Bojangles69
Bluelighter
- Joined
- May 20, 2009
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Ok things have gotten worse since school ended. Pretty much like lolie was predicting would happen to jake, well I just have no structure and its too hard to get back into tapering.
On one level I know I can do it again as I did it once before, but I can't keep using that as an excuse to push off my sobriety. Like "I don't really need detox as history proved that". But history didn't exactly prove that because I went back to using so again I'm just filling my head with lies.
My problem is simple. And pretty similar to jakes. I refuse to tell my family not because I'm afraid they'll cut me off, more for the reason that I just don't want to stress out my parents anymore. So I've decided I do want to go to detox, I'm just still not going to get them involved. If they find out when I get back, so be it, but it will be much less stressful for them at that point knowing I took initiative on my own to do it w/out any help.
My big problem right now is insurance, I have none. I can get a charity care card which pays for medical expenses, which I *think would pay for detox, but for now what would someone do in my position?
Are the detoxes that take people w/out insurance? I'm not going to drag this shit out or turn this into a long thread, I pretty much assume it can be done because Jake managed to do it somehow and I'm just curious what some of you veteran opiate addicts know about this.
I have to escape this life and I'm really just too weak to go through another taper. Even once I get to week 2 or 3 I realize I still have so far too go, and its too much to handle again.
What can I do? Thanks guys.
On one level I know I can do it again as I did it once before, but I can't keep using that as an excuse to push off my sobriety. Like "I don't really need detox as history proved that". But history didn't exactly prove that because I went back to using so again I'm just filling my head with lies.
My problem is simple. And pretty similar to jakes. I refuse to tell my family not because I'm afraid they'll cut me off, more for the reason that I just don't want to stress out my parents anymore. So I've decided I do want to go to detox, I'm just still not going to get them involved. If they find out when I get back, so be it, but it will be much less stressful for them at that point knowing I took initiative on my own to do it w/out any help.
My big problem right now is insurance, I have none. I can get a charity care card which pays for medical expenses, which I *think would pay for detox, but for now what would someone do in my position?
Are the detoxes that take people w/out insurance? I'm not going to drag this shit out or turn this into a long thread, I pretty much assume it can be done because Jake managed to do it somehow and I'm just curious what some of you veteran opiate addicts know about this.
I have to escape this life and I'm really just too weak to go through another taper. Even once I get to week 2 or 3 I realize I still have so far too go, and its too much to handle again.
What can I do? Thanks guys.