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I have a voice in my head that tells me to do naughty things...

That is extremely messed up man. You need to seek help ASAP. No matter how well-intentioned this "voice" or intuition has seemed in the past, it is definitely not healthy. Please, please, please do not inflict bodily harm on yourself or any other living thing simply because "the voice" has told you to.
 
mallocup said:
I lived with a guy once that had a major psychotic episode, he had no other family (to speak of) so my housemate and I were the ones to take him through the steps of being assessed and finally admitted to a psych ward. the major incident that led to our reporting him (to the crisis assessment team) was him going missing for 2 nights (after a show in another town), and then him finally turning up with a batch of blood that was headed for a pathology lab in another town. the breakdown of the 2 days had him going for a midnight swim naked, coming out of the water and not finding his clothes, breaking into a nearby house and rearranging some of the furniture, and then committing some sacred rituals (magic?) while in the front yard of this strangers house. all completeley naked. he managed to finally find his way onto a train headed in the right direction the next day but said as he was passing the blood esky, he saw that it had his name on in, so he'd decided to bring it home.

he had been on edge for a while, was reading the chaos theory and exploring the concept of higher powers etc.. but when he asked me to leave the room so that he could have a private conversation with his cat, I knew that he had gone beyond the point of where I alone could help him.

one other thing was that when the assessment team arrived, my friend admitted that he had just smoked a little weed (completely unbeknown to us), that little cherub of disclosure cost us all another 3 days of exploriing the infinite potentiation of fractals and cat conversation watching, as the team wouldn't take him in until he was 3 days clean.

if this post is for real, someone around this person needs to act..
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You know, I was kind of against your stance until I read that line:|
 
This reminds me of a story from the Bible. God told Abraham to sacrifice his only son from his wife. That whole thing was also a test of Abraham's obedience. Previously to this event, God made his covenant with Abraham which required the circumcision of every male. I would not have even remembered this had the OP not mentioned the sacrifice of the foreskin.

I don't know what to make of the Dr. DOB's situation though. It would be nice if he would make another post.
 
ASquishyApple said:
This reminds me of a story from the Bible. God told Abraham to sacrifice his only son from his wife. That whole thing was also a test of Abraham's obedience. Previously to this event, God made his covenant with Abraham which required the circumcision of every male. I would not have even remembered this had the OP not mentioned the sacrifice of the foreskin.

I don't know what to make of the Dr. DOB's situation though. It would be nice if he would make another post.
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My thoughts exactly upon reading this. Seemed to me like the OP was making a joke at pretending to be a modern-day Abraham (hearing/speaking to God, God gives wise helpful commands, God tests Abraham by commanding him to sacrifice his beloved son, at the last second God's angel appears to tell Abraham to sacrifice a sheep or ram or something that just walked in, God was really testing Abraham's faith the whole time, God promises that Abraham's descendants will be incredibly numerous and successful, the whole Jewish circumcision tradition).

That said, it's also possible that the OP at some point internalized this Bible story and is playing it out in his psychotic break. If he wasn't making a joke, I sincerely hope he checks himself into a psych ward so that he can save himself and his loved ones from possible harm and so that he can get the help he needs.
 
It really seems like this guy is just a troll especially since he hasn't posted back. This would be a shot at the Bible not religion. Scriptures are not religions. Religions are human created systems based on what was interpreted from the scriptures. Religions tend to divide and build walls between people. All scriptures are meant to do is teach. Religion is not necessarily insane but some people who associate with a particular religion can be a bit insane, which greatly differs form unsane.
 
ASquishyApple said:
It really seems like this guy is just a troll especially since he hasn't posted back.
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He's probably not posting back in here because he feels inhibited and embarrassed by comments like yours insinuating that he's fabricating his story for attention or for trolling.

Like I said before, this is The Dark Side, and we must give everyone the benefit of the doubt. So please, if you don't have anything supportive to say, perhaps you should question why you're coming back to this thread at all.

Thanks.
 
Learn to ignore the demons. They tell horrible lies. They have no intention of revealing the secrets of the universe to you, or creating glorious nations. Trust me, I know. All they wish to do is drag you into the seventh circle of Hell, where you'll be forever immersed in a river of boiling blood.
 
I hope this is a joke but either way the police need to be contacted, the OP's IP address needs to be tracked down, and the OP needs to be found so his family can be contacted.

I would definitely want someone to call the police on my brother if he was openly talking about killing me in an online forum...

OP, I hope you find peace in some way and I wish you the best of luck but your family really needs to be informed of what's going on inside your head ASAP. People think strange thoughts all the time and our inner monologues will tell us to do things here and there that we know better than to do. This happens with everyone. However, when you actually cross this proverbial line and tread into territory that involves possibly hurting someone, well, this is something that needs to be addressed by professionals...
 
To the OP--

Hey man, I can understand where you're coming from, I too have lived with what you are describing as entities that seem to have the capacity to completely invade consciousness and alter the physical world, despite the mechanics of it. You HAVE to have an apostacy, right now. Look at this entity with disgust, and pity. Why should it worry itself with you? Why are you special, instead of the billions of others? Why are you suddenly entrusted with a secret of the universe through simple organic pain? Maybe... you might say, that it is a primal, ugly thought process that took it's form in an entity that was once immune to irrational primal urges. Well, now this entity is a problem... BUT it is nothing you can't handle! Remember that! This is a huge point in your life where everything is uncertain, because it seems you have never faced this entity head on. For me... I was sober for quite some time until my mind was calm. It might require more drastic action on your part at this moment if you cannot differentiate between the entity being something you should ignore, or something you HAVE TO follow.

Just remember, you have free will, and you are a good person.
 
i have been in therapy for a decade now.When we found out I was bipolar-1 i had a SEVERE manic episode.I heard things,saw things,felt things that were not real but in my mind they were.I would never call bullshit when someone reaches out.you never know if your jokes and sarcasm can run a seriously ill person away.

OP-seek psychiatric help IMMEDIATELY and do those of us here who care a favor and give us an update.
you are in the right place.let us help you if we can.
Much Peace and Love...............skillz<3
 
I'm pretty sure we have been trolled.
This just makes me sad really.
So many darksiders really do care and put their time and effort into helping others and then yo have people that come up and may bs stories and never post back.
It seem to me to be an insensitive and self centered form of amusement.

I only hope the OP posts back to prove me wrong but I doubt it.
 
To the OP: I've just be back reading some of your other threads and it seems as if you're a heavy meth user.

Can I ask how long it has been since you started hearing the voice? Also how long has it been since you slept? Sleep is natural and always good (you mentioned yourself, quite rightly, the dangers of sleep deprivation in another post). So if I were you I would try and get some rest first.

The second thing you need to do is to talk to your family about this. How do you feel about your sister? Do you talk? What did you talk about when you opened the present for her at her party? Was she happy? How did that make you feel? If your voice is telling you to kill her, maybe you should spend some time to listen to your sister for a little first. After all, it can't hurt to listen to someone you've grown up with, can it?

Finally, can I ask what makes you so trusting of this voice? You say it sounds awe inspiring... but then so did Hitler when he gave his speeches, it didn't make him right. If the voice is willing to risk you killing your own sister just to test you then can it really be right all the time? Does is really help you?

I hope everything works out for you man. Just remember that meth is an extremely powerful drug that can produce many different effects in different people. Try to cut down on your usage, get some healthy sleep and think about your life a little.

Good luck to you.
 
Stuff like this should be taken seriously.



Mother Distraught After Teen Stabs, Kills 4-Year-Old Sister
Bond set at $10 million
By MARCO STENDARDO
Updated 7:10 PM CDT, Sat, May 23, 2009

Source: http://www.nbcchicago.com/news/local-beat/Brother-Kills-4-Year-Old-Half-Sister.html#ixzz0nmTuBgaF

A frantic mother arrived home in Mokena Friday night to find police outside her home. Her 4-year-old daughter Sabrina Clement had been stabbed to death by her teenage half brother, accordng to Will County prosecutors.

"The worst part was seeing the mother come home and they wouldn’t let her in the house,” a neighbor who did not want to be identified told the Sun-Times.

Keith T. Randulich, 18, has been charged with first degree murder. The coroner's office said Sabrina suffered a sharb blow to the neck.

A judge on Saturday set bond at $10 million.

Source: http://www.nbcchicago.com/news/local-beat/Brother-Kills-4-Year-Old-Half-Sister.html#ixzz0nmU2w4R6
 
Pillthrill said:
So many darksiders really do care and put their time and effort into helping others and then yo have people that come up and may bs stories and never post back.
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lol, do you expect someone who's suffering from psychosis to take these kinds of things into consideration?

Not saying this is legit, but have any of you considered that maybe he doesn't give a shit what your thoughts on the matter are, and just wanted people to know about it.
 
Dr.DOB said:
Like i was at my sisters birthday party and i was cutting the cake and i was just staring at the big shiny knife slicing through the spongy chocolatey celebratory desert. Then I hear the familiar command in originating from my head to KILL MY SISTER. This voice always sounds the same, as if the voice is a real entity. The voice has this really aweinspiring aura to it, the vibes I get from the suggestions the voice makes to me seem as though this entity is trying to show me something, something that would shift the worlds paradigm.

This voice has never lead me astray. Sometimes it tells me to do wild things that may seem irrational to me at the time, but always turn out preferable in the end. For example I was going to go pick up a sack of 5-meo-dalt and i called my dealer and he said come over. I was smokin a bowl bout to head out and the voice told me to continue smoking and never show up. I never question the voice though and I do as it says because for some reason it always knows the whats best for me. The next day after not even contacting him to tell him im not coming i find out he gets busted at the same time i was bout to go over there!!!!

For this and many other reasons I no the voice has some reason for telling me to do something I would never to. So I dont even think twice to not kill my sister because i am totally confident there is some good reason for it, possibly because later in life she will become a murderer and i have to save her future victims or something. So in the middle of the party i go and am about to fucking kill her, my whole family has no idea what is about to go down but im certain it will turn out good.

So im walking over to her with the knife in my hand and by the time i get half way between her and I the dog starts barking like mad at the door, apparently the mailman is here exactly at the time i was bout to fucking murder my sis! So i decide to wait until the mailman leaves to do my bidding. But then I realize the package was for my sisters birthday and it was a huge box that needed to be cut open and I had a knife in my hand that I just wiped the cake off of. Then I realized that's what the voice was intending for me to do the whole time, was to be the hero with the knife to open the present for her.

The voice later tells me when we are alone that, that was a test to see if I trusted the voice enough to allow the voice to divulge me with all its secrets of the universe. Then I told other people about how this voice knows everything and that my offspring will bring forth new nations and anybody could live in our glory if they just simply make a covenant by sacrificing what is dearest to them, their foreskin.
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chocolate related? What it's really is non educated and misshandling a knife is serious. It has to be done the right way. Cakes can be multilevel/rectangular/ and even round. Get it? Round. "There is no voices in the head, just sensory."
 
To me the OP reads like a genuine psychosis, you (can) get used to them, the trick is discerning the correct course of action which if you recognise the state is inaction - which occassionaly led me to speculate if that were the basis for a catatonic state in those who couldn't scramble back toward a more stable reality?
 
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