Increasingly close to getting in street brawls - I'm worried about my future

[jhjhsdi]

I would probably have given him a warning slap without thinking

I think it would help a lot if I had a good way to release built up stress and emotions.

Punchbag 100%

 

[Lawless69]

I was rsped by a man at 4 years old. Its my earliest memory and has caused me no end of mental heath problems. Trust issues ptsd anxiety, no trust in men (im a male myself) the lists endless. I grew uo wondering if that y ment i was gay it screwed me uo n still to this day does! Im often hot on by women sometimes men. I did some modelling before i got into bodybuilding luckily i habe kept my looks, so having experienced that at 4 when i man comes. Onto me i feel sick n can feel rage taking over me. I got arrested last year after a gay guy slapped my ass in troed following me intl the toilets. Got arrested me not him and done in the uk for homoeopathic assault min sentence 6 months. He did not even get arrested. Anything homophobic here u will go to jail for. Im so. Lucky that a couple of witnesses not knkwn to me later csme forward n said they saw him slap my ass n follow me n come flying out hand to his mouth. So all my charges were ddopped. But you have to be so Careful mate especially if it is a gay man as you'll nesrly always get the blame. Its a hard one to prove. They will jusy see an assault and arrest you!!.
These days if anything of that nature happens i tell them straight away. Iam a straight man with no curiosity nome so walk away or i will use force against you as i find a man coming on to me a threat for reasons i wont explain. 9 timds out of 10 this does work it gets them thinking aboht the consequences right away. Maybe try this next time ul be surprised how many take it on board are not fighters an will vanish, it has to be better than being locked up.
Sorry im not of more help n good luck

 

[guy1234]

Yes. You will be my little closet ket monster. I force you to inject 20 grams per day while repeatedly blaring spice girls albums with the lights off. There is no escape.

Every few days I slip a bowl of milk and some bread under the door.

Sounds like a good time to me

Bye bye bladder tho and definitely agree 20g is gonna feel like 20mg after a day or two

Can we adjust torture for tolerance

 

[JohnBoy2000]

Alright, update:

Cue setup yesterday was - "Jealous love, force union".

The first two cues as we can tell are pure emotion.
The second two, have a physical component (although additionally with emotional relevance).

Some uncomfortable moments, potential for confrontation with some territorial dudes etc.

......

Today I realize, for optimal emotional stability, all I need is the first two:

i.e. "Jealous love".

Cause why?

Cause inducing the crazy in others (women) = prevents them inducing the crazy in us.

All that's required to induce the-crazy in them, is "jealous", applied to the point of highest sensitivity, "love".

i.e. "jealous love".

"Force Union" does not make them crazy, is aversive to many, and has a kind of negative self affect.
Additionally, being physical it can cause homosexual responses - essentially send out the "wrong signals".

......

So after some consideration (and my nervous system screaming at me, "get rid of anything not purely emotion"), I implemented only the first two cues this morning.

"Jealous Love".

Early days but I feel much more relaxed.
And importantly, the confrontational component appears to be absent.

I went for a stroll around a busy social spot just now.
Some drunken imbecile got in my face, but I just side stepped him and told him fuck off, which he did.

i.e. no confrontation, maybe hurt feelings but no getting in each others faces, no brawling etc.

.....

It's progress, if nothing else.

 

[JohnBoy2000]

I think states like "union" and "force" (i.e. fucking), may have to come about of their own volition.

i.e. we do not implement them.

We affect emotion with pure emotion states like "jealous/love", but the actual physical emotional manifestation, that's something we obviously cannot directly apply or influence.

That must be in some respects, be left to chance.

Thus, emotional affect only: "jealous love".

**
So we implement "jealous love", as a means to increase the probability of experiencing "union" and "force".

But without ever attempting to influence the latter directly (as it becomes imposing/confrontational).

 

[PtahTek]

If I hadn't shown him I was prepared to engage violently, it felt like he would have actually taken out his penis.

I am hyper violent spastic in public. This did tend to scare people away but it feeds a darker issue and can be compounded with spending years in the pokey. Doubtful this urge to bam was directed at offender (why were you there?) or at some other underlying issue.
Am not saying that you were the issue or problem here. Not even close. Trying to realize that destroying my life and possibly others can be disadvantageous at best. It tends to snowball amd we left with many more issues than what we signed up for.
Violence or the threat thereof only works as a valid defence. Ya bring it ya get it. I have found that walking away can provide a valid reason to trash a mf if they follow and wanna throw blows. lol Its hard as I feel I have the same right as everyone else to enjoy whatever wheneve where ever. But realizing that this freedom provides the same liberties as others and maybe it best if I choose the who, what, when, where, how and why on my own terms and to fit my comforts and needs.
As much as i may spout on about beating af down, i will never condone it without just cause
We all decide and must deal with consequences whatever may come.
Love

The best course of action is to use your words the best you can.

Walking tends to work fairly well i have recently discovered.

 

[Fiori di Bella]

And not all women need a violent dimension in their intimate lives to be sexually fulfilled.

Yeah, fuck that! I don’t want any violence to be an integral part of sex. It should be gentle, with plenty of foreplay.

I like candles + something to drink (Chardonnay) + me wearing some hot lingerie you can remove, and an exploration of mine and your bodies.

 

[Fiori di Bella]

Nope. And if you believe this, it may be at the route of your problems.

 

[d3athadone]

So weird cuz I was totally getting uni bomber vibes and then u mentioned him! Does u not understand peoples so u has this elaborate system for relating? I dunno if a guy were to hit on me if be like thanks I know im sexy and walk away. Do you like men? Even a little? Cuz why does it hurt u so that a drunk man finds u attractive? I really dont know what u want from this thread. Just chill out man. And lose the pseudo science. Use your heart

 

[Mr. Krinkle]

this guy needs to be on meds

 

[JohnBoy2000]

Yeah, fuck that! I don’t want any violence to be an integral part of sex. It should be gentle, with plenty of foreplay.

I like candles + something to drink (Chardonnay) + me wearing some hot lingerie you can remove, and an exploration of mine and your bodies.

It's not really up to us.

It's nature.

Nerve stimulation - that's the point here.

99% of chicks I've ever spoken to claim they've never experienced climax via penetration exclusively.

 

[JohnBoy2000]

And re nerve stimulation:

See I've been looking for the functional setup.

- "Jealous" = positive ionic charge
- "Love" = negative ionic charge
- "Union" = ion gate
- "Force" = action potential (neural spike).

But how to order or arrange them to render a functional outcome.

As we extrapolate the principles of the neuron to our cognitive psychology and when applied, it seems to transduce back into our neural state, affect how our nerves fire (hopefully optimally).

"Union" 1st - socially, we're presenting with the opportunity to engage in a mutually consenting coming together, this is our first application.
"Love" 2nd - dip deeper into a state of love.
"Jealous 3rd - combine the positive charge of "jealous" into "love" and we get an explosive response
"Force" 4th - this explosive response activates "force" = awesome fuck.

It's the same pattern that replicates itself from
- the neuron
- to our social behaviour
- to how we hook up
- to how we actually fuck when in bed.

.....

I implemented this updated order from last night, and today I'm getting mild symptoms of jaw torquing (which has only ever happened to me before on methamphetamine).

That would seem to indicate some kind of nerve activation I guess...... ?

 

[tubgirl.jpg]

99% of chicks I've ever spoken to claim they've never experienced climax via penetration exclusively.

I just wanna see that I get this right. Since you answered Bella's post that she didn't want violence to be an integral part of sex, and you answered with this,
are you saying that these 99% of chicks would've reached climax if they had been subjected to violence while they had sex?
Because that's very Ted Bundy.

 

[Soso78]

Yeah, fuck that! I don’t want any violence to be an integral part of sex. It should be gentle, with plenty of foreplay.

I like candles + something to drink (Chardonnay) + me wearing some hot lingerie you can remove, and an exploration of mine and your bodies.

Are you female? I thought u was trans?

 

[JohnBoy2000]

I just wanna see that I get this right. Since you answered Bella's post that she didn't want violence to be an integral part of sex, and you answered with this,
are you saying that these 99% of chicks would've reached climax if they had been subjected to violence while they had sex?
Because that's very Ted Bundy.

Sufficient nerve stimulation.

If you consider a burst of electricity to be "violent", which on a strictly speaking level I do, then yes.

Do you consider a bolt of lightening to be violent?
Well then a nerve action potential (neural spike) is the same, only smaller - so still "violent".

Understanding the nature of the violence which brings gratification, internalized, intimate, hot etc.

 

[tubgirl.jpg]

Sufficient nerve stimulation.

If you consider a burst of electricity to be "violent", which on a strictly speaking level I do, then yes.

Do you consider a bolt of lightening to be violent?
Well then a nerve action potential (neural spike) is the same, only smaller - so still "violent".

Okay. Should they have been shocked with electricity? I just don't see the connection with sex?

Is a bolt of lightening violent? Well, it's not a cozy teddy-bear. But violent as humans are violent? No.

Understanding the nature of the violence which brings gratification, internalized, intimate, hot etc.

I understand the nature of violence, but it seems to me you're confusing dominance with violence? Or do you mean violent sex, as in aggressive sex?
Or just violence? Beat her and she cums?

If not, I'd love to understand what you mean, if you'd like to elaborate; how does violence connect with sex, and how should it be applied to bring gratification, intimacy and so on?

 

[Fiori di Bella]

Are you female? I thought u was trans?

Not trans, sorry, 100% born in the body I currently inhabit.

I could probably direct you to a trans person if that’s your kick.

 

[Mr. Krinkle]

Not trans, sorry, 100% born in the body I currently inhabit.

I could probably direct you to a trans person if that’s your kick.

i've been looking for one here....no luck so far

 

[n3ophy7e]

"The Dark Side" is definitely the appropriate forum for this thread.

See, this cue setup of emotional-words I had been applying, my thoughts initially were it should be used in attempt to influence others responses to me - which it seemed somewhat effective in doing.

However, what I'm beginning to think now is - it's used more specifically in terms of how I process my own emotions.

And the more effectively I do that = the more stable, happier and healthier a person I am.

And that = the attraction.

.....

So cues are, "jealous/union/love/force".

For optimal emotional stability, I basically want to get them to cancel each other out.

i.e. get "jealous" to neutralize "love" = "jealous love".

Get "union" to neutralize "force" = "union force".

= "jealous love, union force".

Neutralizing these emotions..... I have no idea the interpersonal feedback it will elicit.

I implemented it just now to stop myself doing loco, and thus far I feel significantly more stable.

.....

I guess that's where these breakthroughs and understandings of the counter intuitive happen through, right?

Right on the edge.

Your views on love and sex are very concerning to me.
Please correct me if I'm interpreting this wrong, but "jealous love" is a precursor to domestic abuse, and "union force" sounds a lot like rape.
Also your comments about violence in sex also sound a lot like rape.
Violence has absolutely NO place in love, and jealousy is borne from insecurity and lack of trust.
Please feel free to explain your ideas in a different way to help us understand.

 

[deficiT]

Just deleted a chain of comments in this thread from a couple days back that I missed. Reminder that there is a "no glorification of drug use" rule in TDS. This isn't the forum where you talk explicitly about your drug use as a joke. Honestly this whole thread is borderline not fit for TDS in the first place, I'm considering moving it but its been up this long already.