Im reaching my breaking point

[HeWhoHowls]

Here's what I'm noticing...
it seems to me that you have created a self-image based on the comparison of others.
do you know who you are??
have you found n identified the true being within you.
Could you be interested in altered states of consciosness to do some introspection??
i found that once I have gotten a grip on who I am I became empowered basically, & i think that would be best for you as well.

 

[Dave]

I can tell you OP, that I hated high school, and had some similar issues to you. All I can say is that "it gets better" doesn't just apply to gay people. People that 'do well' in high school, socially at least, often wind up peaking in high school. It's almost impossible to consider it at the time, but the vast majority of the people in your school will have precisely zero impact on your life as a whole. Do what you love, and if you don't know what that is yet then try everything. When you are passionate about something, people can tell, and you will find true friends in this way.

Oh, and I really think that we've had enough discussion on how to score drugs. Let's keep this on topic.

 

[Effuzion]

you're gonna do what you're gonna do, but in my honest opinion there's nothing psychic about drugs. you're either gonna like it and do more drugs or hate it and move on. theres a lot of shit you experience while high on weed/lsd/shrooms you think is mind blowing but if you write down the things you're thinking (or somehow remember them) you'll think to yourself........ that was fucking stupid. at least that's how it was for me. used occasionally trips can make you feel good for a while, kind of like yoga or a massage. just use common sense and don't over do it cause then you undo all the good things just make it worse.

as far as meeting "the dealer" at your school or whatever you call him, just talk to him about any bullshit subject. guys are all the same. we like chicks, drugs, violent movies and eminem. then you can be like "so what are you doing this weekend" and casually bring up the drug thing.

 

[cire113]

take my advice man,.. do anything but DRUGS and you'll probably end up way happier in the long run

 

[S.M.F.G]

Bro, no one on here is gonna hook you up, its against the rules. I see your problem and have trouble relateing as i was into weed and psycs by the time i hit high school i had a tight crew and easy access. You are the polar oppisite however saying that you aproached me bak then and asked for the hookup, we would have gladly obliged and made sure you knew what the fuck you were doing. Maybe shits changed since my time, i doubt that though id say if anything its evolved a bit, Im not condoning or endorsing anything in this post. But my oppinion is first: LISTIN TO THE ADVICE GIVEN IN THIS THREAD!! Then make the informed decision to aproach ur guy and just casualy state ur interest.
Watch out though... Even weed can form psycological addiction and i was sitting bak then goin i wont be doing this for long, but yer here I am a decade later