Oh no
@arrall i had absolutely no clue about any of this

Oh my God...
I don't have any advice for you. But you wrote in the opening post that support is welcomed also so i am gonna try to give you some.
Uhh... Okay let me try. You seem coherent and also quite mature for someone your age. It is clear to me that you have thought about a lot of very profound stuff. The ability to be that, to do so, with a childhood background like you have, is a sign of strength. You are strong, young man. I know, you don't feel like that always. But you are always strong anyway. You have survivor spirit. You can use that survivor spirit and strength to become completely independent. I hope that happens quickly. I know it must be hard for you sometimes. I know it must be outright hell. I hope that you encounter lots of happiness, pleasant experiences and wonderful people as you proceed forward on your path of life.