I did some theatre in high-school and I always got the jitters before going on stage and I assumed that it was just some normal nerves which is may very well be. However I noticed getting anxious over smaller things, like getting out of bed, or going to class because I didn't want to see or talk to my friends.
My mother's side of the family has a history of mental illness and addiction in general. She has a history of drug addiction and she's diagnosed as BIPOLAR type 2, which I'm worried I may have/develop as time goes on.
After I graduated high-school I didn't have the grades or money to get into a UC/CSU so I'm attending a community college. Recently I've been under a lot of stress with school, work, and extra curricular activities so I've started to cope with it through the use of anti-anxiety medication. It started off taking an ativan from my grandfather's medicine bottles, and eventually I'd be taking anywhere from 4-5 mg just to relieve myself from the stress. Just yesterday I took an entire bottle of klonopin from my brother's drawer (he thinks they're anti-depressants and won't take them... he refuses to take medication in general so I don't think he'll notice.) Ending up take 7 mg with alcohol, and weed over the course of a night at a friends house.
Anyways, I've been a lurker for a while and I decided to finally get involved.
My mother's side of the family has a history of mental illness and addiction in general. She has a history of drug addiction and she's diagnosed as BIPOLAR type 2, which I'm worried I may have/develop as time goes on.
After I graduated high-school I didn't have the grades or money to get into a UC/CSU so I'm attending a community college. Recently I've been under a lot of stress with school, work, and extra curricular activities so I've started to cope with it through the use of anti-anxiety medication. It started off taking an ativan from my grandfather's medicine bottles, and eventually I'd be taking anywhere from 4-5 mg just to relieve myself from the stress. Just yesterday I took an entire bottle of klonopin from my brother's drawer (he thinks they're anti-depressants and won't take them... he refuses to take medication in general so I don't think he'll notice.) Ending up take 7 mg with alcohol, and weed over the course of a night at a friends house.
Anyways, I've been a lurker for a while and I decided to finally get involved.
