i want to quit but...

[lilmizer]

relapse does not have to be a part of recovery. just for the record. dont beat yourself up for using, live in today. Your body/brain need to reacclimate to producing the neurotransmitters that induce sleep, hunger, sex drive, and happiness. you have been bombarding your brain with external chemicals. exercise, good food, vitamins, and sleep will assist in this process. every time you use, you'll neutralize the time you invested in allowing your brain and body to regulate themselves. where do you live? (if i may ask) I'm active in young people's aa, and we just won the bid for the international conference of young people in aa to come to St. Louis (where i live.) It is a sick 4 day shindig... i'm talking 500+ people dancing, round the clock meetings, circuit speakers, live entertainment - amazing time. people loving live and living life sober. icypaahost.org check dat out

 

[stimutant]

^sounds great!
pity i live in germany...
but thanks for your advice, anyway. and welcome to bluelight!!


edit: just saw you joined in 2011...hey why dont you post more often?

 

[lilmizer]

i've been observing/lurking this forum for years. never really felt like joining because i was to busy destroying my life with drug addiction. finally joined when i was ready to off myself. life is good now. there will be people from Germany @ ICYPAA - i can guarantee that.

 

[stimutant]

i´ll check that out now. thank you very much for your effort!!!

you´ll make a great addition to BL!

 

[missmegandelaney]

Go to N.A meetings. They have them everywhere, you can find where they are located in you area pretty easily. I'd imagine all you'd have to do is google it.
Getting sober on your own is hard as hell, people who attempt that usually end up in our rooms.
There is so much more about drug addiction then drugs.
There are mental illnesses that go along with addiction.

If you have a drunken horse theif and take away the boos, what do you have?
A horse theif.

 

[herbavore]

yeah what makes me feel so hopeless is that even after being clean & in therapy for 6 months my mental state didnt improve....but youre right today is already a bit brighter than yesterday....i just have to hang on.

thanks to everyone again!

Pretend that you are your best friend. Your best friend has been doing drugs for half of his life. He has now been sober for 6 months, doing everything he can to stay that way, including therapy. What would you tell him if he came to you discouraged? Probably you would be as gentle as you could, full of encouragement. You would validate that 6 months is very little time to learn things that were missed in 14 years of numbing and avoidance and escape. Bottom line is that you would understand that it is still early days, that it makes sense to feel uncertain and confused and afraid that life will feel this way forever.

Be as gentle and accepting of yourself as you would be to a best friend in the same situation. You are building your courage day by day. Life already has open arms for you but you have to get your balance inside. Once you start to develop compassion for yourself it flows out easily to everyone and everything else. I'm really proud of you for all you are doing. Much respect and love.

 

[stimutant]

you make me cry. thank you herbavore that was a VERY valuable advice. i cant stress enough how awesome you guys at tds are!!!

you´ll always have a place in my heart. whenever you need something i could possibly help you with, please ask!