If I could...

[up all night]

I deleted this when I wrote it because I thought he might read it... I now hope that he does.

I would break down your loveless self denial
into categories of false and true
if I thought my carefully maintained graph
would end the advancing tempo of your hatred.

But it won't.

Rationalistic improvisations are nothing
if not useless in the shadows of insecurity.
Your heart beats twice and stops,
quietly deflating this sunshine morning.

I love you.

It's never enough in a world gone cold.
Tender lesions on your skin bear witness
to the disparity of Friday night smiles
and saturday morning revulsions.

We see them.

Don't fear the darkness that surrounds you
because it won't bring pain
unless you ignore the fingers entwined in yours
when you awake from your disillusionment.

I love you [please don't forget me].

 

[Mary Poppins]

up all night.

you take life, (indeed often your life but not exclusively), and manage to wrap it into your writing, so that it not only colours and imbues your words with feeling and emotion so real it's almost tangible, but renders them so heart-breakingly accessible to all who read them.

superb.

 

[vurtomatic]

Take care yarni

 

[Dastrix Slogan]

I am so glad you decided to post this again, this is the most beautiful expression of love I have read in a long time.

Don't fear the darkness that surrounds you
because it won't bring pain
unless you ignore the fingers entwined in yours
when you awake from your disillusionment.

I always enjoy your writing, but this moved me so deeply. This has to go down as one of my favourite pieces. Thank you for reposting.

 

[plazma]

Excellent work as usual Yarni, I can tell this is a deeply felt piece, it certainly shows.

-plaz out-

 

[cherub]

also glad you decided to re-post this,, it is beautifully written and definately pulls at your heart strings.. great stuff

 

[Doppelganger]

Don't fear the darkness that surrounds you
because it won't bring pain
unless you ignore the fingers entwined in yours
when you awake from your disillusionment.

I love you [please don't forget me].

That was really well said. Reminds me of my past [main] relationship... I think you just have a way with words that almost anyone can relate. It may seem easier for some to hide in the shaddows... but the storm will always come. God help their poor hearts when it does, because there's a lot of denial [that was once seen as truth] to deal with all at once. As I've just discovered.

You seem like a really nice natured chick with a strong heart [and not to mention such talent for writing]. Best of luck xox

Oh.. and please write more! :D

 

[up all night]

Thanks guys.

I find it really hard to write about very personal things because they never seem to mirror exactly what you want to say... never seem to be as powerful as you want them to be. Ah well, the curse of writing I guess.

 

[Cosmic Mist]

Don't fear the darkness that surrounds you
because it won't bring pain
unless you ignore the fingers entwined in yours
when you awake from your disillusionment.

I love you [please don't forget me].

I love this last bit. It sounds like something i wish i had said at the appropriate moment, and advice i should have listened to at another different time. I am glad you didn't delete this permanently, it is beautiful...

 

[vurtomatic]

I find it really hard to write about very personal things because they never seem to mirror exactly what you want to say... never seem to be as powerful as you want them to be. Ah well, the curse of writing I guess.

And you never really know the impact of your words when others are reading them, so keep on writing