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  • EADD Moderators: Pissed_and_messed | Shinji Ikari

I hate waiting for the postman.

Ahhhhh I'm sorry. Yea it's easy to miss sarcasm / joking online. I do it often.

How you doing anyhow? Aint seen you around in awhile. Or maybe it's just that we visit different threads lol

Evey

I'm good thanks for asking but as you can see from my post count I'm not a regular poster I seem to come in phases of posting quite often then going weeks or even months without posting again but it usually relates to my drug use, the more I get high the more you will see me on here.

I did have a phase of coming on here after speed binges and rambling constant random shit that never seemed to end but had to ban myself from going on social media whilst still high haha. how's you anyway?
 
Just going up town for a few drinks only pubbing it tho probably although I'm tempted to take a couple of youtube pills with me but not sure. got some speed but just saving that for raves now
as it always ends up being a 2 or 3 day bender with that stuff so not a good idea when I'm trying to get my fitness back up. You?
 
going to be hard in the morning i know ive got a load of benzos coming in the post which i cant take going to be a bitch having them till i can send them on to another person i have lined up for them
 
Can't you just try and find a bit of will power?

that's easier said than done i just simply don't want the around me remember this isnt like ive just started its been 22 plus years of abuse that i am dealing with here i am not use to being clean and these were ordered before this happened had the same problem with drink and butane gas couldn't have them around me at first took a few years before i trusted my self around the damn shit
 
Oh I'm sorry. Didn't realise it was 22 years. I know its easier said than done. Wish I could help
In some way, sorry i can't. Is that not anyone who could wait with you n post the benzos for you?
Is there any time to contact the vendor n ask them to forward to the persons address i stead?

Evey
 
no evey thats the thing all i have is charlie no family no friends outside the internet

any way thats solved for today as ive no benzos in the post

try getting out and meeting some new friends, join a gym or summut don't waste your life away worrying about your next fix. you say you got some Charlie but you have no friends outside the Internet so what's the point in getting Charlie if you don't go out it's a ssocial drug.

unless by Charlie you mean an actual person?
 
Charlie's his cat (sorry, FG, to speak of you in third person).

FG, I know it's not easy but I think deano is just trying to help.

With your therapist, maybe you could try something, 1 step at a time. Doing everything at once may be too much n overwhelm you - you don't want that, recovery is a marathon not a sprint. You could draw a plan with him/her n it'll be at YOUR pace with you in control. There's a method called Systematic desensitization, where people are slowly introduced to their phobias over a period of time. The client rates their level of anxiety at each interval (eg 10 extremely anxious 0 not anxious) n doesn't progress until both client n counsellor / therapist are satisfied that the level of anxiety is at a low level.

They may use a form of SD with you to help your social anxiety.

Evey
 
try getting out and meeting some new friends, join a gym or summut don't waste your life away worrying about your next fix. you say you got some Charlie but you have no friends outside the Internet so what's the point in getting Charlie if you don't go out it's a ssocial drug.

unless by Charlie you mean an actual person?

charlie is my cat

*awaits selfies with Charlie on a night out in the town & at at gym* :D
 
Postman was incredibly quick to deliver marshmallow leaves for my noid mix, less than 24 hours since making the order 8o

An ultra rare product that has been out of circulation for some time has recently popped up somewhere, im not stating the substance name as this really needs to stay down on the QT, the source needs protecting, with all these unknown lurkers, god knows who they are. I'l know in about 2-3 hours whether its a good synth or not. Or if its just something else being relabelled and sold as somethig else. But this source has an excellnt rep ime. I will be very excited indeed if it is the real thing.
 
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