Vacuumhed
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Dec 30, 2009
- Messages
- 82
But hi anyway. Not too keen on new members, are you guys? You see, I have a natural ability to get disliked without knowing I am doing something bad, so excuse me if I say a lot of unappropriate stuff. If you're nice and bother to point out instead of ignoring or flaming me, thanks, really.
So a little about my history of drug usage. I've been using drugs since I was 12, so I am quite experienced and may be a bit brainfucked, but that's ok. Starting out with cigs, alcohol and sniffing, when I finally turned 14 I started to binge a lot of opiates and benzos, but I've reduced my intake as the withdrawals are pretty nasty. Nowdays I have isolated myself and lost nearly all my contacts, so RCs are my thing although many are quite lame. I hate psychedelics as I can not stand the alteration of sensations giving me huge anxiety. If they were hallucinations and mindfuck only, then damn great, but there are no such drugs, are there? As I am typing now I am enjoying the relaxed state from phenibut and stimulation of damphetamine, latter being my drug of choice nowdays as they motivate me. I still do benzos but not in the amounts I used to, only when going out or to soften up the tension from stimulants when I've done way too much. I have no plans to quit my drug usage any time soon, they are too awesome, damn right, although bad in the long run.
So who am I? 24 years old living in Sweden but of british descent, fluent in both english and swedish but I prefer to use english due to internet being my new world of living. I prefer internationality as it's fun to see all the different personal traits people have in each country, stereotypes as one would call it, and that is probably why I love to be on this virtual world. Sometimes I spend a lot of time making music with fruity loops 8 or reason 4 and quite enjoy that. Pretty much my only intrest, but studying AI and chemistry is on spot for my search of other stuff to do in the future. Molecular sturcutres are so damn fascinating, are they not?
Lastly on the dark side my life isn't looking too bright atm but it's chill, I am at the point of getting controlled for the rest of my life aka getting my freedom stolen, so I'll have to do something about it pretty soon. Think it is a nice source for will to fix the life up and I have my other powerful tool, speed. So yeah, I am quite happy and see my future brightening up in coming times, but sure will I face some challenges on the way.
I hope I am gonna get along with you guys and get new friends on this forum. See you around.
So a little about my history of drug usage. I've been using drugs since I was 12, so I am quite experienced and may be a bit brainfucked, but that's ok. Starting out with cigs, alcohol and sniffing, when I finally turned 14 I started to binge a lot of opiates and benzos, but I've reduced my intake as the withdrawals are pretty nasty. Nowdays I have isolated myself and lost nearly all my contacts, so RCs are my thing although many are quite lame. I hate psychedelics as I can not stand the alteration of sensations giving me huge anxiety. If they were hallucinations and mindfuck only, then damn great, but there are no such drugs, are there? As I am typing now I am enjoying the relaxed state from phenibut and stimulation of damphetamine, latter being my drug of choice nowdays as they motivate me. I still do benzos but not in the amounts I used to, only when going out or to soften up the tension from stimulants when I've done way too much. I have no plans to quit my drug usage any time soon, they are too awesome, damn right, although bad in the long run.
So who am I? 24 years old living in Sweden but of british descent, fluent in both english and swedish but I prefer to use english due to internet being my new world of living. I prefer internationality as it's fun to see all the different personal traits people have in each country, stereotypes as one would call it, and that is probably why I love to be on this virtual world. Sometimes I spend a lot of time making music with fruity loops 8 or reason 4 and quite enjoy that. Pretty much my only intrest, but studying AI and chemistry is on spot for my search of other stuff to do in the future. Molecular sturcutres are so damn fascinating, are they not?
Lastly on the dark side my life isn't looking too bright atm but it's chill, I am at the point of getting controlled for the rest of my life aka getting my freedom stolen, so I'll have to do something about it pretty soon. Think it is a nice source for will to fix the life up and I have my other powerful tool, speed. So yeah, I am quite happy and see my future brightening up in coming times, but sure will I face some challenges on the way.
I hope I am gonna get along with you guys and get new friends on this forum. See you around.
Welcome to Bluelight!!