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I'm weird, are you weird too?

Depressicaa

Depressicaa

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tl;dr Psychedelics make me crazy, thinking too much outta the box. I always see my problems but I never do anything to fix them, how have you fixed problems that were outlined by psychedelics?

Psychedelics have opened up something I think that many of us are either too crazy to accept or choose not to. I don't want this buried in the insight thread as this is too powerful of a topic to dissolve in a megathread.

I think openly now. Maybe a little too openly.
Its quirky. Enjoyable. But sane? Not really. When you open your mind to so many dimensions you can turn crazy, finding meaning in something that has no meaning. Finding paranoid plots where there is none. Attributing too much meaning to a meaningless event.

One very prime example is a worldly agenda that you want to believe in, there are clues for, but nothing concrete, which instead of dissuading your point of view would strengthen it and aim for you to dispense your own idea of truth from other dubious resources.

I am open to many more things now. They are not at all strange. Its like reading a statistics book, but giving them all attributes you want to.

Why this post? Because I sense a problem in the way I interact with the world. It may be a problem that I cannot solve. I can't stop thinking about money. My own shortcomings are always shadowed by more problems, and they cannot be fixed or at least I choose not to fix them. Psychedelics seem to explode in impacting ways for me, I understand all the problems, but I do little to fix it. Anyone know how to change this?
 
I've recently developed something similar. The last two acid trips I've had have been overshadowed by my paranoia, which has caused me a fair bit of embarassment. I also catch myself explaining - deeply - my feelings, in a lot of situations where it's not really appropriate.

I want to change, but I'm not sure how. All I can do now is look for a solution.
 
Thanks for sharing my problem, lets go on our journey together to figure out how to fix it!


I know psychedelics weirdens people out. It makes them come out more. But sometimes maybe they should be kept inside! Sometimes you are crazy like me!

In our world now its not only okay to be weird. Its desirable. You're not boring anymore. But the cost is so great, the expense is exponential. You don't have to go out anymore, you can do everything online. In very raw ironic way, we are more alone than ever, but ever more connected. And our own tendencies of eccentricities expound into funny little things, the nice ones are good, but the bad ones are easy to distinguish but hard to catch.

"Whoops sorry you don't care lol, sometimes I talk too much."
 
Totally, I'm loopy
A little out of control
But creative and definitely with my mind quite a bit out of the box
Countless trips with countless different thing will do that, but I always got it in me - the animal just got loose much more
Some BL-er mentioned the terms 'lateral thinking' and low 'latent inhibition' to me
I suggest if you don't know it you look it up and tell us if it sounds familiar
=D
 
Sounds like something I want, but not necessarily what I do at the moment. I do sometimes just like everyone else does sometimes, must be something wrong with that right? ;)

I'm not quite that creative but I would like to be! Who doesn't have ideas, the question is how do they help the person? Mines sure haven't... yet!

Low latent inhibition -> psychosis -> Thought disorder (ANYONE PERFECTLY SOCIAL?! TEACH ME SO I CAN BE TOO!) -> schizophasia (I can't remain calm and do stupid shit lol).

I do notice a lot of objects around me, maybe I can do something with it! Maybe I should stop using exclamation points, they lose so much meaning when they are used in every sentence.
 
The word "weird" actually has quite a bit more connotation to it than simply being a synonym for unusual.

I believe it evolved from the word "weyword"-- archaic spelling of "wayward"-- which means contrary or resistant to guidance or discipline. :)

Hooray for weirdness! :D
 
Hi Roger! Glad to see you in this thread too, I didn't have much luck quitting Adderall, but at least I am alive to be able to quit. ;)

Currently my life is awful, if there was a proper metaphor I am living in Africa picking up mud, twigs and cow shit to make my life, I wonder why it is so bad. :D

I'm crazy I understand it, and I know how to change it, but what is this?! I don't.

How odd! If pharmacies created a fix for a problem that never existed, maybe I'll be able to fix something that does, or I can wait for them to do it haha.
 
You've been taking 2C-E every few days for.. how long now?

Psychedelics aren't making you crazy, you're just doing too much. Give it a break for a while man, you won't get anything new from taking it so often. I made the same mistake when I first got my 2C-E, then I stopped taking it for a while and now I enjoy it every 1-3 weeks and it's so much more useful, and isn't impacting my life in a negative way.

You're talking like someone on 2C-E does, I can tell you need to cut down man. Now I'm tempted to go back and read the kinda stuff I posted when I was taking 2C-E every few days hah.
 
Just today. I'm very sorry I didn't make that clear, this isn't a bunching of me taking it, this is a day in which:

I went to a party.
I was nice, but not as social as I could have been, smoked JWH with a few new acquaintances, they all loved it.
Stayed up the night took Adderall, pumped gas, snuck into my friend;s house when they were all asleep, and took my coat and left him a present.
Drove back, passed out for 8 hours, took 2CE first time in 3 weeks roughly, drove to a friend's house, played cards (MtG if y'all wanna know) and smoked (cigs), drove him back, then crashed on a freeway exit and took more 2CE and amphetamines to derive more meaning from that day.
 
Jesusgreen said:
You've been taking 2C-E every few days for.. how long now?

Psychedelics aren't making you crazy, you're just doing too much. Give it a break for a while man, you won't get anything new from taking it so often. I made the same mistake when I first got my 2C-E, then I stopped taking it for a while and now I enjoy it every 1-3 weeks and it's so much more useful, and isn't impacting my life in a negative way.

You're talking like someone on 2C-E does, I can tell you need to cut down man. Now I'm tempted to go back and read the kinda stuff I posted when I was taking 2C-E every few days hah.
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^+1

Seriously it sounds like you are not using these drugs in moderation. Trips can weigh on your mind, and IME, I need a few days to "sort out" my thoughts and my trip in general.

Stay sober and fix your problems, because psychedelics are making whatever problems you have worse.

I can imagine you feel "crazy." Use moderation and respect the substances you are ingesting.
 
Depressicaa said:
Just today. I'm very sorry I didn't make that clear, this isn't a bunching of me taking it, this is a day in which:

I went to a party.
I was nice, but not as social as I could have been, smoked JWH with a few new acquaintances, they all loved it.
Stayed up the night took Adderall, pumped gas, snuck into my friend;s house when they were all asleep, and took my coat and left him a present.
Drove back, passed out for 8 hours, took 2CE first time in 3 weeks roughly, drove to a friend's house, played cards (MtG if y'all wanna know) and smoked (cigs), drove him back, then crashed on a freeway exit and took more 2CE and amphetamines to derive more meaning from that day.
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Fair enough, but redosing 2C-E is just as bad as taking it often, if not worse, the crazy thought trains it provokes stay for a few days after use, and amphetamines will make those worse.

Imo just give all drugs a rest for a week or two, then try not to combine so much or redose so much in future. It's pretty much a given that you'll feel/act/go crazy for at least a short period of time after such combos.
 
Oh I feel this way all the time. I don't feel crazy, I am crazy. No one knows either, or at least they don't give a clue they do. I look so young and innocent.
But that aside, don't you feel altered permanently by psychedelics?

I would love to quit, but sadly it is easier said than done.
imo I'm unbanned from IRC!
 
sounds a little pretentious and assertive, id just let the countless entities label me as such

reminds me of what Robert Anton Wilson said, it (psychedelics) make the crazies go crazier

and i need evidence of more bizarre acts
 
I am both! Hey its the crazy shit that sober people do that really makes me go hmm. At least I have an excuse, she doesn't.

(Woman kills baby since she was playing Farmville, intentionally.)
 
Depressicaa said:
Oh I feel this way all the time. I don't feel crazy, I am crazy. No one knows either, or at least they don't give a clue they do. I look so young and innocent.
But that aside, don't you feel altered permanently by psychedelics?

I would love to quit, but sadly it is easier said than done.
imo I'm unbanned from IRC!
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If you're having trouble stopping psychedelics then all the more reason to stop, you should not be feeling any compulsion to redose or take them more often, and if you are then there's probably something in your life you need to sort out first before using them again.

I don't think psychedelics change the way we think or act, aside from during (and for a short period after) the experience. They give us choices, and we determine which ones we take. We can walk the straight path, be the same person we were before, or we can veer to either side. They open up our mind to ideas, but it is ultimately up to us whether we accept all, some, or none of this information.
 
Oh I'm not having trouble with stopping it, I can stop anytime, I just want to use it to sort out my problems. I don't really want to take it unless I want some insight, I would like to say I am not addicted but maybe I am, I don't want to redose unless I feel that the trip wasn't deep enough.

Its not like a drug I can take everyday (okay it is), but I think it loses its impact, which is why I didn't take any more today. 1 week should be good enough you think?
 
Depressicaa said:
Oh I'm not having trouble with stopping it, I can stop anytime, I just want to use it to sort out my problems. I don't really want to take it unless I want some insight, I would like to say I am not addicted but maybe I am, I don't want to redose unless I feel that the trip wasn't deep enough.

Its not like a drug I can take everyday (okay it is), but I think it loses its impact, which is why I didn't take any more today. 1 week should be good enough you think?
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It honestly sounds like you may be mentally addicted to this substance. What you said is typical "addict speak."

I'm surprised you haven't come to the conclusion that 2c-e is making your problems worse, and that you need to deal with this other than with psychedelics.

Seriously take a break, more than 1 or 2 weeks.

You're developing psychosis from amphetamine/2c-e constantly.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychosis
 
Roger&Me said:
The word "weird" actually has quite a bit more connotation to it than simply being a synonym for unusual.

I believe it evolved from the word "weyword"-- archaic spelling of "wayward"-- which means contrary or resistant to guidance or discipline. :)

Hooray for weirdness! :D
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You. Are. Ace.

Spot fucking on!
 
Chi-Blast said:
It honestly sounds like you may be mentally addicted to this substance. What you said is typical "addict speak."

I'm surprised you haven't come to the conclusion that 2c-e is making your problems worse, and that you need to deal with this other than with psychedelics.

Seriously take a break, more than 1 or 2 weeks.

You're developing psychosis from amphetamine/2c-e constantly.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychosis
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Your taking this way to far, he is spacing out his dosing by weeks as he said by his last post.

All he is is a little eccentric as we all are, no need to jump on his bones and call him a 2c-e addict

To answer the question, yes I am also crazy but that is only because my whole sense of reality could and could not be has been warped so drastically I am in constant state of confusion. (I am not complaining though ;) )
 
in my classic paraphrasing and using weasel words, not speaking as myself

i'll say that mckenna said that prolonged day after day use gives the user 'views' and you won't share much in common with others, even other users

sometimes i'd try to push my views on to others, my back and forth diet of macrobiotics to no-carb diet, anti-tv stance etc

sort of cognitive dissonance
and even without that i'll be avoided by sellers or refused outright to be sold such substances

oh well i can acquire them without anyones help,

how i behave after prolonged k use and ingesting a sheet of-judging by what people have said in the "Acid in Country" thread.. potent stuff in a couple of months x6

well i've been an odd bloke since the begining
 
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