DesertHarp
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Depression is an umbrella diagnosis, and says no more about its causes and ways of treatment than "headache" does. I was diagnosed with depression a few years back, and prescribed higher and higher doses of SSRIs and later even antipsychotics, but nothing helped, and that CBT didn't, either. If anything, it made things worse. Because nobody made the effort to determine what's behind the "depression". Until I went to a neurologist because of sudden severe vertigo and he made some test and determined I have Asperger's. He told me how to start tapering off all that stuff I was taking because it was making me sick, not better.
I didn't feel any mood or drive improvement by taking all that antodepression stuff. Maybe that's why I didn't feel any mod or drive decline after coming off of them. I just felt like I was alive and myself again without the SSRIs and quetiapine. And my vertigo disappeared, so I could start doing sports again and go for walks (good, natural antidepressants).
I do take psychoactive meds when I feel I need them. Sometimes when I get overwhelmed, or to prevent getting overwhelmed, or when I feel understimulated. But not on a daily basis, at least not for a prolonged time.
@DesertHarp
What I'm trying to say is that, despite your opiate dependency/addiction there's still the depression that may require a different kind of approach than the "usual" SSRI/CBT. Identifying the underlying cause of your original depression might be a first step to cope with that.
I agree, in that I think depression is more of a symptom than a primary disorder. I've never accepted the notion that depression is some self-perpetuating dysfunction of the brain. Nowadays, medicine is backing away from the "chemical imbalance of neurotransmitters" thesis. SSRIs did nothing for me. Neither did CBT. I've been living very reclusively, spending too much time alone. I think that's my main problem.
I need more social connectedness. When that goes well, life is more fulfilling. But it's risky. When attempts to mix and mingle don't go well, it aggravates depression. Last year I traveled far to visit family. The reunion was a bit rocky, and some hard feelings serviced. I came back from the trip depressed.