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im not tweaking, but i do take adderall which causes me to feel that odd need to do something, even if its a complete waste of time.
i have probably done this so much i have probably been through 1000 pages of paper (ive done this for draw the molecule thing for years). its completely
pointless, as i have no understanding of what causes a drug to have efficacy at a particular receptor, so i cant even determine if my "theoretical drugs" are even active. but its strangely fun
i always wanted to be a chemist, since i loved both quantum mechanics and drug experimentation, i thought id be able to study chemistry in college, then
buy all the chemicals i need, and then make them at home. then i came to my senses and realized that you literally cant easily buy ANY chemicals from a cchemical supply shop.