i've been using opiates on and off for 4 and a half years, but i've been clean more times than i've been not clean. this whole time i've managed to keep it together. never injected or smoked heroin, never let it ruin relationships. only once did it make a mess out of my life, when i was 19, and had no money to support my habit and was stealing from people around me. aside from that, i've managed to keep it under control for the most part.
i'm only 22 so i do float from job to job trying to find my niche, but i am steady with my jobs. i live alone. i stay in shape.
but its just that when i stop using opiates there is nothing to replace it. i cant replace that joy i get when i sit alone in the nights and get high. when i am sober, the pain and the reason why i initially started is still there
i want to stop just because we learn morally that "doing heroin is wrong" but why is it wrong for someone like me? i enjoy it so much.
yeah maybe a junkie who sells the clothes off his back and literally sucks dick for heroin should stop. but me? i lead a normal life. i dont even do that much
i'm only 22 so i do float from job to job trying to find my niche, but i am steady with my jobs. i live alone. i stay in shape.
but its just that when i stop using opiates there is nothing to replace it. i cant replace that joy i get when i sit alone in the nights and get high. when i am sober, the pain and the reason why i initially started is still there
i want to stop just because we learn morally that "doing heroin is wrong" but why is it wrong for someone like me? i enjoy it so much.
yeah maybe a junkie who sells the clothes off his back and literally sucks dick for heroin should stop. but me? i lead a normal life. i dont even do that much