Cocaine I think I'm starting to develop a problem....

[ants]

Hey guys,

So....I think i'm starting to develop issues with coke. Once I have a few drinks, I find it so hard to resist calling my dealer and picking up.

Anyway...I've taken a gram of coke for the past 8 weekends in a row. I know we aren't allowed to talk about money on here but as I'm sure you know, 8 grams of coke in England is NOT cheap.

I went Ibiza at the end of July, spent over £2000 and since then, I've just kept the drug taking going. I've also taken 2 x small doses of MDMA in the past 8 weeks.

Now guys, I'm 25, have a decent job and earn a good amount of money. I live at home still so pay no rent so literately have a LOT of cash to play with each month.

Now I have a massive issue with the psychological thought process of "missing out" - saying in on a weekend is just so damn hard for me. The main thing is missing out on meeting a great girl :/

The worst thing is, pretty much none of my friends take drugs and I have twice, taken it at home alone :/

I'm walking a dangerous path right?

 

[inmfh4488]

the home alone phase is really one of the "lines" u cross when becoming full blown fucked ( other examples would be the first time u pawn your ps3 or ur moms braclet). to me there are 2 sub or semi lines to this line. 1 is when u start to do it at home/ and or by your self. the other half of this line is using when u wake up or when u get going in the morning( itll start a lil bit after breakfast at first, then it WILL be breakfast).

i would say ur deff on ur way to developing a habbit.

i never had a love for speeds,(DOC=opiates) i went thru my E phase b4 someone said molly on the radio and everyone started selling bathsalts to 13yr olds at raves cuz "skrillex is cool!!!!"
i only ever did ecstacy and thats still what i call it i never use the term molly. stamped. double or triple stack. brown specks, white specks? imprint stamped in or out? thats what i remeber...off track anyways ive hear the amphs arent TRULY as addictive as a benzo or opiate is( although it is JUST as mentally addictive) so id say quit while ur ahead and be a weekend warrior if u can. b4 u discover real love

you alrady know your walking down a dangerous path. but to behonest, where your at is the most comfortable level and is the same spot u trick urself into saying i want it like this forever or yea ill just do it on the weekends. but pretty soon as u know ull start doing it at home.

i dont really know what ur asking so i just tried to give u a lil back story to how i feel about it and my aim in the game


everyone has there lines so to speak. blowing 2000 grand at ibizi with ur mates isnt crossing the line. starting to take it home with u is. but thats just me

 

[rhun]

I would definitely suggest posting in TDS or SL, you'll find some good support there. OD is going to mostly be about drugs and the safe(r) use of them.

I believe they also have AA and NA meetings where you are too. Check some out if you can, and don't give up just because one wasn't your thing, it took me going to one a day to find a few I liked.

And there's hot girls in AA