Meth If I can finish my biggest bender like this, I'll feel like Jordan in game 6

[HillbillyChef]

A bit jealous of your ability to get your scripts lol. Kind of a cazy concept around here. Docs would never prescribe one, let alone both of those. Seems they're terrified to prescribe anything nowdays. Was on stims age 8 up until a few years after college when I tried doing life without. Some of my anxiety levels and BP improved...but struggles eventually set in. Seems like they simply won't prescribe stims anymore. And xanax has been that way to the extreme for some years now. Instead, I got slapped with a "bipolar 2" diagnosis within all of 6 minutes I aownt with the psych. Was told my adhd was most likely bipolar and they practically threw lithium at me without any bloodwork or explanations. A medication I later found out I shouldn't even take due to hereditary conditions I have. Luckily I was only on it 2 days. No documented record/instances of substance abuse outside of alcohol 2022.

It wasn’t easy or intentional, plus it’s from my GP I can’t afford a psych but I’m sure they’re stricter. I just went through trials of other meds until one worked. When I started having panic attacks I stopped taking adderall because I thought that’s what caused it, but I continued to have them anyway. My BP is slightly elevated, but they contribute both the panic attacks and BP to high-intensity high-pressure work, and financial stress.

I love my job but sometimes I wish I was good at anything else, or just found anything else fulfilling. I’ve tried less stressful chef gigs but that made me bored out of my mind.