C
Catachreses
Guest
Where I start
Is where you begin
Cannot feel
Without me
Will remain a slave
Beside me
Sleep still
And to all of you
Laughing at this
For the said duration
You’ve all been had
You’ve been my motivation
To just open this
And begin this
Search for direction
Which is almost
Which is nearby
The cry
And believe me when
I write this
I thank all of you
Even you
For keeping me in this
But I’ve realized
Flames do slowly extinguish
And no I don’t think
I’ll ever really end this
I realize
Flames do slowly extinguish
Temporary pain
Phony however relentless
Is coming back
But not even you
Can get me to end this
Am I dead
Or just picnicking with reality
My girls with pigs tails
Laugh right beside me
Openness
Stares
Right
Behind
Me.
Always hopping down the street singing.
“don’t be right behind me (death)”
This cold arm around me
Reminding me to end this
Suicide notes sealed with your death kiss
Maybe last night I missed
And saw from your perspective
But I don’t forgive you
For urging me to end this
You’re learning that true art form needs no describing.
So accept my gracious offering.
Of mixed words when I start.
Stop stop stop.
You’re finally arriving.
Icebergs make me laugh now.
Liar.
Slowly melt away the anguish.
Bi-polar ice caps.
Less and less.
Everyday.
After all.
I really wish I had the courage to end this.
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"Euphoric, narcotic, pleasantly hallucinant."
Is where you begin
Cannot feel
Without me
Will remain a slave
Beside me
Sleep still
And to all of you
Laughing at this
For the said duration
You’ve all been had
You’ve been my motivation
To just open this
And begin this
Search for direction
Which is almost
Which is nearby
The cry
And believe me when
I write this
I thank all of you
Even you
For keeping me in this
But I’ve realized
Flames do slowly extinguish
And no I don’t think
I’ll ever really end this
I realize
Flames do slowly extinguish
Temporary pain
Phony however relentless
Is coming back
But not even you
Can get me to end this
Am I dead
Or just picnicking with reality
My girls with pigs tails
Laugh right beside me
Openness
Stares
Right
Behind
Me.
Always hopping down the street singing.
“don’t be right behind me (death)”
This cold arm around me
Reminding me to end this
Suicide notes sealed with your death kiss
Maybe last night I missed
And saw from your perspective
But I don’t forgive you
For urging me to end this
You’re learning that true art form needs no describing.
So accept my gracious offering.
Of mixed words when I start.
Stop stop stop.
You’re finally arriving.
Icebergs make me laugh now.
Liar.
Slowly melt away the anguish.
Bi-polar ice caps.
Less and less.
Everyday.
After all.
I really wish I had the courage to end this.
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"Euphoric, narcotic, pleasantly hallucinant."
