Hi Moe, welcome to The Dark Side, you've come to the right place :) <3
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I'm hooked to a stupid RC and it sucks because i know I am addicted and cant do a thing about it.
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I know it feels like you're stuck and you can't do anything about it. But you CAN do something about it!! You have the strength and willpower inside of you to quit, but it can take a bit of effort to find that inner strength. It's there though <3
Have you told any of your family or friends about what you're going through? Have you ever spoken to a cousellor or anything like that?
 
There's no other appropriate place to post this.
Been feeling increasingly down lately. <I took some stuff> to try and feel numb.
 
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Munroe said:
There's no other appropriate place to post this.
Been feeling increasingly down lately. <I took some stuff> to try and feel numb.
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You should come back and maybe post something about why you were feeling so bad you needed to try to numb yourself. Lots of people can relate here and you might feel better talking about it.<3
 
Hi Munroe, welcome to TDS :) <3

As herbavore said.. please feel free to come back and tell us more. So many people here will understand and relate, which in itself is incredibly comforting, and once we know a little more we may even be able to help :)
 
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There's no other appropriate place to post this.
Been feeling increasingly down lately. <I took some stuff> to try and feel numb.
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I echo the other posters concerns, but add that--knowing what you took before the edit--be careful treading that road; it will become per my experience a daily necessity, and one that really locks you in. I mean, you probably know this. But at some point the numbing is a necessity rather than an escape and you will have more to face other than whats getting you now.

That said, I wish you the best and would encourage you to open up and seek support even--there's alot here and people do know what you're going through.
 
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