I had a quiet long weekend, it was necessary.
Tomorrow I'm going to get hold of my psychologist again, make an appointment and get whatever is in my head out. I've been feeling too trapped. New job is good, but I guess it takes a good environment where you can realise that you aren't doing what you are supposed to be doing. I feel like I have done work, I don't feel like I am achieving.
I've realised something else. Where all our confusion comes from. Its when we grow, when we learn to learn more. When we understand a little more of the world. When our circle around us grows just a little bigger. We see a little further into the dark.
Its then we realise that things aren't always ok. There's pain and sadness, there's false promises and just generally shitty people, like us. We not only see a little bit more wrong, we see a little more wrong in us.
Then we take time to understand, and settle, and everything becomes ok, yet eventually we grow and the process repeats again. It just hurts like hell, you know?
Is there ever really any way to prepare for this?
Tomorrow I'm going to get hold of my psychologist again, make an appointment and get whatever is in my head out. I've been feeling too trapped. New job is good, but I guess it takes a good environment where you can realise that you aren't doing what you are supposed to be doing. I feel like I have done work, I don't feel like I am achieving.
I've realised something else. Where all our confusion comes from. Its when we grow, when we learn to learn more. When we understand a little more of the world. When our circle around us grows just a little bigger. We see a little further into the dark.
Its then we realise that things aren't always ok. There's pain and sadness, there's false promises and just generally shitty people, like us. We not only see a little bit more wrong, we see a little more wrong in us.
Then we take time to understand, and settle, and everything becomes ok, yet eventually we grow and the process repeats again. It just hurts like hell, you know?
Is there ever really any way to prepare for this?