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Oh ladies you are making me crave for potato chips right now. I would usually buy lays potato chips and dip 'em in sour cream
 
oh girl I just got home from the gym!!! You are gonna ruin what I have worked out for :p =D
 
gr33n3y3z said:
Haha, keep it cool have an avocado instead?
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neversickanymore said:
alright you people are making my good damn mouth water..........
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Actually I just ate banana instead, although there is a sweet dessert beside me. It's a filipino dessert called "yema"

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Here is the link for the recipe of making it if anyone is interested:

http://www.filipinorecipesite.com/filipino-dessert-recipes/yemas.html
 
So I FINALLY got my girlfriend to open up to me and talk to me about what's really been bothering her.

Apparently she's been afraid of of opening up to me about how emotional stuff because in the past she's had guys walk away from her because they didn't want to deal with her emotions, so not only was she afraid that I would walk away from her too, but she was afraid that she was going to hurt me and she couldn't do that because of how much she really loves me. I just got off the phone with her, I finally got her to open up and convinced her that what's happened in either of our pasts isn't who we are today. Especially how IM not a guy from her past who is just using her for sex. That;s not me.

Either way, things are looking up. now. It's kind of funny actually, she didn't initially open up to me, I saw right through her bullshit and I strait called her out on it. Anyway, thanks everyone for support. Things are no where near perfect, but at least i know the truth now and she's not going to break up with me, at least not in the next couple days like i originally thought.
 
caseface99 said:
^^ Thank you. I really appreciate it, I may take you up on that offer either later or tomorrow.

The sadness comes and goes. If I get out and do stuff it distracts me, but the moment I get back home I feel the pain again. :/

I started studying for my assessment for college and actually distracted myself quite well for like 3 hours doing that today. I think I'm going to start studying hardcore for now. I'm trying not to message my girl, I want to give her space. She's just a recovering alcoholic/addict so I'm afraid of her being alone in her head at the same time. Not that she'll use, but that her delusions of grandeur regarding us and our relationship will grow stronger. I really hope she's talked to her sponsor or someone to get another perspective.
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Awh you seem like a good, caring person. Giving her space is good n its sweet that you are thinking of hee. If she has a sponsor that's good, right? Shows she's trying to do whatever to get better.

caseface99 said:
So I FINALLY got my girlfriend to open up to me and talk to me about what's really been bothering her.

Apparently she's been afraid of of opening up to me about how emotional stuff because in the past she's had guys walk away from her because they didn't want to deal with her emotions, so not only was she afraid that I would walk away from her too, but she was afraid that she was going to hurt me and she couldn't do that because of how much she really loves me. I just got off the phone with her, I finally got her to open up and convinced her that what's happened in either of our pasts isn't who we are today. Especially how IM not a guy from her past who is just using her for sex. That;s not me.

Either way, things are looking up. now. It's kind of funny actually, she didn't initially open up to me, I saw right through her bullshit and I strait called her out on it. Anyway, thanks everyone for support. Things are no where near perfect, but at least i know the truth now and she's not going to break up with me, at least not in the next couple days like i originally thought.
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Just saw this - I'm glad she has opened up to you n you're not breaking up xxx

Take care
Evey xxx
 
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so bored with my life its unbelievable

trying to ask some people on fb if they want to go out and do shit but who else is gonna go and do what i want to do at noon on a thursday?

im on a different level from everyone else :sus:
 
caseface99 said:
So I FINALLY got my girlfriend to open up to me and talk to me about what's really been bothering her.

Apparently she's been afraid of of opening up to me about how emotional stuff because in the past she's had guys walk away from her because they didn't want to deal with her emotions, so not only was she afraid that I would walk away from her too, but she was afraid that she was going to hurt me and she couldn't do that because of how much she really loves me. I just got off the phone with her, I finally got her to open up and convinced her that what's happened in either of our pasts isn't who we are today. Especially how IM not a guy from her past who is just using her for sex. That;s not me.

Either way, things are looking up. now. It's kind of funny actually, she didn't initially open up to me, I saw right through her bullshit and I strait called her out on it. Anyway, thanks everyone for support. Things are no where near perfect, but at least i know the truth now and she's not going to break up with me, at least not in the next couple days like i originally thought.
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plmar said:
so bored with my life its unbelievable

trying to ask some people on fb if they want to go out and do shit but who else is gonna go and do what i want to do at noon on a thursday?

im on a different level from everyone else :sus:
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Here if you need to talk xxx
 
Hey caseface, I don't take them anymore, they cause me too much anxiety. But do I want to develop a lifestyle where they wouldn't cause that? Sure, I play guitar and if given the chance I would be the next Jimi Hendrix ; )

Beneath my abstract thought, is a very much need. The ladies would be mad at me right now. Tears. I feel forced to cry. But the thing is, it is not just pain, loss, and rejection which is making me cry. The past is, the world is, the nature is, music is... It's like I am at the end of a road and I couldn't understand more that whatever happened on the long journey is gone forever, yet I am amazed because forever is existence and existence is everything. Eternity. Some people believe the universe is going to contract at one point and everything is going to be suctioned back into the original black hole of existence before the big bang. I believe that everything is, and always will be. Mix that with creative writing and I may be even producing the lysergic acid naturally, lol.
 
I've no friends left, I've nothing to strive for, my ability to create new music has gone, my mind has just been "Kill yourself, Kill yourself, Kill yourself" and - to top it all off and go all "oh woe is me" - my left calf muscle is in excruciating pain that had me get a taxi down into town to get my prescription and back home.
I've taken a fuck load of Codeine, Diazepam, Aspirin and a good 13 units of Vodka and all it's done is very fucking slightly made my exclaims of "ARRRGFUCKKK" a bit quieter.
I've enough money to do so (kill myself), or I could just buy a PS3 and GTA 5 and continually drive a car off a cliff or something to get a taste of it.
Prolly better off with the latter...
 
^Hey you guys looks like a few are having a bad day today.. Whatever happens tomorrow is another day so keep your heads up. Here sending some love to you all. <3<3<3
 
i have less and less of a reason to care everyday and yesterday was just a day like any other nothing to look back on to be present for or to wish for in the future i already am dead just still have this pointless body that everyone insists i hold on to
 
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