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Bluelighter
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I have a opiate addiction oxycodone and heroin I recently quit my job because my anxiety is so bad and when I don't have opiates I don't do anything now but lay around waiting for a few bucks to get anything.I'm currently applying for disability but that's a whole different story.I'm just fed up with having nothing because of it.can't find a suboxone Dr around me and I don't have a car.I lost over 35 pounds and I'm mentally exhausted.I haven't had anything in about a day and I'm too tired to even try to get anything
 
I just came off a nasty run with opiates and it wasn't fun. Everything in my life seems to be slipping away. However, I do have a few positives going on and I'm trying to focus on that.

Being ill and not having money truly sucks. I feel your pain and hope you can find a way to get well again. Believe me, I understand more than you know. Hang in there.
 
I have a opiate addiction oxycodone and heroin I recently quit my job because my anxiety is so bad and when I don't have opiates I don't do anything now but lay around waiting for a few bucks to get anything.I'm currently applying for disability but that's a whole different story.I'm just fed up with having nothing because of it.can't find a suboxone Dr around me and I don't have a car.I lost over 35 pounds and I'm mentally exhausted.I haven't had anything in about a day and I'm too tired to even try to get anything

What area are you in if you don't mind me asking?

I had a lot of difficulty finding a suboxone doctor that wasn't at capacity, but I know of a few.
 
I live in southeast Ct.I could go the methadone route but it takes up to 2 weeks here to get your first dose
 
I know that 2 weeks seems like forever when you need relief now, but the way I see it, that's no reason not to get the ball rolling. If, by some miracle, in 2 weeks time you no longer feel like you need or want to start methadone, you can always tell them you've changed your mind. Worst case scenario, you're in the same exact situation you're in now. Best case scenario... well, you might find it to be the push you needed to start making changes.

That's my two cents. Truthfully, I'm in a similar state as you, so "do as I say, not as I do." I'm addicted to ... drugs. It has primarily been opiates/heroin over the years, but I started on a methadone maintenance program about 6 months ago, and not only did I not stop using heroin (although methadone blocks the high at the right dose, so I have cut back hugely,) I started IVing stimulants as well.

I also lost my job a few weeks ago. You'd think the loss of income would have put a stop to my drug habit, but addiction will not lay down without a fight - I just started to dig a hole of debt. I also spend most of my time laying around at home, watching the hours pass, waiting for something to change without doing anything to change things.

Just wanted you to know you're not alone.
 
Yeah it sucks days later I'm still doing nothing.when I get better I do a few things here and there I just have no motivation.just now planning a trip out of the state to work and get away from everything
 
Ugh. Withdrawal is so awful, and so much worse when you don't have any money. Can you buy a few subs on the streets until your methadone appt? I hope your trip away does you some good! I don't have any good advice, except to say that I have been there and it is truly devastating. Don't let the depression get you down too much - remember that most of it is the drugs/lack of drugs talking.
 
I don't really care for suboxone that much I used to buy them all the time when I would get sick and when they were actually around.they didn't do much for my cravings and I absolutely hate the taste of them! Strip or the pills I hate the taste lol
I just started methadone this past Friday at 30mg and just got bumped up to 35mg today but they weren't even going to do that why I don't know but 30mg wasn't helping
 
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