Meetings can be a good start. Just to know others beat it?
Opiates are a bitch, but the WD shouldn't kill. Find something that helps (like staying busy, lots of physical activity but don't overdo it, trigger your own endorphins?) There are other means. Ultimately, if you want it, reach out and take it. You can, that much is at least reality. Admitting that you see a problem is the first step. Getting removed/detached from the fear of failure/success helped me out some, but my issue wasn't opiates (the "greater issue" anyway). Possibly going for some temporary replacement therapy? Just offering some suggestions that helped me out. I wish you luck, no........ properly applied motivation for a better state of existence.