Man you're so right. It wasn't the peer pressure, I actually liked to roll over in the mud and cover myself with that ahit. For some fucking odd reason I thought I was unworthy of things, man I still got so much trauma to work on. Right now I'm contained and can't do shit but imagine if I'm fine again and those thoughts unresolved thoughts start ruminating again? I needa take precautions and also get the fuck away from here, they sell coke 5 min walking from here. Anyway, thanks buddy for those words of encouragement

I tend to fuck up from time to time with some ppl but I'm not a bad person.
Cheers for that buddy, it's Friday and I'm having a drink to distract myself.
Stay safe