Meth If I can finish my biggest bender like this, I'll feel like Jordan in game 6

[HillbillyChef]

Only started using like a month ago (hot rails and usually have a small bowl I'll puff on between those). Currently starting day 4 of my binge. Slept for a couple of hours 2 nights ago: I'm not going to try and force myself to sleep now, cause I work dinner shift and if I let myself fall asleep in the next few hours I'll miss my shift.

Also my third bender in the past month that I swore I'd get my house cleaned up, and instead I just made it worse and all I did was browse BL and use ChatGPT to help create some SOP's for work.

Also it's the busiest and most intense night for the station, I'll spend about 4 hours straight during service only breading and frying catfish, usually ~250-300lbs worth.

I'm just gonna finish off my stash before I gotta go in, and do a huge rail right before, pop a xan, and grab some electrolyte, and I'll be solid and hopefully pass out after work.

 

[Chaurus]

Take care.

Are you pausing after the sleep after your next shift?

 

[HillbillyChef]

Take care.

Are you pausing after the sleep after your next shift?

Yeah I might get some Saturday night when I get off work cause sundays are my only day off most weeks. Yeah I've been eating a little bit here and there, not staying as hydrated as I should tbh but at work I drink a gallon of water usually and the drink I put those liquid IV packets in.

I should've mentioned that even though I just started meth, I've been using and often abusing adderall for 6 years. A lot of times a strong dose of adderall and a minor dose of Xanax gets my mind in just the right spot to work in a high volume kitchen.

Lil Wayne said - "Xanax and Adderall has got me unparalleled" and he wasn't lying.

 

[Chaurus]

Have only a little meth experience myself, and was never addicted to anything, but the combination NEP binge and work (or church) never worked for me.

Having said this, the headspace of meth was much clearer than that of NEP.

 

[HillbillyChef]

Have only a little meth experience myself, and was never addicted to anything, but the combination NEP binge and work (or church) never worked for me.

Work works for me cause even if I do seem like I'm on something, everybody else is too it's a Resturant. Obviously though meth is much more euphoric so usually the for a few hours after my last dose I have a head high but I'm just locked in by the time dinner rush starts.


Church I'm fine with Xanax and Adderall cause I do take them as prescribed when I don't have a busy day ahead, sometimes not at allz Also I haven't been going because I lost my license a year ago, but sometimes I'll uber there, but recently I haven't because I don't want to partake in communion until I've gone to confession but I'll have to reach the priest outside his office hours since I work almost every night.

 

[HillbillyChef]

Have only a little meth experience myself, and was never addicted to anything, but the combination NEP binge and work (or church) never worked for me.

Having said this, the headspace of meth was much clearer than that of NEP.

Rocked it at my shift, ate a fat po boy, took a trazadone and slept 12 hours

 

[foodcrisis]

eh.. that sounds so gross to me, doing stimulants and then taking a trazadone to fall asleep... to each their own though... i'm gonna say, doing uppers and downers to stay on a working schedule in large doses will probably catch up with most people. that you've been doing adderall for 6 years with xanax, so it's probably your thing. going up and down like that is really something imo. i don't see why you couldn't just balance and learn to relax sober if you're taking drugs like that that go in different directions. i get it releases brain chemicals. you might want to look into sober living or just using psychedelics though. more of a sustainable life style. just by breathing correctly people are able to develop natural highs.

i'd try to do less doses of the stimulants or dose in the morning so you don't need to take downers to fall asleep. i guess it's not that unhealthy to do uppers and downers says some of the people on this site... i know my sister had chest problems just from taking adderall and being prescribed sleeping pills though. not something everyone can handle, and being able to handle it doesn't really make you cool or anything. you could always be healthier. just a thought. not saying i'm right.

 

[drewbocop]

eh.. that sounds so gross to me, doing stimulants and then taking a trazadone to fall asleep... to each their own though... i'm gonna say, doing uppers and downers to stay on a working schedule in large doses will probably catch up with most people. that you've been doing adderall for 6 years with xanax, so it's probably your thing. going up and down like that is really something imo. i don't see why you couldn't just balance and learn to relax sober if you're taking drugs like that that go in different directions. i get it releases brain chemicals. you might want to look into sober living or just using psychedelics though. more of a sustainable life style. just by breathing correctly people are able to develop natural highs.

i'd try to do less doses of the stimulants or dose in the morning so you don't need to take downers to fall asleep. i guess it's not that unhealthy to do uppers and downers says some of the people on this site... i know my sister had chest problems just from taking adderall and being prescribed sleeping pills though. not something everyone can handle, and being able to handle it doesn't really make you cool or anything. you could always be healthier. just a thought. not saying i'm right.

Trazodone is disgusting without already being sleepless, dehydrated, starving, and moderately insane. LOL


OP seems to kind of romanticizing meth and we know how that ends. He's already been doing amphetamine and alprazolam for years. No sir, I don't like it!

 

[foodcrisis]

i dunno if it's really wrong to live a life style using uppers and downers, even a dirty ass mother fucker like trazadone... if the OP is going nights with out sleep and driving around on meth, shame on them. they could very well slip up and hurt somone. i don't think they will be able to properly live that life style using downers to sleep with that stimulant schedule and stay safe while driving even if they are getting by. that shit will wear people's reaction time down, meth binges and then using downers to pass out for long periods of time. i don't really believe it entirely but supposedly sleeping longer hours after not sleeping won't catch you up with sleep properly..... on the other end of them possibly being wrong for operating a vehicle under the influence, if they are riding the bus, and just like dirty drugs. more power to them.. like i'm pretty sure weird al should just replace michael jackson on the radio and society should make "another one rides the bus" a song about getting addicted to drugs and being proud to ride inconvenient public transportation..



i have a hard time believing that people using certain drug combos are really experiencing their best lives.. i dunno though if some stuff just feels grosser to other people and what not.... after using drugs for so many years there's parts of being sober or coming off drugs that i tend to enjoy. i'm totally addicted to pot and can't get over that, but i'd hope most people get over having to constantly consume drugs... sounds like the OP is just fixated on constantly feeling a rush. they should try to notice the subtle feelings of life that are good with out drugs. just take a moment to exercise sometime with out drugs and see if when they are done, they can let the feeling of relaxation wash over them.. i dunno. something i need to work on myself. i try to notice how much i enjoy food to not care about drugs as much. not easy if you prefer unhealthy stuff or have eating problems. i get that not everything is the same for all people... i dunno. i guess OP could be living an okay life with drugs. LOL. hard to say what's right... if i had to place money on if the OP can keep this life style up, i'd probably say they can't. i especially don't think it's right if the OP is driving. it sounds like they are getting to work some how after not sleeping for two days, which is fine unless they are driving. i know some people think they can do whatever they want while driving.

 

[HillbillyChef]

eh.. that sounds so gross to me, doing stimulants and then taking a trazadone to fall asleep... to each their own though... i'm gonna say, doing uppers and downers to stay on a working schedule in large doses will probably catch up with most people. that you've been doing adderall for 6 years with xanax, so it's probably your thing. going up and down like that is really something imo. i don't see why you couldn't just balance and learn to relax sober if you're taking drugs like that that go in different directions. i get it releases brain chemicals. you might want to look into sober living or just using psychedelics though. more of a sustainable life style. just by breathing correctly people are able to develop natural highs.

i'd try to do less doses of the stimulants or dose in the morning so you don't need to take downers to fall asleep. i guess it's not that unhealthy to do uppers and downers says some of the people on this site... i know my sister had chest problems just from taking adderall and being prescribed sleeping pills though. not something everyone can handle, and being able to handle it doesn't really make you cool or anything. you could always be healthier. just a thought. not saying i'm right.

I appreciate what you're saying for sure, and I'm definitely not ignorant to the downsides of it. I'm a pretty large guy, and my medically prescribed dosage that I take everyday has been played with and developed over years. (150mg Effexor, 2x2mg Alprazolam XR, 30mg Adderall XR) Trazadone 150mg AS NEEDED.

Too be clear when I plan to have fun with ice I won't take my adderall; and if I plan on a night of heavy drinking I'll skip a dose of Xanax. But I have tried smaller doses and other meds the past 6 years and this seems to be the combo that work. Except I'm still not sure about Effexor.

The reason it helps for work however. Adderall speeds my brain up, I can process information and move more effeciently, but that with the adrenaline cause me to panic. So if my brain was a machine, Adderall speeds those gears up, Xanax is more like oil in the gears not slowing them down. I think faster but it doesn't jumble together it's clear and concise.

Also I've experimented quite a bit with psychs and I do love them and their benefits, but not one that's helped in fixing my head. "Learning to relax" in a 100F kitchen 60+ hours a week is not a simple task, any chef will tell you how many they know with liver damage. I'm not ignorant or prideful of any of this. I'll either feel that I can live 100% sober one day, or I'll die. But I'm well informed on the dangers and that'll be a decision for long down the road,

 

[HillbillyChef]

Trazodone is disgusting without already being sleepless, dehydrated, starving, and moderately insane. LOL


OP seems to kind of romanticizing meth and we know how that ends. He's already been doing amphetamine and alprazolam for years. No sir, I don't like it!

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Edit: I don't drive, I lost my license for a DUI and learned my lesson, and my medical combination had never affected my ability to drive

 

[foodcrisis]

medical combination not effecting your ability to drive after not sleeping for two days, so you are saying you are driving? i don't know. i hope you get pulled over and some cop realizes you are a junky and kicks your ass if that's the case.. i don't know if i'm allowed to say that on this site.. but come on dude. that's pathetic thinking. you think you can't get in an accident on two days with out sleep. medical combination quoting little wayne. i wouldn't be surprised if you are a fake poster or some shit just trying to see how effective this site is at judging people.

 

[foodcrisis]

if i read that wrong and you aren't driving on two days with out sleep, sorry for the tangent.

 

[HillbillyChef]

if i read that wrong and you aren't driving on two days with out sleep, sorry for the tangent.

Check my last post, i don't drive. Also the lil Wayne quote was just a reference to how the combination made me feel it was a light hearted half joke from music I like.

 

[foodcrisis]

my medical combination had never affected my ability to drive

my medical combination has never affected my ability to drive sounds like you are driving from what i read.. you can get a DUI and get your license back... i dunno... good luck

 

[foodcrisis]

sorry i read that wrong. i hate people that drive on drugs. i know it happens a lot.

shame on you for getting a DUI. lol

 

[HillbillyChef]

sorry i read that wrong. i hate people that drive on drugs. i know it happens a lot.

shame on you for getting a DUI. lol

I agree I hate myself for it, at the time I was really deep in the bottle. I was just still too drunk from the night before when I drove to work the next day. I can't get my license back rn because I can't afford a car that will pas the inspection for an interlock. But I absolutely learned my lesson from that; half the reason I work so much is cause I'm stir crazy.

 

[foodcrisis]

I agree I hate myself for it, at the time I was really deep in the bottle. I was just still too drunk from the night before when I drove to work the next day. I can't get my license back rn because I can't afford a car that will pas the inspection for an interlock. But I absolutely learned my lesson from that; half the reason I work so much is cause I'm stir crazy.

yeah. man. sorry to put you down.... hopefully you can survive and get to a point with drugs where your not taking as much and can stay healthy... good luck.

 

[HillbillyChef]

yeah. man. sorry to put you down.... hopefully you can survive and get to a point with drugs where your not taking as much and can stay healthy... good luck.

Thanks. In retrospect this should've been in DC. I wasn't trying to glorify it but It definitley reads like I am. The basket ball comparison was with MJ's last shot in '98 where he got the ball out last second and scored despite his form being thrown off completely. At the time I was thinking if I can work my shift during this, under pressure and completely off form, and do it well then I'm a champ.

 

[DiggyDale]

I appreciate what you're saying for sure, and I'm definitely not ignorant to the downsides of it. I'm a pretty large guy, and my medically prescribed dosage that I take everyday has been played with and developed over years. (150mg Effexor, 2x2mg Alprazolam XR, 30mg Adderall XR) Trazadone 150mg AS NEEDED.

Too be clear when I plan to have fun with ice I won't take my adderall; and if I plan on a night of heavy drinking I'll skip a dose of Xanax. But I have tried smaller doses and other meds the past 6 years and this seems to be the combo that work. Except I'm still not sure about Effexor.

The reason it helps for work however. Adderall speeds my brain up, I can process information and move more effeciently, but that with the adrenaline cause me to panic. So if my brain was a machine, Adderall speeds those gears up, Xanax is more like oil in the gears not slowing them down. I think faster but it doesn't jumble together it's clear and concise.

Also I've experimented quite a bit with psychs and I do love them and their benefits, but not one that's helped in fixing my head. "Learning to relax" in a 100F kitchen 60+ hours a week is not a simple task, any chef will tell you how many they know with liver damage. I'm not ignorant or prideful of any of this. I'll either feel that I can live 100% sober one day, or I'll die. But I'm well informed on the dangers and that'll be a decision for long down the road,

A bit jealous of your ability to get your scripts lol. Kind of a cazy concept around here. Docs would never prescribe one, let alone both of those. Seems they're terrified to prescribe anything nowdays. Was on stims age 8 up until a few years after college when I tried doing life without. Some of my anxiety levels and BP improved...but struggles eventually set in. Seems like they simply won't prescribe stims anymore. And xanax has been that way to the extreme for some years now. Instead, I got slapped with a "bipolar 2" diagnosis within all of 6 minutes I aownt with the psych. Was told my adhd was most likely bipolar and they practically threw lithium at me without any bloodwork or explanations. A medication I later found out I shouldn't even take due to hereditary conditions I have. Luckily I was only on it 2 days. No documented record/instances of substance abuse outside of alcohol 2022.