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Bluelighter
i have divorced my wife... life is painfull but i know i can stand strong. but the pain is harsh and i feel hopeless. how does one get through the agony of loosing the one you loved, the one you made a commitment to to stand through with forever? i loved her dearly but i had to let go, i don't regret anything ever. because what i have done throughout my life has always been my choice. suicide is not my answer neither is hurting myself, I stand through this pain with an addiction, And i feel trapped withing the deep dark clenches of this monster they call.. opiates.
All my life i have dreamed of the one i would fall in love with, and finally on august 12th 2008 at age 17 i found her, married her and had a beautiful son. But problems always were resolved by popping something, shooting up, drinking down the red dragon. But i could not deal with the pain of having the feeling of not being treated right, the yelling, the fights, the rough nights of sleeping alone on the coutch because the problem was never resolved till the next day. I still love her with all my heart and will always be there to protect her, help her, save her. I just have one major question to myself, to god, to everyone and everything. Did i do the right thing? no? yes? maybe this question will never be resolved, maybe it will, but forever my quote will be that love makes no sence, but will never be resolved by feeding this addiction.
All my life i have dreamed of the one i would fall in love with, and finally on august 12th 2008 at age 17 i found her, married her and had a beautiful son. But problems always were resolved by popping something, shooting up, drinking down the red dragon. But i could not deal with the pain of having the feeling of not being treated right, the yelling, the fights, the rough nights of sleeping alone on the coutch because the problem was never resolved till the next day. I still love her with all my heart and will always be there to protect her, help her, save her. I just have one major question to myself, to god, to everyone and everything. Did i do the right thing? no? yes? maybe this question will never be resolved, maybe it will, but forever my quote will be that love makes no sence, but will never be resolved by feeding this addiction.
~Mason A. Mahoney.
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