Inhibited inhibition.

[swilow]

Inhibited inhibition.

I open the door:
step over the portal;
blind in the star-glare,
deaf to the silence.
Hands reaching outwards, hands
trembling outwards,
nothing to stop them-
Stopped then by nothing.

Too loud to listen; no,
no taste to savour.
No scent of blossom,
all passion forgotten..

Fell through the doorway.
Fell down and further.
Further down the mind-shaft;
Only this blindness,
The sun, and this blindness,
It streams out of eyeballs,
raining flame-weepings,
breathless, harsh breathing:
Chest and heart beating
This chamber is haunted;
haunted and empty.
The tunnels lead nowehere,
but back to the door where I
step across the portal,
And wait to walk forward
to take one step backwards.​

 

[roadkilled]

I really like this, although i might have misunderstood it i really like the meaning that i derived from it.