<insert clever staying clean title> December

It's really hard to change one's mindset from seeing drugs as that ultimate, but temporary, sense of relief and happiness. Lately I've been trying to deal with my cravings by focusing on all the consequences that come from getting high, or in my case relapsing: getting high is usually expensive and any relief is very temporary, copping is dangerous and time consuming, you're only going to feel worse afterwards, etc. etc.

It's taken me awhile, but now when I think of copping my DOC, heroin, finally I'm tending to think of the negatives rather than the positives. Some negatives are specific to my situation but many are pretty universal to opiate addicts. While the idea of a heroin high is still attractive to me, thinking about all the logistics and other factors that are involved in achieving that high. It just doesn't seem worth the effort. Shifting my mindset in this way has helped me to stay clean for awhile now.
 
Back to square one again... heroin on monday and tuesday, some benzos yesterday to skip that bad day after, and today is the first day clean again.
 
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