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Greenlighter
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I averaged probably around 60-70 mg of Hydrocodone a day, for close to two years, and took it absolutely 99% recreationally, and that 1%, probably much less than 1%, was just for headaches or something that could have been taken care of with Ibuprofen or Excedrine. I absolutely abused this drug for almost two years, and feel absolutely awful about all the times I deceived loved ones, and how much money I pissed down the toilet. I was very good at hiding it, and pretty much nobody knew about my addiction except the people I used with, and my dealers. I was able to keep it from my wife, son, parents, etc...and I feel disgusting about that.
I'm now on day 6 of being clean. It's been a long-ass 6 days. Just as easily as the days floated by while high on Hydrocodone, recovering is the exact opposite, but totally worth it. I had acute W/D symptoms for the first 3-4 days, first 3 were pretty bad (I know not as bad as Oxy, H, etc...I never let myself progress and "climb the ladder" so to speak, I stuck only with Hydrocodone), but I still had bad sweats, chills, leg aches and pains, inability to ever be comfortable, explosive diarrhea, no appetite, inability to sleep, etc...and I'm still dealing with PAWS. I can't tell you how much it helps to stay fairly active, even when you feel awful and have no energy (and you won't), but exercising with release mass quantities of endorphins, and will help teach your brain to make dopamine again by itself. It may be a temporary fix, but feel much better after exercising.
I know my testosterone levels dropped tremendously, sex-drive disappeared, lost muscle, gained fat, and the psychological addiction is the worst. I'd always "need" to take some before every big game I wanted to watch, before every movie, before every outing, before everything really. I hated the fact that my whole life revolved around this horrible drug. I couldn't even take my wife out for a romantic evening without taking pills with me. I had to plan every day, every meal, EVERYTHING around this stupid drug, and not just enjoy and live my life with the wonderful people I have in it. It's so not worth it. I'm over the acute W/D symptoms for the most part...now I'm just dealing with anxiety/depression, and fatigue mainly. Still can't sleep very well...I wake up every other hour or so, but at least I can fall asleep now.
I quit cold-turkey, and I took a complete multi-vitamin, L-Tyrosine 500 (helps with mood, and helps brain re-learn to make dopamine), drank lots of water to combat dehydration, tried to move around a bit, if only to take the dog for a walk, and feel the sunshine and walk around, took some Imodium (small doses, recommended doses) for the diarrhea, maybe some OTC cough syrup or Advil PM to try to sleep a few hours, and whatever else I thought might help with the general discomfort and aches. Oh, and hot showers were amazing...took 2-3 a day.
Every day hopefully I will continue to feel better, get clearer-headed, learn to live without that horrible "crutch" I've been leaning on, enjoy life and not constantly worry about my supply and burning money. Also, my sex-drive has come back with a vengeance, and feels SO much better after getting clean. So much so, that a side-effect of W/D is that premature-ejaculation has reached new, embarrassing heights lol, but that too will return to normal soon I hope. It is one of the best decisions I've ever made.
I'm now on day 6 of being clean. It's been a long-ass 6 days. Just as easily as the days floated by while high on Hydrocodone, recovering is the exact opposite, but totally worth it. I had acute W/D symptoms for the first 3-4 days, first 3 were pretty bad (I know not as bad as Oxy, H, etc...I never let myself progress and "climb the ladder" so to speak, I stuck only with Hydrocodone), but I still had bad sweats, chills, leg aches and pains, inability to ever be comfortable, explosive diarrhea, no appetite, inability to sleep, etc...and I'm still dealing with PAWS. I can't tell you how much it helps to stay fairly active, even when you feel awful and have no energy (and you won't), but exercising with release mass quantities of endorphins, and will help teach your brain to make dopamine again by itself. It may be a temporary fix, but feel much better after exercising.
I know my testosterone levels dropped tremendously, sex-drive disappeared, lost muscle, gained fat, and the psychological addiction is the worst. I'd always "need" to take some before every big game I wanted to watch, before every movie, before every outing, before everything really. I hated the fact that my whole life revolved around this horrible drug. I couldn't even take my wife out for a romantic evening without taking pills with me. I had to plan every day, every meal, EVERYTHING around this stupid drug, and not just enjoy and live my life with the wonderful people I have in it. It's so not worth it. I'm over the acute W/D symptoms for the most part...now I'm just dealing with anxiety/depression, and fatigue mainly. Still can't sleep very well...I wake up every other hour or so, but at least I can fall asleep now.
I quit cold-turkey, and I took a complete multi-vitamin, L-Tyrosine 500 (helps with mood, and helps brain re-learn to make dopamine), drank lots of water to combat dehydration, tried to move around a bit, if only to take the dog for a walk, and feel the sunshine and walk around, took some Imodium (small doses, recommended doses) for the diarrhea, maybe some OTC cough syrup or Advil PM to try to sleep a few hours, and whatever else I thought might help with the general discomfort and aches. Oh, and hot showers were amazing...took 2-3 a day.
Every day hopefully I will continue to feel better, get clearer-headed, learn to live without that horrible "crutch" I've been leaning on, enjoy life and not constantly worry about my supply and burning money. Also, my sex-drive has come back with a vengeance, and feels SO much better after getting clean. So much so, that a side-effect of W/D is that premature-ejaculation has reached new, embarrassing heights lol, but that too will return to normal soon I hope. It is one of the best decisions I've ever made.
