What verdict do you give to yourself?
As a universalist, like Jesus, I have to find us all, --- not guilty, --- because we were made to be what we end as by others who would have interacted with us and molded us to be as we are.
They/we must all share the blame for reality and our collective sin.
Regards
DL
I've probably flouted some girls romantic expactations at around 15/16 because of how confused I was...I once punched my brother and still can distinctly recall the feeling of shame I felt. I'll never forget how bad it felt to hurt a human and see the hurt in his eyes. I had abused my power, my figthing skill...to abuse another is hell.
and I lack compassion and patience for those I've hurt, generally seeing the hurt done to me, but not feeling the hurt I've done to others--there are reasons for this founded in logic, but still, I want to be more compassionate, and I never want to feel like someone hurt me (even if they technically did) because as long as you hold people acountable for their evil deeds, you become their torturer, you send them to hell with your judgement. I dont want part in this, and would rather be killed and spit upon by multitudes than hurt people with my anger--and when I hurt others I hurt myself and God cries in silence.
now a days I suffer from my own little petty feelings of anger when someone attacks the "me," the "me" being a total illusion, so dont really see why I take things personally at all. (reason: ignorance)
(one small feeling of anger destroys a thousand years of patience and compassion)
but beyond that, I don't even taken drugs any more, so I dont hurt my body and have that bad karma. My highest virtue is I am honest. I don't have a single dishonest thought-- I dont lie to myself like I did as a child. I dont justify myself, or others.
The idea is to die blameless, hence the veredict for a blameless person is; blamelesness. Unity with god. Unity consciousness. Compassion consciousness.
Far from being based on wishful thinking, one actually becomes more like a god, creates more a heaven on earth, through these pratices of purifying the soul. So its not theoretical, its actually real; but its founded on action, on detaching from pleassure and evil doing. You must walk the walk, not stay at the shore endlessly theorizing about love, god, and compassion--you must dive head first into the waters, and leave the shore behind.
Your must apply yourself and study endlessly, master countless art forms, master the mind, and open the heart and the eye that sees all things. You must master strategy, which means to master the laws of nature; patience is natures law. Strategy is the essence of nature. Perfection in formlesness is the essence of strategy. Multiple step plans, complexity, is what creation is founded upon.
If your mind is simple and dull and sinked into empty pleasures, you live in dilussion.
Magic is real. Love is real. The meaning of life is redemption--for those who see this, suffering ceases.
The world is ruled by unecessary suffering.
Its unecessary.
Its a shame.
We all take part in this unecessary suffering (hence why we are all so mean to eachother on this thread, this thread being just another manifestation of our ignorance--a side note to the hollocaust, the manifestation of "sin.") Sin is commiting unskilfull acts which harm us and the future generations. and give a bad example and generate bad feelings (you reap what you sow.)
Btw, I've studied Lavey's biography since our last talk. Your idol is a hypocrite. It says a lot. He is a hypocrite because he didn't even commit to the satanic vows he himself created. To say that the whole thing is stupid would miss the mark, since you must think its brilliant. So lets say its brilliant, it would still factually- and it can be proved through direct evidence-- is hypocritical of him. For example one of the vows is to be Aesthetic. Lavey was the most unaesthetic man I've ever seen, not just cause he is unatractive in physical form and in heart; but every person who appears in his biogrpahy mentions how his house (the satantic church) is very ugly, tasteless, and unaesthetic. And ther is not one picture of him where he is dressed aesthetically, its always cheap and ugly clothes. I dont really care with his stupid, childish, and ignorant vows (satanic laws), but its so funny how he invented laws he didnt even respect himself. His whole idelogy is vacuous...this is because he had no knowledge.
Lack of knowledge....that is all. lack of knowledge
Just another poor soul who dies a poor death, no glory, no sunshine. Just a path of lies and destruction in his wake (all his children are unhappy, all his followers are unhappy.)
This is the destiny of the ignorant.
Let us rise above and awaken from our forgetfulness.
too late... ( ?! )