Decide right now to get out and never look back.
MDMA really fucked shit up. And I it does for a lot of people. It's not that my brain is damaged, I'm not even depressed. But it changed me so much. Made me duplicitous, really badly at times. Made me dishonest. Made me crave psychoactives. Anything. I just like being high now.
I gave myself some pretty intense tolerance to MDMA 2 and a half years ago, and I haven't been able to take a break long enough to experience anything nearly intense as the first few times. (3 months does basically nothing in terms of lowering my tolerance)...
For that reason I'm always on the hunt for new highs, hoping there's something out there to replace the drug that I'm too tolerant to get high off of.
If you think you have even the most slightly addictive personality, stop NOW. If you ever listen to anything you hear on the internet, listen to that.
Sometimes I think 90% of the things I are somehow influenced by me always subconsciously thinking about ecstasy. It fucking sucks man. It's shitty. I used to be the rambunctious ridiculously smart kid that had never and would never do a drug in his life.
Before ecstasy, the craziest thing I'd ever done was drink half a beer. 3 months after being introduced to ecstasy, I had already taken about 100 pills; borrowed money, traded shit for it... taken shrooms, smoked a shitload of weed, bought 100s of acid hits. Drugs are easily obtainable and cheap here.
Good luck to you. But really, you have to stop now. This far in you have a really good chance of saving yourself. It doesn't start getting dark until after that first year or so heavy abuse. Then the clouds start setting in.
It can get ugly quick, and it is never worth the risk