Although I'm familiar with the concepts of Buddhism, I fight against them. That's what life is. Consciousness, isolation, is the opposition of infinity. I separate from the one, by being conscious. Then I return to the one, when I die. Tibetan Buddhism describes life as suffering. Suffering because of identity. We need people to love because, why. We are alone. Because we suffer. I need someone to soothe my pain, because I am in pain. This is what love is. What I mean by honesty is - I am an existentialist. I am a maniac. If life starts to stabilize, I will shatter it. Because it's all bullshit. And we need to be aware of it. It's more important than eating. It's more important than being warm. The truth will always flow through my life like a hurricane, destroying everything in it's path.
So, knowing that, should I adopt a partner?
Should I inflict this hurricane upon others?
People are getting pedantic about language. The word "destroy". I am bad for women. I'll put it that way. I am crazy, unstable, unpredictable. Not in a good fun sort of way. No, because that's selective. People want to be coddled. They want to be lied to. I don't lie to people. In fact, I compensate for the lies; I insist upon the truth.
And nobody really wants that.
doesn't this guy do loads of hallucinogens? op am i right?
well maybe thats where the distorted sense of self importance has come from, combine that with depression and thats where you're at op
Yeah, I do a lot of drugs. At the moment I'm on a combination of : LSA/ psilocybin/ Datura/ DXM and cannabis. But I have moments off drugs too. I just took a five week break from (most) psychedelics. I'm not a crackpot. It's not a delusion.
I can see the impact I have on people's lives. I am a very dark person. I've always been an incredibly dark person. That appeals to some girls. I know that I could get a certain kind of chick because I'm weird and brooding and complex. But then what I do is I pull them down with me. That is what happens. And they become dark. I can't help it. This is what I do. I used to enjoy it. I used to believe in the darkness.