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I just need to post Vs. wisdom, beauty, and baggage.. here hold this bag and ponder.

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Ughh I'm such an emotional wreck today. I cannot believe my ears why the hell would my mother accuse me of stealing whatttt????:? I have no words nothing I say will make my mother change her mind, so I guess I'm a thief :\ . Fuck this my mom knows me better than stealing that's so '2006' I'm over that low stage in my life. I'm in a better place and I thought she knew that too.
 
Thanks but my ride to my doctors appointment to get my sub script cancelled on me....so I may have to re schedule my appointment. Ughhh I'm so upset, I might have to cold turkey everything and just say fuck the subs, idk.:?
 
Well I'm coming off of geez more than 200mg of oxy/Norco's etc....a day if I can get it (orally). I have been using since I was about 15-16 years old, I stared off with morphine.

But I made it to my appointment and got my sub script so I hope everything goes well this time, this is my second attempt of being clean.
 
^Good job greeneyes get it goin girl! It'll not only make you feel better about yourself but you will feel healthirr as well. Goodluck !♡♡
 
i think you'll do fine greeneyez but if you feel like you might slip i suggest giving AA or NA a try for me if i were to get sober i'd have to be very active in AA to have more people who understand me (to an extent) to talk to when i want to use but i've never tried to quit for me and from what i've heard and from personal experience you have to want to quit but mostly for yourself
 
Thanx Maya!

@ My Budz flowers, yes this sobriety is for myself, & at my doctors appointment today I also had to make a therapy appointment(S) as well, due to the fact that quitting is hard enough but talking about it will do me a ton better, in a sense of getting clean and feeling well mentally.

Damn I hope this post made sense I just took my first does of sub and my regular dosage klonopin for the night ,so with me taking the Sub for the first time in a while, I'm feeling like I'll wake up tomorrow editing my post!!!:s Eh bare with me!!

<3 <3 <3 Peace & love to everyone here. <3 <3 <3
 
you made sense just take only as much sub as it takes to feel ok cause the next thing on your way to sobriety would be to stop the subs and maybe the kpins but if quitting the anxiety meds becomes a danger to your sobriety hop back on them if you take them as prescribed i would say you're sober anyways some people agree with me some don't but to me if you have to stay on subs and kpins for the rest of your life as long as you take them as prescribed you are sober
 
Good luck gr33n3y3z! I wish you the best! It may take a few days to stabilize on the subs, don't let this deter you though!
 
so happy idk why but damn am i happy since i swing from super depressed to happy w/o anything happening i'm inclined to believe the doctors when they say i'm bipolar fuck i hope everyone has an awesome day for most of you... tomorrow... i love my life all the bad i experience just makes the happy days that much more enjoyable
 
I'm trying so hard to muster up the energy to go grocery shopping lol. At least I learned my lesson and won't go on the weekends anymore. It's so tempting to just shell out the extra money and get my groceries delivered again.
 
^^ Not sure if you live near a "Safeway" grocery store, but they do a free first delivery. ;)


I'm fuckin' sick. I don't know with what but it almost feels like opiate withdrawal. I'm extremely sore, painful muscles/bones, chills randomly through my body, generally feeling rundown and no energy. This sucks. :\

Now my eye's are randomly watering! This is exactly like lightweight opiate withdrawal?!? I don't understand. I have been taking my subs..

I was nauseous last night as well, which got slightly better after eating an apple. Not terribly nauseous today, but I do have zero appetite. Haven't been able to eat anything yet today.
 
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Oh man I hate waiting for a long time I was supposed to have been attended do at 12 noon but the doc is super late. I need to get back to the office as we are super busy right now. Sigh... what a drag..
 
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