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I must be completely and totally insane..

Lol. What an idiot that guy is.

If he can come raise my dead ex girlfriend, I will worship at his feet for the rest of eternity. :|

Nah but seriously.. I miss her more than I can bare. I messaged her mom on facebook the other day and told her what I was going through. She was shocked. It's been 5 years. I just hid from the pain all that time.. and I still don't know how to deal with it. It's like it just happened yesterday!
 
Op i just wanted to jump in here to let u know that ive read the whole thread, and that i truly feel for you brother... The advice given by many a wiser people than i on this thread as much as its not what u want to hear but i have to overall agree with the mods advice on just about everything. HOWEVER... I can sorta understand ur desire to take the path thru psycs to try and clear ur mess up... I have something to share with you, its not ur situation ive been thru but when you posted I...JUST...WANT...TO..SEE...HER....AGAIN, something chimed with me that protains to a loss i encountered and the subsequent years that have past in which ive behaved very recklosly and am in a total mess now @ 30 years old.
I will PM you as soon as im up to it(shouldnt take too long) but i dont have the energy or desire to go into it here on this thread. I just hope it may be of help:\
To finish, we are all here to help n ur situation seems to be quite desperate. Know everyone has concern for your mental and physical saftey and the aim of this site is harm reduction.
Hang in there man, will shoot you a PM <3
 
To The OP, I had a thought come to me when I read your original post, I could be completely wrong so take my advice with a pinch of salt if you want but I believe in sharing my intuitions when they come so here goes.

have you thought about spending some time caring for sick or old or neglected animals ? If humans are tough to interact with (And I fully agree that they are sometimes) then animals can offer you a really lovely way to connect with another being on this planet that wont judge you or criticise you but will offer you a beautiful bonding of honest, loving energy.

You could volunteer at a wildlife sanctuary or at a local pound, don't know if this will resonate with you at all but like I said It just sprang into my mind when I read your post.
 
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webbykevin might be onto something here..... Id personaly rather interact with an animal right now in reality anyway than my own species, as stated, Animals dont judge and are great companions, Im thinking that id like to give this a go myself maybe offer to walk someones dog or something.
Some food for thought anyways, The animal shelter here already has too many people, This makes me wanna go to the pet store but there not gonna let me hang there and play with the animals for an hour or so, but il b looking into this!! recon it would be good for you too OP:\
 
Animals are totally out of the question for me right now. I can barely take care of myself, much less a pet. I do understand what everyone is saying though.

I came to a realization last night.. according to my church, she was wayyy too young to go to the lake of fire. That's what I was most concerned about. I feel like a load has been lifted off of my shoulders. You got to be age 20 and upwards to enter into the Lord's covenant, so says the Old testament. So what I need to focus on now is my salvation.

Thanks for the encouragement...:)
 
Yeaaa, I don't think i'm that crazy about trying Datura now. Like I said, I took a bunch of diphenhydramine and didn't like it.
 
Those often have a tendency to, you know, kill people. I'd be very wary of trying such an extreme intervention.
 
Sweat lodges basically cook you. Sit in a very hot and humid room for hours at a time, causing hyperthermia.

I wouldn't call it a treatment, hence "intervention", and it's rather extreme.
 
I've always heard it was quite fun? You must have had a bad experience in one or something? 8)
 
Not that i'm questioning you are or anything, but I haven't ever heard of anyone dying in one of those before.
 
Yes, Dave certainly is right. Sweat Lodges are NOT to be taken lightly. It just seems like the OP might benefit from non-drug/non-traditional, alternative forms of treatment or therapy.

OP - Not only is death a concern during the actual ritual itself, but it is also a concern while the lodge is being built/dissembled. You gotta be in reasonably good shape and have someone who KNOWs what he or she is doing. It's imperative that you work with a professional if one was to try out a sweat lodge.
 
Glad I know that now, so if I do try to use it to help me, it'll only make me even more paranoid and anxious then I already am. Good going.
 
Hey :\
just come thru to see how things were going for you OP...
What Dave and toothpastedog are telling you is for HR's sake, and they is really right...
That sweat lodge/ tents/ houses whatever are pretty hardcore I have heard of death reports some years ago and its not a thing to be taken lightly is all. Maybe it could be something to explore as said with a pro and definitly @ a later date? I dunno but agree with toothpastedog on the forms of therapy that you could benifit from.
<3 n best wishes coming ur way.
 
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