Positron said:
There is something wrong with being gay. Being gay is, in my opinion, morally reprehensible. I do not want to go to hell. I am scared god will punish me.
I am afraid that I will act on my gay fantasies.
I also suspect that this is a hoax, but in case it isn't I will share this story:
A good friend of mine had similar issues to you. His family is very (fanaticaly) religious, as is he. He knew he was gay (it was pretty obvious), but was afraid of all the usual stuff. He was really worried that he was going to go to hell. When he first told his parents his mom and his brother were both crushed that they were not going to be together with him in heaven, and that there was something so terribly wrong with him. He came out at about your age.
Fast forward a few years - he (and his family) have realised that God created him this way for some reason and that it would be more of a sin for him to miss his calling because of being afraid. They are now totally supportive of him and he is living a life that is better than what he had ever imagined. It was painful to get there, but not that bad.
You can choose to live a 'normal' life with a wife and children, knowing that you are not being true to yourself - that is the easiest choice.
You can experiment with guys - I though I might be gay for a long time because I appreciated mens bodies more than women. In my case though the opportunity to be with a hot guy 'arose', and it was a total turn-off, it made me realize that I am a straight guy who appreciates other mens bodies because I would like them to be my own, and measure my own against them. Maybe a realisation like this would help you decide if you really are gay or just think you might be.
You also have the choice to say fuck-em-all and just live life to the fullest, not worrying about what people (and God) think. If you live in BFE, move to new york, Florida, or California where you will fit right in. Who cares what your sexual preference is - just use protection and do whomever you please.
I mean this is 2008 - how can anyone think that rules written 2000 years ago are still meant to be interpreted as they were back then?
No matter what you are going to have moral dilema's in your future - chemical castration should only be considered if your tastes include young boys - otherwise you are who you are.