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I think I'm becoming a full fledged alcoholic..

I am googling it now..

I woke up and took my usual chug of 211 and I stopped and thought and took a good look at what the fuck I was doing to myself.. and I just switched to coffee. I'm gonna beat this thing.. I have most of a 211 40 to "taper" off with today.. I don't know unsafe this is. But fuck it, I'm tired of being a slave..

A LOT inside of me hurts.. This is true.. thanks. i wish this site had +rep or something, I've gotten so many good replies in this thread it's kind of surreal..

edit: I've been just scratching the surface on this Law of Attraction thing... I remember the first time I was in rehab my best friend came to see me and she was trying to tell me about this stuff since she was reading some book on it.. Guess I just wasn't trying to hear it.. I got out of rehab at about noon, and by 4 PM I was hitting a dime rock just as I was about to cum to some porn..
 
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Just make sure to remind yourself that you're NOT a bad person for wanting to shut the pain off. I mean you're human right, what kind of human being wants to live in pain every day??! ;)

If you want tips on LOA then PM me
 
Don't be too afraid to taper down slowly. 21 y/o is a tough age. I'm 47 and have no urge to be 21 again (30 maybe). I drank every day from age 18 to 38 and finally I had my fill. It was hard but now I'm lucky if I drink a 6 pack a night. Hang in there.
 
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