I'm Sorry

Phew! Read this from the start. You scared the shit out of me Keif and I've never even seen a post of yours before.

Look my friend we've all made decisions we probably regret, at least sometimes. They brought us to our highest of highs, which we neve knew existed. Hence: inevitably, the lowest of lows, which we also never new existed. You look back and wonder if it was worth it if you ask me **** no. I would just leave the oxy and the xtc out. Shit ruined me. 500mg a day oxy habit cold turkey tossed (still craving) and damn XTC the nights I took 4 or 5 doses a night 3 nights in a row 4 times a year (6 years start to finish) I legitimately believe I damaged my brain cells permanently. I regret taking so many damn benzos too. So much xanax and klonopin it just adds to the brain damage feeling with the damn memory loss.

Don't let a little money and weed get you down bro. Weed will keep you down longterm FYI if you're smoking for years and years. Gets old. You'll run through the edibles too. Anyways you'll see you've got a life to live so live it and figure it out on your own.

I know I'm some random to you but people care about you. You have a calling.

Anyways next time you're having a negativity tantrum, PM me. We all have them. Being alone, personally when I have them I go to some really dark places in my mind. Thoughts so dark you don't even want to think about thinking about them. Loneliness is dangerous. You have us. Whatever family you do have, if not a full one, you will crush them if you were to go through with it. I know it may be hard to think selflessly right now but they will live a life of grieving and suffering. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Dont expect life to be smooth sailing either dude. Life is problems and the lack of anything fair so don't expect that either
 
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I'd like to say that @Keif' Richards has been a mod and a friend here for basically a decade, and has made many contributions and saved many lives during his time here. We are so happy to help him in this, a coming together of hearts.

Unfortunately, this is not something that we are able to do for everyone, so please do not be offended when we provide you with moral support, suggestions about your situation or direct you to resources in your area.

Making a GoFundMe for everyone that is in trouble is not what we are here for and not something that we are able to do.

Our mission is harm reduction and we will continue to do that.
 
just remember before you do anything rash.

the opportunity may or may not be there !


Love you Keif' !
 
@LadyAlkaline I've been around here a long time and will tell you something, your one of the special ones. And you'll be one of the mods in time all of us able try and do are part to keep the this wheel spinning out in our dues when those days come. I try and help people still since and not be a gloomy dude we all have our issues. I'm glad you are feeling better keif, fight for it everyday cuz this world is tuff and just when you think you got it down something comes from left field. I hope that the issues with your liver ease in time have you tried supplementing with Milk Thistle I'm sure it could not hurt. Hepatitis C took my father from me in 2012 and he was the best person I ever knew, it was hard watching him drink everyday ontop of it but once men are set in our ways, it's how it is. This thread really tugged at my heart and I strive daily to think beyond myself and my shattered world. I'm glad you spoke before you took the leap, because once things go black it don't come back.
 
Everybody, I am so sorry that I havent been on this thread for so long. I had a 2 day seizure rampage and even after a seizure it sucks!

There are so many things Ive said a million times with no meaningmbehind them. Not this time ,:)
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I love you guys from the very bottom ot my heart. You broufht me out or hell. This is the most love tbat I think I have ever been shown. Youve helped me, yes, but you also have helped by showin me a diferent world.

I see the world as malevolent place and its people as ones you can never trust. Youre like a family to me if youll have me :)
 
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@LadyAlkaline I've been around here a long time and will tell you something, your one of the special ones. And you'll be one of the mods in time all of us able try and do are part to keep the this wheel spinning out in our dues when those days come. I try and help people still since and not be a gloomy dude we all have our issues. I'm glad you are feeling better keif, fight for it everyday cuz this world is tuff and just when you think you got it down something comes from left field. I hope that the issues with your liver ease in time have you tried supplementing with Milk Thistle I'm sure it could not hurt. Hepatitis C took my father from me in 2012 and he was the best person I ever knew, it was hard watching him drink everyday ontop of it but once men are set in our ways, it's how it is. This thread really tugged at my heart and I strive daily to think beyond myself and my shattered world. I'm glad you spoke before you took the leap, because once things go black it don't come back.
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I just saw this, Charlie. Thank you for your kind words ❤❤❤
 
Keif' Richards said:
I see the world as malevolent place and its people as ones you can never trust.
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Same here, bro. BL is slowly both reinforcing this and also disproving at once. Hell of a thing and do not pretend to understand it but there it is. ;)
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Youre like a family to me if youll have me
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Shiiiiiiiittt... ya'll took me in at my lowest; have no family to rely on so here I is. WTF? Just good shit here and very *evolving, IMO.
Ha! I'll be ya huckleberry. =D
<3
 
Gawd that's so awful to have seizures.

Will they stop ?! ☹. Please stay strong, this is

allot to go through. Support can help so much.

♡
 
Keep us in the loop? Not sure what was posted looks like some of my posts at times. =D

Regards,
Huckleberry lol
 
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