guaranteed (not being negative - just realistic), as ive talked to u over a major depressive period, and neither of us r 'cured' of our BPD, nor will we ever b (tho we can do DBT and work on helping ourselves wen an episode comes on - or prevent episodes coming on to the point that we need to take those awful antipsychs were given, that i try not to take, since im already short on the old dopamine supplies, tho still do end up taking them sometimes to save my legs from getting mutilated) then even tho we hav each other, there is the possibility that, tho we can do the best to support each other while going thru our probs (id want the same if i was dissociating due to my PTSD being triggered) but sadly, since one
is BPD, and we both hav it, sometimes wen we both r going thru bad periods wiv it, ive noticed our behaviour can set each other off a little bit cos one of us misreads the others moody behaviour and reacts oversensitively or one of us gets offended by something the other says and starts to split them black then the other realises that theyve pissed them off cos they see them taking a pill and then they start hating themselves and the urge to self-harm starts in them
thats the only thing we hav to watch for really closely to make this relationship work!
saying that i havnt thought bout committing suicide since i met my gal either

we still hav to consider that were never quite out of the danger zone until weve had extensive treatment for our BPD/me for my PTSD....and seeming as u reckon theres no true solution but chemicals to ur depression, as does wikipedia (except ECT) we still nd to work out a 'suicide action plan' between both of us oneday
cos i dont wanna lose u and i feel for some mad reason u may feel the same way!
in which case, for a start, if either of us is feeling suicidal, even slightly, we need to let the other one know, no matter wat time of day it is (even past midnight - i keep the phone in my room!)
and to anyone else reading this post, whos wiv someone who has suicidal ideations, esp if u do as well, maybe this wud b a gd idea for u too?
suicide action plans can save lives - cos wen ur that low, hearing the person u luv most in the world just b there to tell u how much it means to them that ur still on this earth is really important
if i was suicidal and i rang Keira to tell her so, and she said simply 'i cudnt live without u baby - u mean too much to me....wat wud i do if u killed urself?' i dont think i cud do it, no matter how shitty things were at the time, cos the thought of me doing sumthing that wud put Keira in such distress wud just appall me
it wud b like sleeping wiv Keiras ex IMO (probly even worse)....it wud leave her lonely and heartbroken
ive lost an ex to an OD - it wasnt a purposeful OD, but all the same....wen u luv someone u neva get over it if they die before their time
and i dont want my gal to ever experience that feeling that niggles away at ur heart for life
so theres another idea to put all u who hav partners off suicide...