i was thinking, life without drugs...

Who will i be? These drugs i use make me able to do things i really don't want to do and do them well. Its a motivator.. Other wise i have no motivation.

I can talk to women easily get through the day not a care in the world. Now that ill be clean and sober...Now what? Ill be boring i don't know how to have fun without being lit off something.

Who am i really? Life without drugs... Drugs have been a part of my life since i was 12 or 13, haven't stopped since.

I'm not very pleasant to be around if I'm not loaded.
I'm quite, and plain, don't speak much. Shy.

Why? What do you guys think??

 

That's the hardest part about going from constant use to sobriety: so much of your identity is tied up in the drug that you have to develop a new personality without it. It takes time, and effort, and a lot of patience. Unfortunately, it will be all the harder since you started using so early. One's teens are one's formative years, where much of one's personality is formed. Not that it's impossible to become an interesting, healthy person when sober, it will just be tougher.

 

Thank you that helps me feel better... i know it will take time. I'm just not the kind of patient guy.

Well i quit smoking cigarettes, and everything else, now my brain can heal.