TMoney11111
Bluelighter
I can totally relate to you my friend. I have been on sub for 15 months and then later 10 months. I was only on a max of 6 mg and then 4 mg but I can tell you that most of the people I went through treatment with experienced this. I pretty much relapsed the 1st day I did not take suboxone. Not literally, I knew I wouldn't be able to get high for a few days, but those 3 days I spent every second thinking about waking up on day 4 and getting high again. I relapsed within 5 days, both times I came off of it. Part of the problem with suboxone is that you are repeating a specific behavior, holding the pill under your tounge for 10 minutes or so every damn day, twice a day in my case. The action, the taste, you become psychologically dependent! If you really don't want to relapse, I can tell you that the feelings will go away eventually. I've successfully quit before, I just am in quite the hell hole of opiate addiction and I would hate to see someone go down the same road as myself. Tell anyone and everyone your situation that can physically help you stay away, even watch you if need be. I wish I had just given my parents my car keys and watched tv and movies and smoked weed and relaxed, anything but gone out and given in so easily. I've quit dope without sub and it was MUCH easier than quitting after being on sub for so long. I had the same thoughts of wanting to jump some poor person outside of a pharmacy and all kinds of vivid dreams where I woke up sweating profusely. Going through all that and staying clean will make that pain worth it!!!!
