i want to be sober

[lemongaga]

i want this to stop but the sober is worse. im so mean (truthful) to people. it doesn't matter- my words hurt them. i hate them tho.

 

[bukweat]

Yeah, a mod will probably move this. I can't tell really what you're trying to say. Maybe you could expound on your situation.

 

[Laid2Rest]

i want this to stop but the sober is worse. im so mean (truthful) to people. it doesn't matter- my words hurt them. i hate them tho.

Sober from what and how long?

 

[PotatoMan]

If you WANT to be sober then BE sober.

If you can't manage to be sober then you're either physically addicted to a drug(there's tapering for that) or you clearly just don't WANT to be sober.

Either way it's all on you.

 

[TheGrasshopper]

I would have to agree, i dont know if its just my genetics but i have a strong feeling of disassociation with common folk, being "high" makes it tollerable. your not allone.

Living out our lives this way? well thats a whole nother rainbow. I have been trying to live sober and "normal" for god knows how long and the only thing that seems to grow from it is a suicidal mentality that i cannot say that i enjoy.

My answer? Fuck it.

If you cant feed the heart. Feed your fucking head.

 

[lemongaga]

@TheGrasshopper - thank you

 

[gh0stmAn]

What drug are you addicted to lemongaga?

 

[caseface99]

I would have to agree, i dont know if its just my genetics but i have a strong feeling of disassociation with common folk, being "high" makes it tollerable. your not allone.

Living out our lives this way? well thats a whole nother rainbow. I have been trying to live sober and "normal" for god knows how long and the only thing that seems to grow from it is a suicidal mentality that i cannot say that i enjoy.

My answer? Fuck it.

If you cant feed the heart. Feed your fucking head.

It's not a genetic thing, it's an alcoholic mind. Everyone I know from AA/NA feels/felt almost the same way. I am no different. From as far back as I could remember I have ad a hard time connecting to other people as friends and it's something I am still majorly struggling with after almost 8 months of sobriety. However I will continue to work the steps and put myself out there.

OP - do you have any sort of recovery plan? You will need to figure out a daily routine of things that will help you stay sober. It's not easy, but it can be done. What are you using? How long?

 

[Mr.Scagnattie]

Sounds like you have other issues beyond drug addiction and maybe some professional help might do some good..