doofhard
Bluelighter
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- Apr 8, 2003
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I was going to post this last night when I suffered from a very messy comedown but decided that I have had these thoughts alot lately but once the comedown goes I purposely forget that I was thinking of a break.
This time it's stuck and I mean it. There is a number of things that have been pushing me in this direction for a while. 1. This was the one that hit home, a couple of weeks ago I was talking with my mum (I still live at home) and we were talking drugs, good and bad points about them. I was pretty much on all the positives, not really thinking I suffered from the negitives. Then she said but what about the next two days after I have been out and I treat her like shit. I didn't think I was treating her bad I was just trying to avoid as much contact as possible and therefore when we talked it was short and blunt and came accross rude and moody.
The other things are just what I would expect to be normal reasons to take a break, such as, taking multiple pills over a night and i'm not just talking 2, the nights out have become every weekend and everyone with pills+, the nights out have become from about 7-9pm when something it taken to start the night, then all night till the club closes, then of the last month or so, at a day club for most of the day and yesterday even after, when we went back to someones house and had some lines of speed, not that I wanted it it was just there.
Until my Mum told me that obversely I do suffer from comedowns I never knew. I have only 2 until yesterday I remember as being bad, new years of last that was about 5 days of feeling like death and about 2 months ago.
Im still going to go out as much as possible, I know I love the scene, love the music but just a decent break from pills (minimum 3 months thats the plan)
Im just going to out on different things, such as small amounts of alcohol (because I don't want to be a drunk wanker) maybe some speed on maybe a monthly basis for big nights. For the rare but huge events that I go to such as one in two weeks i'll take 1,4B.
I think this is a good start for me, I know I can go out straight and have a ball, just can't do it for as many hours. The only thing that worries me is sometimes when I talk to straight people when I'm off they aren't fun to talk too.
I have taken a break before (for about a month) after new year of last, the break worked but quickly grew back. This time I figure a good break then pills like once a month. The other good thing about doing this is you can pick the best pills of the whole month.
I wanted to put this up for me just to confirm what must be done
This time it's stuck and I mean it. There is a number of things that have been pushing me in this direction for a while. 1. This was the one that hit home, a couple of weeks ago I was talking with my mum (I still live at home) and we were talking drugs, good and bad points about them. I was pretty much on all the positives, not really thinking I suffered from the negitives. Then she said but what about the next two days after I have been out and I treat her like shit. I didn't think I was treating her bad I was just trying to avoid as much contact as possible and therefore when we talked it was short and blunt and came accross rude and moody.
The other things are just what I would expect to be normal reasons to take a break, such as, taking multiple pills over a night and i'm not just talking 2, the nights out have become every weekend and everyone with pills+, the nights out have become from about 7-9pm when something it taken to start the night, then all night till the club closes, then of the last month or so, at a day club for most of the day and yesterday even after, when we went back to someones house and had some lines of speed, not that I wanted it it was just there.
Until my Mum told me that obversely I do suffer from comedowns I never knew. I have only 2 until yesterday I remember as being bad, new years of last that was about 5 days of feeling like death and about 2 months ago.
Im still going to go out as much as possible, I know I love the scene, love the music but just a decent break from pills (minimum 3 months thats the plan)
Im just going to out on different things, such as small amounts of alcohol (because I don't want to be a drunk wanker) maybe some speed on maybe a monthly basis for big nights. For the rare but huge events that I go to such as one in two weeks i'll take 1,4B.
I think this is a good start for me, I know I can go out straight and have a ball, just can't do it for as many hours. The only thing that worries me is sometimes when I talk to straight people when I'm off they aren't fun to talk too.
I have taken a break before (for about a month) after new year of last, the break worked but quickly grew back. This time I figure a good break then pills like once a month. The other good thing about doing this is you can pick the best pills of the whole month.
I wanted to put this up for me just to confirm what must be done
